Make Me Better

I was sitting on Lindsey's bed, tapping my foot impatiently. I ran a hand through my freshly curled hair.

"You'll mess it up." Lindsey warned. I dropped my hand and moved around to make myself comfortable. The leather was a bit too tight. I stood up and paced around her room, I stopped in front of the mirror and stared at my appearance.

"I can't wear this!" I groaned.

"How many times are you going to say that?"

I rolled my eyes, I had at least said it once or twice earlier in the evening, "I look stupid."

"You do not." I sighed and looked away from myself, I went back to her bed and watched as Gerard walked in. He kissed Lindsey and he stopped talking when he looked over at me.

"I told you I looked stupid." I mumbled. Lindsey sighed. "You look better than perfect." She adjusted her hair before looking over at him. Gerard looked into the mirror, "Does my make-up look ok?"

"yes, perfect." Lindsey smiled.

"I should have been a cat or something."

"You are a cat." Gerard laughed.

"A regular cat." I objected. I was dreading this party. I just wanted to go say 'hi' and leave.

"We'll go trick or treating after." Lindsey smiled. I laughed. "Ok."

I walked downstairs to find Mikey, who was The Riddler. I spotted Ray who happened to be Harvey Dent.

"Did you all plan to be Batman villains?" I asked as I sat next to Ray on the couch.

Mikey shook his head, "No, just a coincidence."

"You look very different." Ray said as he looked over at me.

"I'm wearing make-up and I'm dressed like a whore." I nodded, he laughed. Once Gerard and Lindsey were ready we headed to Frank's. If I thought I was nervous before, I was hell of nervous now. I walked behind everyone as they made their way into Frank's house. There was already a good amount of people there. I could hear the music blasting. I sighed as I squeezed passed the door and hoped that no one would notice me.

I heard Frank over the loud music. Everyone said their hellos and happy birthdays, minus me.

"Did you all plan to be Batman villains?" Frank asked. I was beyond happy that Mikey and Ray were so tall. Frank wouldn't be able to see me at all.

"No." Gee said. I saw Lindsey turn around, looking for something. For me. I sighed, I could just walk away now and hide from everyone. That would be stupid.

"Olive." Lindsey smiled, she stood on her tiptoes as she peeked over Ray and Mikey. I shot her a glare.

"Where's Oli?" Frank asked. I could see him clearly now. He was dressed as Frankenstein, how funny.

"Right here." Mikey and Ray moved away quickly, I rolled my eyes. I was in Frank's clear view. I could see the smirk on Lindsey's face.

"Happy birthday." I smiled. Frank didn't say anything. Oh, god, I bet he thought I looked like an idiot. I knew I shouldn't have bought this stupid costume.

"Thanks." he breathed. He looked as if he wanted to say more but then Jenna came. "Frank." She whined, pulling on his arm. She was a dressed as Alice from Alice in Wonderland. Except it was the slutty version. She spotted me and narrowed her eyes.

I glared right back until I felt someone grab my ass. I turned quickly to find some drunk guy.

"What the hell?" I asked. He wasn't even looking at my face, he was staring straight at my boobs. He said something I didn't understand before being pulled away by his friend.
Lindsey looked as if she wanted to laugh,

"What?" I asked.

"That guy grabbed your ass." She giggled. I shook my head and looked away from her. I could see guys staring at me as they passed by.

"What's with everyone? Is this costume a guy magnet?" I asked loudly.

"Obviously, when you're dressed like that." Jenna sneered. I felt everyone turn to look at me.

"Jenna." Frank sighed.

"You're one to talk." I replied. She seemed a bit shocked. Before I could say more I was being whisked away by Mikey. He dragged me all the way to the kitchen, where it was empty.

"What was that?" Mikey asked. I shrugged. I don't know, she was a bitch, it wasn't like I was going to let her talk to me like that.

"I thought you liked Jenna?" Mikey questioned. "I don't."

"Why not?" Oh, I don't know. She accused me of liking her boyfriend, she's right but I wasn't going to tell her that.

"I just don't" I walked over to the keg and got myself some beer. Mikey decided to leave it be, which was a good idea. He went off to go look for Gerard. Bob came into the kitchen.

"I haven't seen you in forever!" I laughed. he laughed and gave me a quick hug. He was dressed as a clown. I reached up to squeeze his red nose.

He poured himself some beer before chatting away with some guy I didn't know. I decided that hiding in the kitchen was a good idea. I just had to wait until Lindsey and Gerard got bored. Then we would leave, then I wouldn't have to face Frank. The attention from random guys was really starting to bother me. I wasn't that sort of girl, I didn't need to be noticed. I was happy with being unnoticed.

Lindsey had saved me from an awkward situation with some drunk guy who was hitting on me.

"Who was that?" She asked.

I shrugged, "I don't know."

"The boys are just loving you tonight." She laughed.

"It's my boobs." I rolled my eyes. I saw Frank stroll in, getting himself a cup of beer. I was hoping that he wouldn't notice me. He did. I was about to hop off the counter and try say I needed to pee but Lindsey was blocking me from jumping off. She was standing directly in front of me. I knew she was doing this on purpose.

