Make Me Wanna Die

Taylor was sitting on the couch while Devin and Blake played the Mario Kart, sitting on the carpet. The boys taunted each other when someone was going to win and score the game. Taylor laughed happily to see the boys enjoyed the game. Blake was winning but Devin didn’t want to give up. He always thought he’s the whiz for Mario Kart.

And in the end, finally Devin could beat Blake’s ass off. Blake complained in disagreement, “That’s unfair. You cheated, Dev”

“I didn’t, brotha. I’m the man,” Devin laughed when he watched Blake childishly threw the joystick and ran to the kitchen. “Make us some popcorn, Blake-y” Devin teased. He made Taylor joined the fun. “Come and play with me, Blondie,” Devin said.

Taylor got use with the pet name Devin’s been calling her, and she somehow enjoyed it. Taylor slid from the couch and sat next to Devin with her joystick.

Blake watched Devin and Taylor from the distance. They both laughed and when Devin defeated Taylor’s, Taylor playfully punched him in the chest. They practically shared some affection, and Blake could tell about it.

Blake only shook his head and then finished with his popcorn. He said his goodbye to the couple and headed out from the bus. On the other way, Sierra was still fast asleep in process.

“C’mon, Blondie, at least you could beat me for once” Devin spoke arrogantly as Taylor stuck out her tongue.

“I’m not really an expert in this game. You’re just too good, Dev” Taylor replied.

“Well, what can I say? I’m good” Devin grinned childishly white they were still in the middle of the game.

The game ended fast and obviously, Devin won the competition. Devin raised his hands up to the air and cheered. Taylor rolled her blue eyes in annoyance as she put down the joystick. They both fell in silent as they had some slight staring contest.

Taylor couldn’t eye off his eyes, they just hypnotized hers, but she enjoyed it. She had some interest on his face with wild beating inside her ribcage. She couldn’t help but reached his shaggy brown hair and played with it. She was caught up of the moment and if she could tell the truth, she liked this Ingelido.

Devin grinned when her delicate hand played with his hair. His eyes were fixated with hers and he was totally carried away. He’s been finding her attractive since the first time they met. He wanted to know her and he’s dying to know how she felt toward him. Devin leaned in and Taylor did it as well, they both crashed their lips together, swallowing each other lips slowly and gently.

Taylor shut her eyes and reached his neck to bring him closer. She pulled off his beanie and ran her fingers along his soft shaggy. Devin played with her lips and pulled away before his raging hormones forced him to nip on her neck, making sounds.

They pulled away for a brief moment as they grinned to each other.

“I’ve wanted to do that, y’know,” Devin said innocently.

“Me too... uhh…” Taylor blushed. Her cheeks were in deep scarlet as Devin kissed her cheek. “Devin?”

“Mmmhm?” Devin replied and put some little kisses on her crook lips.

“Is it weird to hear if I said...? I...uhh... like you?” Taylor confessed, turning redder than before.

Devin laughed and kissed her once again, this time more eager. “Nope. You’re such a cutie when you confessed that, Blondie” both of them giggled.

Taylor smirked and pressed her lips gently on Devin’s again, “But please don’t tell my band mates about this. They would flip out”

“Haha, okie. I see those old men don’t know about the Warped. Everything could happen here, y’know. Well, beside they’re not your keeper, right?” Devin winked. He slung his strong tattooed arm around Taylor and brought her closer.

“Well actually, Ben is my keeper. He’s like my guardian here. He’s my Dad’s good friend. And my Dad asked him to take care of me”

“What?” Devin couldn’t help but laughed aloud. “What are you, Blondie? Are you fifteen or what? You don’t need people to take care of you, you’re a big girl” Devin smirked and put his beanie back on his shaggy hair. He then leaned on Taylor again and gave her some cute little kisses. Somehow, he couldn’t get over her from his head.

Devin grabbed her nape and crashed her lips, this time he’s dying to slip in his tongue inside her little mouth. Taylor moaned while Devin managed her to sit on his lap. Taylor encaged his waist with her legs while his hands trailed on her revealed thigh.

“Uhm... I’m not fifteen, but sixteen. I’m gonna be seventeen this July,” she said when Devin stopped.

Devin could hear his heart stopped beating, he could feel the time stopped for a moment when he heard Taylor. Taylor smiling face stared to him while on the other way Devin had a mixture of weird look.

“Oh my fucking God, what the fuck are you doing!” a shriek came from behind; it was Sierra with his widened eyes looked so shocked at Devin and Taylor. Devin quickly let go Taylor and stood up from his sitting form. Sierra glared dangerously at Devin while in perspective way Taylor looked startled and confused.

“Devin, for God’s sake what are you thinking!?”

“Sie,” Devin began to explain but it seemed nothing came out from his mouth.

Taylor saw Sierra was beyond enraged at Devin, she was totally clueless and stood up as well, “Sierra, I...uh...” she merely thought about Sierra dating Devin, but it’s impossible. Of course no. Nevertheless, why she looked so mad about it.

“I believe you made out with Taylor, Devin!” Sierra almost liked to yell.

“Sierra, it’s nothing. Calm down, you look…” Taylor tried to explain/ Sierra turned to Taylor with her sad look.

“She’s a minor, Ingelido! How could… and you should at least think about yourself. You’re not supposed to kiss her!”

“Sie, I didn’t know. I just found out, she’s only sixteen. I—um…” Devin glanced to Taylor. “Taylor, I guess you need to get back to your bus,” he said monotonously.

