Falling for Days
Nothing Left To Lose
Ana
“No, I refuse to do that!” I shouted at my friends as they tried to convince me to sing a certain song on stage.
“Come on, please Ana? I think it’s a powerful song!” Bianka asked, actually, she begged me.
“I hate that song and I refuse to sing it in front of anyone. I am not going to sing it and that’s final.”
I had my date with Mikey about two nights ago. It was absolutely amazing. He took me out to dinner then we sat on the balcony that his hotel room came with. We just watched the few stars that we could see and talked for a good while about absolutely nothing.
Currently, everyone in my band except for my sister was trying to convince me to sing a song that I had written when I was 19 about an ex-boyfriend. I hadn’t actually told anyone about the reason behind the song so only Niki understood why I didn’t want to sing it.
“Why don’t you just sing it once? It’ll get them off your backs and you can make them promise that they will never make you play it on stage again” Mikey told me after I had talked to him about the situation.
“It’s not a song I am proud of. I wrote it when I was very depressed and still on drugs.” I told him.
“What’s it about?”
“An ex-boyfriend who cheated on me” I told him. “I tried committing suicide after I found out.”
“If you sing it on stage then maybe it will help you get over it” Mikey told me. I took a deep breath before answering.
“I’ll think about it.”
Two hours later, I was up on stage, getting ready to sing the song that I was most terrified about singing. I heard the intro to the song and took a deep breath. Sam walked over to the drum set and set her mic down. I opened my mouth and let the words flow out of my mouth.
“I was only 19, you were 29
It’s just 10 years, but it’s such a long time
In a heartbeat, I would do it all again
Late night sex, smokin’ cigarettes
I try real hard but I can’t forget
Now in a heartbeat, I would do it all again
Now I see that you and me were never meant
Never meant to be now
Now I’m lost somewhere
Lost between Elvis and suicide
Ever since the day we died, well
I’ve got nothing left to lose
After Jesus and Rock N Roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul, well
I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose
Callin’ out sins just to pass the time
My life goes by in the blink of an eye
I know you want me
I was only lookin’ for a friend
And everything I was
And everything that I’ve become
Just falls into the end and
Now I see that you and me were never meant
Never meant to be now
Now I’m lost somewhere
Lost between Elvis and suicide
Ever since the day we died, well
I’ve got nothing left to lose
After Jesus and Rock N Roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul, well
I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose
Now I see that you and me were never meant
Never meant to be now
Now I’m lost somewhere
Lost between Elvis and suicide
Ever since the day we died, well
I’ve got nothing left to lose
After Jesus and Rock N Roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul, well
I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose” I finished just as the music started to fade.
Once I had gotten off stage, Mikey came up and wrapped me in a hug before telling me how proud he was of me. I smiled and thanked him for helping me do it.
“No, I refuse to do that!” I shouted at my friends as they tried to convince me to sing a certain song on stage.
“Come on, please Ana? I think it’s a powerful song!” Bianka asked, actually, she begged me.
“I hate that song and I refuse to sing it in front of anyone. I am not going to sing it and that’s final.”
I had my date with Mikey about two nights ago. It was absolutely amazing. He took me out to dinner then we sat on the balcony that his hotel room came with. We just watched the few stars that we could see and talked for a good while about absolutely nothing.
Currently, everyone in my band except for my sister was trying to convince me to sing a song that I had written when I was 19 about an ex-boyfriend. I hadn’t actually told anyone about the reason behind the song so only Niki understood why I didn’t want to sing it.
“Why don’t you just sing it once? It’ll get them off your backs and you can make them promise that they will never make you play it on stage again” Mikey told me after I had talked to him about the situation.
“It’s not a song I am proud of. I wrote it when I was very depressed and still on drugs.” I told him.
“What’s it about?”
“An ex-boyfriend who cheated on me” I told him. “I tried committing suicide after I found out.”
“If you sing it on stage then maybe it will help you get over it” Mikey told me. I took a deep breath before answering.
“I’ll think about it.”
Two hours later, I was up on stage, getting ready to sing the song that I was most terrified about singing. I heard the intro to the song and took a deep breath. Sam walked over to the drum set and set her mic down. I opened my mouth and let the words flow out of my mouth.
“I was only 19, you were 29
It’s just 10 years, but it’s such a long time
In a heartbeat, I would do it all again
Late night sex, smokin’ cigarettes
I try real hard but I can’t forget
Now in a heartbeat, I would do it all again
Now I see that you and me were never meant
Never meant to be now
Now I’m lost somewhere
Lost between Elvis and suicide
Ever since the day we died, well
I’ve got nothing left to lose
After Jesus and Rock N Roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul, well
I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose
Callin’ out sins just to pass the time
My life goes by in the blink of an eye
I know you want me
I was only lookin’ for a friend
And everything I was
And everything that I’ve become
Just falls into the end and
Now I see that you and me were never meant
Never meant to be now
Now I’m lost somewhere
Lost between Elvis and suicide
Ever since the day we died, well
I’ve got nothing left to lose
After Jesus and Rock N Roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul, well
I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose
Now I see that you and me were never meant
Never meant to be now
Now I’m lost somewhere
Lost between Elvis and suicide
Ever since the day we died, well
I’ve got nothing left to lose
After Jesus and Rock N Roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul, well
I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose” I finished just as the music started to fade.
Once I had gotten off stage, Mikey came up and wrapped me in a hug before telling me how proud he was of me. I smiled and thanked him for helping me do it.