Whispered Dark Memories

Those five minutes went by fast, and the next thing I knew I was sitting at the drum set, twirling my drumsticks. "How's everyone doing tonight?!" Bre yelled into the mic. The roaring sound of applause and screams met my ears and I grinned, knowing everything would be okay. "Alright, this first song we're gonna sing is called My Life Would Suck Without You." Bre winked at Kat, and she started the song off.

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can't let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

The deafening applause was like music to me. "Alright, this next one is called Raise Your Glass."

Right right, turn off the lights,
We're gonna lose our minds tonight,
What's the deal, yo?

I love when it's all too much,
5am turn the radio up
Where's the rock and roll?

Party Crasher,
Penny Snatcher,
Call me up if you want gangsta
Don't be fancy, just get dancey
Why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong,
In all the right ways,
All my underdogs,
We will never be never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
Just come on and come on and raise your glass

Slam slam, oh hot damn
What part of party don't you understand,
Wish you'd just freak out (freak out already)
Can't stop, coming in hot,
I should be locked up right on the spot
It's so on right now (so fuckin on right now)

Party Crasher,
Penny Snatcher,
Call me up if you want gangsta
Don't be fancy, just get dancey

Why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong,
In all the right ways,
All my underdogs,
We will never be never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
Just come on and come on and raise your glass
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
Just come on and come on and raise your glass

(oh shit my glass is empty, that sucks)

So if you're too school for cool,
And you're treated like a fool,
You can choose to let it go
We can always, we can always,
Party on our own

(so raise your) So raise your glass if you are wrong,
In all the right ways,
All my underdogs,
We will never be never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
So raise your glass if you are wrong,
In all the right ways,
All my underdogs,
We will never be never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
Just come on and come on and raise your glass
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass, (for me)
Just come on and come on and raise your glass (for me)

We sang a couple more songs, and we decided that we were gonna end with a favorite of ours. "You guys have been an amazing crowd, but before we leave you, we're gonna sing one more song. This one is called Sweet Sacrifice."

It's true, we're all a little insane.
But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.

One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.

(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.)

Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice

I wiped my forehead with my arm and stood up with a huge smile on my face. “You guys were a fucking amazing crowd! Now we're gonna get off here and let the Avenged guys play!" Bre yelled into the mic. The crowd roared as we walked off the stage. Dan thrust bottled water in each of our faces when we got backstage. I twisted the cap off and downed it all.

“You guys were kick ass!" Jimmy yelled excitedly. I chuckled and threw my bottle in the trash. “Thanks Jimbo."

“Guys get out there!" JB, as Matt called him, yelled. We told them good luck and gave Dan a big sweaty hug. He groaned and tried pushing us off but failed. We let him go with big smirks on our faces. 

“Love you Dan," we said in unison. He narrowed his eyes at us. “Love you Dan," he said in a high pitched whiney voice. 

“Dude, you sounded exactly like them," Jacoby said walking up to us. I gaped at him and reached over slapping his shoulder. “We do not sound like that!" 

“Jesus woman, you're abusive. OW! All three of you are abusive." Kat and Bre stuck their tongues out at him after they slapped him and dragged me toward our dressing room. 

“I think we should all freshen up. We don't want to smell like sweaty gym socks," Kat said closing the door behind her. Gee, thanks so much for that Kat. That's just what every girl wants to be told they smell like. I went into the bathroom and splashed some water on my face, put on more deodorant and sprayed some body spray on me. Once Kat and Bre had done the same we made our way to the merch table to help Avery. When we got out there she was sitting in a folding lawn chair reading a magazine and eating a twizler. 

“Miss Avery!" Bre shouted, scaring her. She jumped and dropped the magazine while holding out the half eaten twizler. Kat, Bre and I busted out laughing. “That's not funny guys. I almost peed my pants," Avery whined taking another bite of her twizler.



“Can you sign this?" A girl asked holding one of our CDs out to me. 

“Sure can. What's your name?" I asked grabbing my metallic sharpie. “Franchesca but I go by Frankie." Cute name. 