“Hang on, what happened here?” Taylor looked hurt when Devin particularly kicked her off the bus.

Sierra walked to Taylor and then engulfed her with her sisterly hug.

“Sie, what happened?” Taylor was close to cry, she didn’t like Devin called her with her real name. She liked it more when he called her with Blondie. Taylor thought that something must be wrong here.

Sierra pulled away and sent her glare look to Devin. Devin awkwardly faced down; he didn’t dare to see Taylor in the eyes.

“Seriously, Taylor. I’m sorry” Devin began with weakness in his voice.

“Sorry for what?” Taylor had a demanding look at Devin before she felt tears started to build beneath her eyelids. She didn’t get use with rejection. She just said that she liked him, and he was pretty fine with it. He kept kissing her after that, but she couldn’t tell what’s wrong with it.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t.. I shouldn’t have kissed you”

“Why—“ she choked her breath. Taylor couldn’t help to cringed at Devin’s face. Sierra on the other way still kept her hands around Taylor.

“You’re sixteen,”

“AND?”

Devin sighed, “I’m sorry, I didn’t know you’re sixteen. I thought you were twenty something, the way you look. You look…. Great”

“So you’re not interested with younger girls? Great!” Taylor said sarcastically, “I thought you liked me back, Devin fucking Ingelido!”

“It’s… it’s complicated, Taylor… I couldn’t... I shouldn’t have kissed you. I liked you, but not in that way…”

“So you just used me?”

“No, it’s not… umm... I liked you to be my company…I’m really sorry”

“So there’s no fucking slight chance for us then? I’m almost seventeen, and next year, I’d be eighteen. Age doesn’t matter anything. I like you, Dev. And we fucking made out!”

Devin rubbed his temple in frustration, “It’s not that, Taylor! I have fiancée, and we’re having a baby soon”

Then it went silence.

Taylor’s blue orbs dilated from its normal size. She couldn’t believe that Devin just said that horrible thing. She didn’t believe that Devin actually had fiancée and a baby!

Taylor’s body shook wildly while Sierra tried to comfort her.

Devin didn’t say anything after that; he just threw his face down. He didn’t dare to look Taylor again.

“YOU’RE FUCKING BASTARD!” Taylor couldn’t hold herself; she threw her best punch on Devin’s face and then kicked his crotch before she left the bus hurriedly. Devin moaned in shocked pain, he couldn’t feel his manhood/ he squeaked and dropped on the floor.

Sierra shook her head at her band mate and then tried to catch Taylor.

Tears formed down from her eyes when she faced the reality that the guy she once liked just broke her heart into fragile pieces.

Sierra found Taylor was walking in quick pace back to her bus. Sierra engulfed her shaky body tightly and tried really hard to comfort her.

“Tays…” Sierra whispered while Taylor hugged Sierra back. People started to gather around to see the famous Sierra Kusterback suddenly hugged the famous Hollywood actress. Sierra decided to Taylor to her bus as she calmed her down.

~***~

The next day, Taylor never greeted Devin when they met coincidentally. She decided to act as if they didn’t know each other. Sierra had told her everything when she comforted Taylor.

Sierra had been a great ‘big sister’ for Taylor, and she made good to calm Taylor down. Sierra told stories about Devin. He knocked up this girl named Erin Ray and then they were engaged after Devin found this out. Erin had carried the baby for like around 3-4 months and Sierra said Devin was thrilled yet really happy to see the baby soon.

Hundreds of thought played in Taylor’s mind; she didn’t know why Devin made out with her and told sweet things about her. Why did he do that to her and his fiancée? He actually cheated on his fiancée, but he didn’t give a damn about it before he found out that Taylor’s still sixteen.

It broke Taylor’s heart pretty bad.

Today, Sierra was keeping Taylor a company. She decided to cheer Taylor a bit by treating her some good stuff with Tay Jardine and Jess Bowen. Taylor’s depressed face obviously showed something, she hardly spoke the whole day.

When the three girls were approaching some food tents, they saw Devin was sitting near that. Sierra quickly grabbed Taylor’s wrist and soothed her. But it failed since Taylor didn’t see only Devin, but Taylor saw Devin was kissing this brunette with tanned skin.

The brunette must be that Erin girl.

Taylor only could watch them from distance; she didn’t have enough courage to approach them. Sierra motioned Tay and Jess to go first to the food tent leaving Sierra only with Taylor.

“You need to face it, Taylor. I’m sorry. That’s Erin,” Sierra said. Taylor only stared at the couple with hurt look, Erin looked nice, and she was like other nice girl. She slightly looked preppy but she’s just fine. Her belly barely showed something, but Taylor was sure soon enough that Erin girl would show her watermelon tummy.

She carried the Devil’s spawn of Devin Ingelido.

The couple looked happy, Erin kissed Devin in lovely way, she laughed when Devin whispered something in her eras, and Devin looked really happy when he played with Erin’s tummy.

Taylor bit down her lip and faced down. She couldn’t hold herself, but turning her heels away from the food tent. Sierra soother Taylor’s back and squeezed Taylor’s side sweetly.

Taylor didn’t cry, but she could feel her blood streamed rapidly in her veins. Her heartbeat thumped faster and something bad lurched inside her stomach. She actually didn’t want to admit that she liked Devin more than normally she would like someone, but surely, she had developed some feelings for Devin more than that.

However, sadly, Devin threw Taylor’s heart to the floor, stomping it. All she needed to recover it and tried to get him away from his head.

However, Taylor couldn’t get herself away yet.

Young love is just ruthless.