She Loves You

Patrick..." I whispered. I felt the tears sweling up in my eyes. "I can't."

He looked away hurt.

"It's not that I don't love you, because I do. I know that you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. It's just that you are getting ready to go back on the road. If things go well with this record, you aren't going to be home as much. I don't want to be alone." I cried.

"Why did..Never mind. Just leave." Patrick yelled. He stood up. I stared at him with tears falling. I didn't know if he was being serious. I just stood there crying.

"I said leave." Patrick yelled. "How could you do this? I love you. I thought my career meant nothing to you. I thought...You Lied!! I want you out!"

"Patrick it's not even like that. I do want us to get married someday. Right is not the time-" I cried following him into the room.

"Save it! Did I not give you enough? Don't even answer that. Take your shit and leave." Patrick yelled throwning clothes at me.

I didn't know what to do. I knew he was serious. So I packed my things and headed to my car. There is when I headed over to Pete's house. I was crying so hard. I didn't want Patrick to think that I didn't love him. I'm just not ready to get married. Not yet.

I just wanted us to be together for at least another year before getting more serious.

Why can't he see that I just need time to think about my answer?

I pulled into the driveway, and walked up to the door. I rang the doorbell, and Pete answered the door.

"What happened?" He answered confused.

"I fucked up." I cried.

I knew he was the only one who would listen.

I want Patrick to listen. I want him to understand me.

Why did I say no to the one man that loves me?