Spinning Insanity

Its been a while since I've written last

Mainly it was because I have discovered the wonderfuly addicting website called Tumblr and kind of forgot about mibba....oops

Also I went to Florida

It was fun and more fun than anything I've done recently

Our band marched on Sunday

As we were nearing the end I started crying

I have no idea why

I wasn't feeling any emotion I was just crying

The only thing I could think was "why am I crying....stop crying people will ask questions"

I stopped and just said my eyes Were red from lack of sleep and rubbing them

Today my mom was in an easily irritated mood

She didn't even really say anything to me

But I felt this overwhelming sadness

Yet I also felt blank

I just sat in the hallway with my head between my knees and rocked back and forth

I just sat there like that listening to My Chemical Romance trying to hear and listen to their words; their messages.

The reasons to live

<i>Just think of the future</i> was one of the thoughts that kept going through my head

This mess is just getting worse

About an hour ago I tried to make myself throw up because starving myself is too hard

But my gag reflex isn't as sensitive as most people's

I just want to be happy with my life