I Miss 'Normal'
What I'm working for
I don't skip meals.
I don't purge.
I don't binge.
I weigh 105.
I'm getting help.
I think I may be getting better.
I just pray I don't slip.
I don't think I can make it through it again if I did.
I'm physically getting better, but that negative voice is still there.
I still want to cut.
Binge.
Purge.
Cut.
Starve.
Exercise.
Take pills.
Lose weight.
Reach 85 pounds.
But, I can't, because it will never make me happy, I'm not allowed, and I won't admit it, but it would destroy me.
I'm happy now, though.
Really.
I don't purge.
I don't binge.
I weigh 105.
I'm getting help.
I think I may be getting better.
I just pray I don't slip.
I don't think I can make it through it again if I did.
I'm physically getting better, but that negative voice is still there.
I still want to cut.
Binge.
Purge.
Cut.
Starve.
Exercise.
Take pills.
Lose weight.
Reach 85 pounds.
But, I can't, because it will never make me happy, I'm not allowed, and I won't admit it, but it would destroy me.
I'm happy now, though.
Really.