The Hardest Part Of This Is Leaving You

(Alicia's P.O.V)

I opened my eyes slowly, squinting against the unusual bright light in my eyes to find Melody grinning at me from my window.

''Mel!'' I complained, sitting up. ''How long have you been here?!''

She rolled her eyes. ''And happy Thursday to you too!'' Grinning, she pulled out a cigarette from her pocket and swiftly placed it between her lips, lighting it.

''Mel!'' I complained yet again as i watched the repulsive smoke swirl around my room, ''can't you go do that somewhere else?!'' I gestured to her cigarette before throwing my head back onto the soft pillow and pulling the duvet up over my head.

I heard Melody sigh as she walked over to my bed and ripped the duvet away with her free hand. ''Get changed,'' she ordered, breathing out her smoke. ''You'll be late for school!''

I frowned, swinging my legs out of my bed, ''since when have you ever been bothered about school?''

She smirked, her eyes glowing evilly, ''since i saw Luke Ainsley in gym yesterday. He is fine!''

I rolled my eyes, pulling my black skin tight jeans and an old Green Day shirt from my dresser and crossing to the door, holding it open so Mel could leave while i got changed. She threw her cigarette out of my open window before breathing out her smoke and leaving the room.

Thirty minutes later, i was sat in my car, an old black Audi, and was pulling into a vacant parking space at school, Melody by my side. ''I'll see you later, I'm going to see if i can find Abi,'' and with that she gave me an awkward hug as she ran off to the bike shed. I hunched my bag up my shoulder as i looked to the dark sky that was littered with dark clouds, before entering through the doors and into the school.

As usual, i scurried through the halls to my locker which was on the other side of school with my head down, trying my absolute best not to draw attention to myself. ''Hey!'' Came the familiar voice. ''Looking good!''

I rolled my eyes as i caught sight of Frank Iero, Mikey Way and Bob Bryar. My stomach tightened as i realised that they were headed right towards me, so i kept my head down and forced my legs to keep walking forwards.

''Hey,'' Frank smirked as he planted himself firmly in my path, effectively stopping me from walking.

Looking up, i mumbled, ''hey, can i help you?''

''Yeah actually, there's a party tonight, wondering if you wanted to come too...'' His hazel eyes stared down into mine, making me feel slightly uncomfortable.

A party...''Uh...Frank, I don't really-''

''Bullshit. I'll pick you up at seven. Give me directions to your house.''

I frowned but reluctantly told him where i lived, and with that he walked down the hallway, Mikey and Bob on his heels.

I gave Mikey a quick smile as our eyes met, his brown eyes staring gently into my hazel ones.

Great...it wasn't even 9am yet and already i had been pulled into something i really didn't want to do. In my mind, a voice was repeating that it might not be so bad. Maybe Mikey was going.

Later in the day, i was walking over to the lunch room, alone as usual; Melody had gone to find Abi. ''Hey Alicia!'' Came a voice. I looked up expecting Frank, but it was a brown haired, awkward, good looking boy who had called my name. ''So...this school dance-'' Mikey began as he reached me.

''You have to be joking!'' I cut him off, unable to keep the thought inside. Half of me wanted to let him finish the sentence, half of me wanting to reject it right away. Was he about to ask me to the dance? More to the point, would I say no? I didn't know. Mikey had the unique gift of being able to mess with my mind.

''Let me finish will you?'' He asked quietly, i immediately felt bad for bursting out like i did as his hopeful expression dropped slightly. I looked up into his deep brown eyes, instantly feeling my stomach clench.

''Sure,'' i mumbled, ''go ahead.''

''So, i was kinda thinking...its really stupid and everything, and i'm gonna get a bunch of friends together at my place to watch a movie. You in?''

I looked up into his face once more, ignoring my erratic heart rate. ''Um...'' don't seem too desperate! ''Maybe. I'll, uh, think about it.''

Mikey grinned, his face pinching up slightly, causing butterflies to wreak havoc in my system. ''Are you sitting alone again today?''

''Yeah.''

''Do you, maybe, wanna come sit with us again?'' He asked, avoiding my gaze, i smiled to myself for no apparent reason, a strange calm washing over my body.

''Sure.''

We walked together, not speaking until we reached the lunch room where Frank and Bob were already seated. Today i just bought a bottle of water and went to sit opposite Bob and Frank.

''Hey,'' Bob said, picking his bread from the sandwich he held to pieces.

''Hey guys,'' i replied.

''So did he already tell you you're coming to watch a movie with us next Friday?''

I frowned. ''Did i have a choice? But yeah, and i accepted.'' I unscrewed the bottle cap and took a quick drink as Mikey sat beside me.

Frank laughed his obnoxiously infectious laugh, making me laugh too.

This lunch period went much like yesterday, lots of laughing and joking, flirting and of course my internal battles with my emotions. I was captivated by Mikey's brown eyes more than once that lunch period.

When lunch was over, i kinda zoned out for the rest of the school day. I only vaguely noticed myself staring at the back of Mikey's head in Chemistry.