"I'm sorry about Jenna." Frank mumbled. Lindsey excused herself, leaving me with alone with a person that I wanted to avoid. It was nearly impossible to avoid Frank, I was at his party for crying out loud. I was extremely stupid If I thought that I had a chance to avoid him.

"It's cool." I nodded. I felt that warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach, he was making me nervous.

"You're wearing make-up."

I nodded, "Yeah, I look stupid."

"No, you don't" Ugh, he wasn't helping me at all. He was only making me more nervous. I looked straight at him. I squinted and looked away. This was too hard.

"hey." I turned to look at the guy from earlier, the guy who was hitting on me before Lindsey had came. Really? I wasn't anything special, sure my boobs looked huge but that was about it.

I rolled my eyes, "Hi."

"How about you and me head upstairs and get you out of that costume." He wiggled his eyebrows.

"Back off." Frank snarled. I had almost forgotten that he was there.

"Sorry, dude. Didn't realize that you were her boyfriend."

"He isn't her boyfriend." Jenna smiled. Where the fuck does this girl come from? "I thought you said you were going to get beer?" She asked looking over at Frank.

"I did." He shook the cup of beer in front of her.

"Seems like you came in here to talk to Olive."

"What the fuck do you care? So what if he came in here to talk to me?" I asked, she was really getting on my nerves. She seemed so controlling of Frank all of a sudden and I didn't like that.

Frank gave me a look. "What?" I asked him with an eye roll.

"Maybe because-"

"Ugh, just stop talking." I hopped off the counter and walked passed them. I didn't want to stay there for too long, I knew what Jenna was going to say and I didn't know if I could deny it this time. I just needed to get away from them.

"I can't do this." I told Lindsey.

"Do what?"

"Be around them." I said with emphasis on the 'them' .

"Sorry, kiddo." She frowned. I sighed and leaned against the wall. I sipped my beer and frowned as I started to feel really hot.

"Damn leather." I mumbled as I fanned myself with my hand. I knew that I wasn't going to get over this as quick as I wanted. You just don't get over a crush in a matter of days. This crush came out of nowhere and I just wanted to go away.

Why Frank? He was my friend, a friend with a girlfriend. A girlfriend who didn't deserve him. What? And I did. I didn't deserve Frank either.

I don't know what had caused it but I had gotten one of the craziest ideas ever, it was probably due to the beer.

I needed to tell Frank. I didn't expect him to like me, I just needed him to know. I had to explain why I wasn't going to be spending as much time with him. I would leave Jenna and Frank alone.

I left Lindsey with Gerard and Bob before I took off to find Frank. I didn't feel nervous, until I spotted Frank, his lips pressed to Jenna's. I had seen them kiss before but this time it was different. I liked him this time around and it hurt. Ok, stupid idea. I should just go back and forget it.

I was about to leave when Jenna pulled away and spotted me, a smirk on her lips. I was wondering if she really know. I know that she had accused me of liking Frank but had she really believed so?

I turned quickly, not wanting Frank to see me. I bumped into a couple people before getting into the hallway. I walked upstairs and into the bathroom, I had to pee. I struggled to wiggle myself out of the costume once I was in the bathroom. Once I was done with my business I walked out to bump into Frank. Great.

I didn't say anything as he looked at me. "Frank, come on." I heard Jenna whine, I followed her voice and figured she was in his room. That hurt, too. I wasn't stupid, I knew what they were about to do. I pushed passed him and I didn't look back when he called my name. I didn't bother telling anyone that I was leaving. Frank's house wasn't very far from mine but it would be hassle to get home with these shoes on.

I felt the tears sting my eyes, as I choked up. I was going to cry, how pathetic. I wasn't even supposed to like Frank, he was just my friend. I didn't want to like Frank, My high heel boots were being quite loud. I crossed my arms over my chest as I started to walk faster. I wiped a the single tear that was rolling down my cheek. I had smudged my make- up. I bet I looked like total crap. I sighed loudly and tried to stop myself from crying. I guess I wasn't really paying attention, I was wrapped up in my thoughts. I didn't even hear Frank calling my name from somewhere behind me.

When I finally did, I didn't stop walking. What was he doing? How did even know that I had left? It was no use. These shoes were restricting me from walking fast and they had started to hurt, meaning that I had to slow down. Frank caught up a while later. He grabbed my arm and spun me around.

He was breathing loudly, trying to catch his breath. "What do you want?" I snapped. Maybe being mean would make him leave me alone.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing! Why do you always think there's something wrong? I'm totally fine, ok? You can go back now. I bet Jenna is starting to worry."

"Because I know something is wrong."

"Well, you're wrong, ok?" I said quickly, I made him let go of me. I started to turn around, but he stopped me.

"Oli, come on. You're a open book to me, if there's something wrong you can tell me."

"You really don't want to know." I laughed, shaking my head.

"Why not?"

"You just don't, now let me go." I glared up at him. "You were crying." He said as he stared into my eyes. I frowned, why was he even here?
I didn't respond, I just struggled with the grip he had on my arm.

"Why?" He asked softly. Where was Jenna when I really needed her? She would be much appreciated at the moment.

"Because of you." I said quietly, looking away from him quickly. If I told him maybe it would scare him off. He wouldn't want to hang out with me, that would be great. It would be breeze getting over him then.

"What did I do?" He furrowed his eyebrows.

"You like Jenna." I mumbled.