“Love the name. Ok, here you go Frankie." I handed her back the cd case and chuckled when she hugged me. I hugged her back. On the cd case I put a simple little note, “Frankie, I love your colorful hair. It kicks major ass. Kota Shadows." 

When she started to walk off I hollered at her. Since she was the last one here and she didn't have any of our other merch I decided to give her some stuff. 

“What size shirt do you wear?" She looked at me with a shocked face before stuttering out her size. “S-small." 

I got the white shirt that had a black and white picture of me, Kat and Bre on stage with a grey and purple galaxy background. Our picture was fading into the galaxy. I must say it was a pretty kick ass shirt. I also grabbed one of our rubber wrist bands with our band name on it and handed them to her. “This is a gift from the band to you."

“Thank you so much." She gave me another hug before giving Bre and Kat a hug.

After we got everything back in the boxes and helped Dan load them we collapsed on the bus. I was exhausted. I don't think I've ever been this tired in my life. “I'm gonna take a quick shower and change into my pjs." 

The others tried to answer but were to tired to. Once I was in there with my pjs I turned the shower on and shed my clothes. I climbed in and sighed when the hot water cascaded over me. Ten minutes later I was getting all dried off and changed into my pjs. I grabbed my dirty clothes and took them with me to the back lounge where I put them in our dirty clothes bag. My phone started going off from my bunk so I hopped in it and saw Embry's name flashing on the screen. 

“Hey babe," I answered.

“Hey, I miss you."

“I miss you too. I wish you could have been here to see us play."

“Me too but when you play around here, me and all the guys will come, Emily said she'd come too. I take it since you sound so tired it went well?"

“Tell Jared and Paul to not tell the girls, I want them to be surprised when they see you guys. Heck yes, it was amazing. We got to see Jacoby again and then we got to meet Avenged Sevenfold. I about died and went to heaven."

“They didn't try to hit on you or anything, did they?" He's going into protective boyfriend mode.

“No they didn't. Some of them are married and plus they're way older then us." I liked how he always got into protective boyfriend mode. It made me feel, as cliche as it sounds, all fuzzy inside.

“Good. I didn't want to have to kick their asses. Hey, I gotta go on patrol so I'll talk to you later. I love you."

“Bye, I love you too." I hung up and closed the curtain on my bunk. “I'm gonna knock out chicas." 

I got various groans from different places of the bus causing me to grin. If we're this exhausted I can only imagine what it's going to be like at our next show. I made sure my phone was on silent and put it in my purse that was at the end of my bunk. Closing my eyes and pulling the covers me, I let sleep take over my body.

“I'm glad you decided to stay at the house," Carlisle said. I smiled over at him and turned back to look out the window at the passing trees. Wait. . since when were there white things in the forest? Every time we stopped, it stopped and every time we took off, it took off. I caught a glimpse of it and it was a redhead girl. More importantly it was Victoria. 

All of a sudden the car jerked to a stop and Carlisle was out of the car faster then I could blink. He darted into the tree line and disappeared. It was a few minutes until I heard a loud thud come from the top of his Mercedes. Ok, now I was scared. Carlisle wouldn't do that. Another thud sounded and before I knew what was happening the car was spinning through the air and crashing into trees. I let out an ear piercing scream when a branch broke the glass and lodged itself in my side. 

The car landed upside down. I looked around and noticed blood pooling above my head. I can be losing that much blood. Can I?I reached for my purse and screamed when the branch moved. Luckily my phone was sticking out of my purse so I grabbed it and hit speed dial one. 

“Sup?" Bre answered. 

“B-Bre I. . . It h-hurts."

“What hurts? Kota what's wrong?"

“V-Victoria. P-Please hur-hurry." I felt the phone slip from my grasp and hit the roof with a thud. Bre's shouts could be heard coming from the phone but I ignored them. Next thing I know I'm being shaken and someones calling my name. 

“Kota. . . Dakota. Please baby, wake up." The voice was litteraly pleading me. I cracked my eyes open to see Carlisle hovering over me and the tops of trees behind him. “I know you didn't want this but I've got to bite you. Y-You've lost to much blood." 

When I went to respond he dipped his head down and bit my neck. It felt like fire was burning all over my body. I let out a scream and started trashing around.