"Revive Me With Just One Touch..."

"Goodmorning Velair, how are you doing?".

I walked into my therapists office and sat down across from him, "Umm..yeah thought it would get easier".

He shook his head,"Velair, why are you so bandaged up?".

I went into explaining myself while he just nodded and scribbled on his notepad.It struck my curiosity how he kept that notepad so far from my view and I never really knew what he was writing down.

"And what caused your mind to drift off?", well that caught my attention.

A lump formed in my throat, "I..uhh..you see..M-My mind is a-always w-wandering. Who knows r-really?".

Dr.Shaw pulled his glasses down and cocked his head to the side,"Curious and what would the truth be?".

I swallowed the lump, "M-Mo..Mo-Moth..Mother!".

The room went silent.I felt the walls closing in on me and I tried terribly hard to focus on the sound of Dr.Shaw's pen sliding across the notepad paper.He wasn't saying anything and my heart was beating out of my chest.Suddenly I was alone, alone in my head with..Mother.

"We were just fine until you came along!"

I'm sorry!

"You are nothing but a disappointment!"

I am not!

"You pathetic little bitch!"

"GET OUT OF MY HEAD", I pounded my fists on the sides of my skull.

Dr.Shaw jolted upright and pulled my hands away from myself, "Velair? Velair, it's alright!".

"You killed your father!"

"I didn't kill him!".

The doctors voice tried to breakthrough,"Kill who Velair?Velair?Talk to me!".

I only managed to shake my head violently as Mother's voice continued to scratch at my insides.Tears of pain were falling from my eyes.She had me under and she wouldn't let go.

"You don't deserve to live and I'm going to make sure you don't"

My breath was coming out in ragged gasps, I felt like I was being suffocated.

I hadn't realized that Dr.Shaw had called guards into the room and they were now struggling to pin me down.I wasn't having it, Mother was in my head and she had me convinced I was about to die.

"Don't fucking touch me!".

"You're a nuisance to this world!"

Through the haze I heard Dr.Shaw's voice, "Something must have triggered her memory, she won't stop fighting".

I heard another voice, a womenly voice, "What has this poor girl been through?".

One of the guards pulled my arms behind my back and secured them there while the other 2 help my legs down to make sure I wouldn't kick.I thrust my upper body forward and let out a glass shattering cry.

"FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING BITCH!".

I stopped flailing my limbs and fell to the floor on my side.
A flood of tears escaped my eyes.

"Why don't you love me...".

It was below a whisper but I knew everyone had heard me, the women kneeled down before me and pressed a needle into my skin.Everything went pitch black..

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"How long has she been out?". Jalen?

"3 hours.."Doctor?
"What happened?".Leila?

"We think it might have been a triggered memory, she was yelling out obscenities almost like she was defending herself".That's not Dr.Shaw

"What was she remembering?".Vic?

This can't be good..

The conversation continued on, some voices were familiar and others I couldn't really figure out.My head was aching and my arms were still tied up behind me.

I let out a shaky breath and the conversations ceased.

"Velair?".

I was lolling in and out of consciousness, "J-Jalen..".

Arms wrapped around my torso,"Oh Velair, I'm so sorry..we came as fast as we could".

"We?".

I opened my eyes wide to see the figures surrounding me, "Why?".

Leila walked towards me, stepping back when she saw me flinch. "We wanted to ask if you'd go to the beach but only found Jalen.Then Dr.Shaw called her and she was panicking.We'll leave if you want us to".

Everyones eyes held the same emotions:curiosity,sympathy, and..pain?

"D-Doctor..?".

"Yes Velair?".

"Did you sedate me?".

I felt someone set my hands free and hastily placed them on my lap, "Yes Velair, you were out of control.I didn't even bring you near the water this time".

Jalen raked her fingers through my hair, "Do you feel better now?".

My eyes roamed the room, "How bad was it?".

I heard a guard grunt, "You damn near tore off my baby maker".

My body shifted towards my guard,Joseph,"I'm sorry Joey, that wasn't me".

He came to me and placed a kiss on the top of my head, "Child if we weren't so close, I'd have asked for a transfer by now".

I gave him a sore smile, "I'm still sorry".

From the corner of my eye I saw Mike move towards me and turned my attention to him. "What did you remember?'.

His face, once held so much cockiness, now held nothing but pain.I was bringing these people misery and I had just barely met them.Tears sprang up in my eyes.

I felt someone's calloused finger wipe a stray tear away, turning my head I looked into the beautiful brown eyes of none other than Tony.
"Don't cry, it's all okay now".

My sights turned to all the others, their pain mirrored my own but they also held a look of genuine concern.They really wanted to help me.

"It's okay Velair, we can trust them", Jalen spoke into my ear and I watched as everyone nodded.

"I..I was r-remembering.."

Tony held one of my hands and held in gently in both of his, "Keep going".

I swallowed my sobs, "I w-was remembering..what s-she s-said".

My eyes glazed over and I scarcely heard someone ask 'Who said?'.I felt no sorrow, I was off and my heart held no emotion as I spoke my tragedy.

"Mother.The day she tried to kill me..".