Status: It is what it is
Spinning Insanity
Bad Habits
Fuck.
I burned.
I said I wasn't going to but I I needed to.
3 marks all on my left fore arm.
I'm so scared.
I really want help.
But I can't deal with people I know looking at me like that. That look of pity.
They'll say theyre sorry's and move on.
But the way they look at me wo t ever be the same.
That's part of the reason I want to go to England.
I could finally get help.
Right now my only help is MCR.
When I cut or burn I go into this numb trance.
If I didn't do that I could turn on my iPod and stop.
But I can't.
MCR always calms me down though.
Once I realize what I'm doing I turn them on and cry.
I'm so fucking scared....
My cousin almost found out I was suicidal.
I promise I won't kill myself. I know I won't.
The future could be great.
I've been getting really dizzy a lot lately.
I don't think that's good.
It also hurts my stomach to eat and drink.
Not a lot, just enough to notice the pain.
I get this jolt of dizziness and I've got that before but it never happened this often or lasted past 10 seconds.
I went a whole minute felling dizzy in 10th period today. I felt Mildly dizzy for a while after that.
I'm kinda dizzy now.
I'm so fucking scared...
I burned.
I said I wasn't going to but I I needed to.
3 marks all on my left fore arm.
I'm so scared.
I really want help.
But I can't deal with people I know looking at me like that. That look of pity.
They'll say theyre sorry's and move on.
But the way they look at me wo t ever be the same.
That's part of the reason I want to go to England.
I could finally get help.
Right now my only help is MCR.
When I cut or burn I go into this numb trance.
If I didn't do that I could turn on my iPod and stop.
But I can't.
MCR always calms me down though.
Once I realize what I'm doing I turn them on and cry.
I'm so fucking scared....
My cousin almost found out I was suicidal.
I promise I won't kill myself. I know I won't.
The future could be great.
I've been getting really dizzy a lot lately.
I don't think that's good.
It also hurts my stomach to eat and drink.
Not a lot, just enough to notice the pain.
I get this jolt of dizziness and I've got that before but it never happened this often or lasted past 10 seconds.
I went a whole minute felling dizzy in 10th period today. I felt Mildly dizzy for a while after that.
I'm kinda dizzy now.
I'm so fucking scared...
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