The Girl He Wasn't Supposed to Love

Faint beeping was all that i could hear as my eye lids slowly revealed my nightmare.Everything was white and clean i could barely move.....with every movement i felt more pressure in my lungs,tubes that helped me breathe restrained me from going anywhere.Only my eyes held all of the power really i couldnt rememeber much except across the room their was a small shadow on what i think was a couch.Sadly i knew for sure that it wasnt my parents not by a long shot.A nurse in her mid twenties came into the room her crystal blue eyes caring...she smiled at me as she checked my clipboard that hung at the end of my bed.I guess all of the movement made the figure in the couch stir uncovering himself he got up to be beside the nurse.It was georg sulken green eyes looked wearily at me''Is she gonna be ok?''he asked in a whisper eyes never leaving me.Checking over my clipboard her glanced turned back to me and then to georg....concern spilling over features''She did loose alot of blood and we did have to revive her so with few more tests and maybe even possibly a blood transfusion she will be back to her normal state and can return home''padding my brothers back sympathetically leaving quietly.Georg's light foot steps were the only thing that could be heard between the thick silence that now blanketed the room.''Hi''my voice still weak from the tubes that were stuck down my throat.''Shhh izzy dont try and say anything right now''stroking my hair softly he relaxed me,''No more talking until you get better ok?.I blinked letting him know i understand but i was too weak to nodd.He forced a smile and returned back to his corner on the couch with mountains of covers that yet again completely made him disappear.

...........One week later.........
A brisk cold fall morning the doctors finally told Georg that it was ok to take me home.We finally made it to his house i curled up in a ball on a small couch in the corner.Lacing my hands in my hair i braced myself for the conversation that i knew was inevitable to avoid.Georgs eyes stark and light with confusion.''Izzy are you ok?he started i just stared not blinkling:What was he retarted he did use to live in the same house as me before he decided to leave me and follow his dreams.''I dont know am i?....i retorted angrily.He stirred in his seat trying to make sense to my sudden anger.Me and georg was always close actually closer than most brothers and sisters.Huffing he tried again ignoring my sarcasm''Izzy just talk to me please......i dont know whats been going on?ive been only gone for a year and now it seems like every thing is crumbling.Toying with my fingers i averted his eyes.''Thats just it! if you were there none of this would have happened! mom and dad would still be together and i never would have got raped!i threw myself at my brothers arms balling my eyes out.Waiting for his arms to finally take their place and give me a tight hug.''Im sorry ive havent been there but the band is just getting on its feet and we have to work extra hard....trust me i wanted to see you more than anything in the world....but i couldnt...you have to understand you are my heart the only reason why i went to follow my dream so i could provide for you...i knew mom and dad was bad off but i never thought this bad..''now wiping tears from his own eyes.''Can i stay with you?....whimpering eyes throbbing from all the crying..Shaking his head yes he hugged me again''As long as you promise never to scare me like that again?''his voice stern but laced with love.I shook my head in understanding.The next day we went to go and get my stuff not like i expected a big fight my parents were nowhere to be found.We gathered my stuff and left to go shopping to find stuff to decorate my room.Gunther their manager said it was ok.I was happy to be away from all of the isolation and around someone who truly loves me and understands......Now starts my recovery