'Safe' Is Not A Word In My Vocabulary

Centhua’s POV

There was a quiet knock on the door in the morning, and I got up to answer it before it could wake my boys.

Bree and Kim were outside, looking cheerful and livid and I moved over so they could come in. “Hi Centhua,” Kim said while I smiled faintly.

I ran a hand through my hair and they started hounding me with questions. “So did he change last night?” Bree asked and I sighed and nodded. She grimaced and patted my shoulder in sympathy.

“I bet he was cute though,” Kim said to break the sadness that hung in the air. I laughed a little louder and nodded.

A little too loud apparently, because I heard Jacob sit up. He lumbered into the kitchen a few minutes later with a bit of bed head and Kim laughed.

“Baby too much for ya Jake?” she teased and he groaned, collapsing into a chair. “You think you’re kidding, the kid has his momma’s energy.”

I stuck my tongue at him and the girls laughed.

I went to go start breakfast and Kim followed behind while Bree and Jacob sat, somewhat tensely across from each other.

I cooked up some eggs and bacon real quick for me and Jacob and heated a bottle for Anthony.

I ate quickly, giving Jacob his plate before going to wake him up. It wasn’t necessary, however because when I went in he was already awake.

And out of his crib.

I jump in surprise at the little grey/tan wolf in front of me, and I startled sound left my lips. Jacob was in the room in a second, Bree next to him and both of them staring down at the wolf sprawled across the floor with its tongue hanging out.

Kim was slower but when she came in, she was surprised too; her mouth made a little ‘o’ shape when I snatched my son from the floor. He blinked in surprise and I eyed him critically.

Jacob chuckled nervously, coming up behind me and scratching his ears.

“Maybe you should tell him to phase back,” Bree suggested, but Anthony growled at the sound of her voice, and struggled in my arms. I had no doubt that her presence had caused him to change in the first place. She jumped in surprise when he snarled and Kim backed slowly out of the room.

I rubbed his back at the same time Jacob blocked his view of Bree. “Easy boy, she’s a friend. She won’t hurt you,” I cooed, Ant growled again but shifted again as I rubbed his ears.

I sighed at my little baby and went to get him some more clothes. Jacob urged Bree to wait with Kim and she complied as he started picking up the clothes Ant had shredded already.

He snickered quietly to himself and I raised an eyebrow at him, but otherwise ignored it. Ant squirmed and I went to fish his bottle out of the microwave.

Kim was sitting by herself, her expression unreadable while she watched Anthony. Bree must’ve taken off, but her scent still hung in the air. Jacob walked back out and took Anthony from me. I handed him the bottle.

He wouldn’t need it for much longer, because he was the size of a 5 month old, and babies usually stopped at 6 months before switching to baby food. Plus, he was a wolf already.

Jake sat in a chair and Kim spoke up; “He’s definitely got a temper, I’m guessing his wolf side is all Centhua’s.” I rolled my eyes but Jacob chuckled.

It was nice to count on Kim to lighten the mood again though. The atmosphere wasn’t as tense anymore and it was easy to joke with her.

“Why do you blame me for the things that will one day make the vampires cower?” I asked causing Jacob to laugh harder.

Anthony looked at him and then did the same, which made Jacob stop laughing and listen. I smiled at the two of them and Kim “Awed”

She started chatting real animatedly then, asking me about Anthony and the wedding, and I almost completely forgot I was engaged.

Jacob chuckled and I would’ve thrown something at him had he not been holding Ant.

“I can always make the sentence longer,” I said teasingly, but not kidding. His face fell and the humor was wiped off making me, and Kim laugh and Anthony giggle at us laughing.

XxX

“Jake, stop.” I whined later. Ant was napping.

“Sorry,” he panted, still laying kisses down my neck and over my arms and my shoulder, a few inches from my tattoo. I was breathing hard, trying to keep my hands from reaching for his pants button.

“I’m serious,” I panted pushing him. He groaned and released me, falling back on the couch. “I hate this,” he whined and then looked at me with lust filled eyes.

“I want you,” he growled.

On any other circumstances, his reaction would’ve been funny, but not right now. I tried to laugh and it didn’t work. “I’m trying to abide the law here,” I said getting up and fixing my top.

He rolled his eyes. “Says the drag racer.” He muttered making me roll my eyes.

“Goodnight Jake,” I said tiredly walking from the room.

“Wait,” he called catching up to me, he grabbed my arm, but there was only seriousness on his face.

“You wont really make the sentence longer, will you?” he asked, his eyes scrunching together the way they do when he’s in disbelief.

I shrugged innocently and slipped out of his grasp, sure that this was going to be the longest eight months ever. It was a miracle either of us survived two, and on top of that, it was almost the beginning of May, which is the month where I usually went into heat before Anthony was born.

I sighed internally climbing into bed. I knew Jacob wouldn’t come in til I was asleep; it’d be easier for both of us.

Why did everything have to be so complicated?

Jacob was right, I never cared about breaking the rules before; why the sudden change?
I guess I also never had a reason not to go to jail for.

My life was a wreck, there was no real reason except living in the moment and doing what I wanted. I let everyone else clean up the mess, and pushed all the things from real life to the side.

I would take whatever pain came later in order to escape for a few hours, hence all the one night stands. They were usually in May, and were never really something I considered to have actually taken place.

I had more to look forward to in my life now, more to fight for.

I had Jacob, and Anthony.

I had the Cullens, Bree, Damien, K-9, Crusher, Ammo, Kim, Emily, Claire.
I didn’t really count Jacob’s pack much, but there were a few there; Leah, Quil, Seth.

It was a weird group of friends, and it seemed like I was always caught on the dividing line, but that was okay.

I remembered once I’d thought Bones and the guys’ to be my family. They were the only ones who’d understood me at the time, and they still did.

Crusher’s tortured soul, Bones and my brother being the same, K-9 and his tolerance of my ‘sass’, and Ammo, who never failed to have faith in me, even when I was outmatched.

They would always be my family, but now they weren’t my only family.

I smiled at that thought, falling asleep quickly.

XxX

The next morning, when I woke up, Jake was already gone, there was a note saying he went to Charlie’s for the day and that I should bring the baby by later.

I frowned at that, immediately thinking he was up to something.

He never did things without a reason though, so I could only hope whatever it was wasn’t stupid.