My Little Bubble , Needs To Be Popped

John's View

"Come on , man , let's go" Pat said .

I sat there shaking my head . "No , Pat , just go , okay man?"

He just shrugged his shoulder . "Whatever man."

I sat there , running my hands through my hair . I really never forgave myself for what happen that night . I didn't remember a lot of it . I even asked what happened . The guys were so mad at me . I never know what I did . Till the guys told me that I made Lily leave .

I never felt so bad in my whole life . I grabbed my smokes and light one up . I never really let this habit go after what happened . I let the smoke go in my lungs and I blew it out . I shook my head at threw the cancer stick on the ground , stomped on it and went back inside the tour bus .

I went back to my bunk . I pulled out my iPhone and looked at the wallpaper . It was Lily and me at the party before I messed everything up . I turned it off . I rolled on my right side and looked at the bunk wall .

I heard the door open . Jared came in a opened up the current . "Dude , food is here."

I just nodded my head . I walked back and grabbed my food and went back to my bunk . I sat there eating . I rolled my eyes and walked out .

"Hey , JohnOh , come play xBox with us" Garrett said .

I waved him off . "Nahh , man it's cool , I'm just going to go lay down."

"Okay suite yourself."

I walked back got in the bunk and rolled on my right side and closed my eyes . Going to my state of dreamless slept .