Soulmates

Sierra's POV

After the talk with Brian's wife , I was a wreck . I couldn't think , I could barely walk and talk to people . These days have been crazy , and it seemed that after our argument , my relationship with Brian had gone downhill . He had an accident that now I knew was solely my fault , he'd almost died because of it ... And the worst part was that I'd just started being able to name what I felt for him ...

I knew that I missed him wherever he wasn't around , I felt incomplete without him by my side . He was capable of bringing life in me , almost like my savior . And I honestly believed that he could be the one who could save me from everything . Fix me ... Unbreak me ..

But I had to let him go . I couldn't risk his life over my happiness . I can be selfish about a lot of things , but I could never allow someone to sacrifice his life for me . And especially Brian , a man who didn't deserve any of this . He deserved to find his soul mate , the person who would complete him , and protect him . And I couldn't offer him that ...

I walked to the restroom , and wiped the tears off my face . I fixed my make up , and took some deep breaths before heading towards Brian's room . I wouldn't let him think something was wrong , no . I was never a big fan of sad and dramatic '' goodbyes '' . I wanted it to seem like it was just a usual farewell , like we'd meet and talk again sometime ...

I saw that no one was there , everyone had disappeared somehow . I shrugged and silently opened the door to Brian's room .

He was laying there , visibly weak and worn out , but the moment our eyes connected , a smile lit up his face ...

'' S-sierra , y-you came ag-ain .... '' he said , his voice slightly trembling . I nodded and smiled slightly at him ..

'' Yes , I did ... How are you feeling ? '' I asked , genuinely concerned about his health state...

'' I-i'm fine ... In a lit-tel pain , but f-one ... An-d you are h-ere now , th-at mak-es everything
bett-er anyway-s ... '' he said , his smile still on his face as he patted the empty space next to him for me to sit ...

I moved and positioned myself where Brian had pointed , making sure I wasn't hurting him in any way . I felt his one hand reaching my waist and resting there while I grabbed his other hand and held it in mine . I looked at his eyes once again , and smiled at the sight .

His eyes were for sure the most beautiful brown eyes I'd ever seen in my life . Brian stared at me , and for some minuted the only sound in the room was made by the breaths leaving our lungs . However , when the tears slowly made their way down my cheeks , Brian frowned and his hand gripped my waist tighter ...

'' W-hat's wrong baby ? '' he asked in a concerned tone , and I just moved to wipe the tears from my eyes ...

'' Nothi-ng , I'm f-ine , baby ... R-eally I a-m ... It's just the-se days have been really hard... '' I said , while looking at my lap ...

'' I know , b-aby , I know .... But pl-ease look at me ...please '' Brian said , and my eyes met once again his warm chocolate orbs ...

'' I missed y-ou so much .... I st-ill miss you . The moment you walk out th-at door I star-t missing you , Sierra ... And I kno-w it sounds stupid and cheesy a-nd everyth-ing , but that's exactly h-ow I feel ... An-d when you cry ... I cann-ot take it ... I simply can't it's stronger than me .... '' he said in almost a whisper , and I smiled at him .

'' See , that's bette-r now ... '' he said in a cheering tone , and I chuckled ...

'' You are amazing Bri-an , really ... An-d you deserve to be hap-py ... '' I said in all honesty ...

'' I'm happy whe-n I'm with you ... '' he replied , and I nodded ...

'' I'm happy when I'm with you too .. '' I smiled ... '' But you really deserve it more than me , Brian ... You don't deserve any more sh*t like this or worse ... '' I said , and he frowned again ...

'' Are you sure that everything's alright ? '' he asked , and I quickly nodded ...

'' Yes , Brian ... You don't need to worry about anything ...'' I tried comforting him , but he shook his head ''no'' while he tried prompting himself up , grunting as he failed due to the pain caused by his ribs ...

'' Sierr-a just tell me ... I-f it's bother-ing you , then I nee-d to know about it ... ''

'' It's nothing , really .... Just some stuff with the band , and I'm really stressed about the tour
. '' I lied straight to his face , but Brian seemed to believe it , as he nodded ...

'' Baby , you'll d-o jus-t fine .... You are always perfect on st-age ... '' he whispered , and it was obvious now that his organism was exhausted , his eyes were barely open ...

'' Brian I think you need to rest now ... '' I said , and smiled at him again ...

'' Bu-t baby I don't want you to lee-ave ... '' he said , the tone of his voice though clearly stated that he needed to sleep ...

'' Bria-n I'll , I 'll ... '' I said , and I could feel the tears again , but somehow managed to keep them down ... '' You ' ll be fine ... You ' ll be happy and safe ... '' I said , and Brian furrowed his eyebrows in confusion ..

'' Baby , what's th-at suppose-d to mea-n ? '' he asked and I caressed his cheek . That was it , the moment of our goodbye ...

'' Nothing ... Baby it means nothing ... I just want you , I need you to know that I only want you to be happy ... That's all I want you to remember of me ... '' I said , trying my damn hardest not to let any tears fall ...

'' Wh-y are you telling me th-is ..? '' he asked again..

'' Because .. Brian things happen in life ... That's just what happens .. And they turn our lives upside down , they break them down and build them up again only to demolish them again ... Our past is shaped by them , and truth is that it's the only thing stable in each person's world .. Because it can't change ... And through this whole mess , it's people that save us ... from ourselves ... And Brian ... '' I stopped as I placed my hand on his cheek , slowly
caressing it and smiling as he leaned in my touch and started rubbing circles on my back ...

'' You've saved me ... '' I said and smiled once I met his eyes ..

'' You've saved me too , S-ierra ... Don't f-orget that ... '' he said nonchalantly and I nodded , smiling and slowly letting go of his hand , not before leaning forward and kissing him in the most innocent , heartfelt way I could ...

This was our kiss goodbye , and I wanted it to last ...

After a few minutes we pulled away , and stared at each other while we tried to catch our breaths . I smiled at him and started getting making my way off the bed , but Brian's arm stopped me ...

'' Stay w-ith me unt-il I fall asleep ... Pleeeeeeeease ? '' he whined and pouted , and I couldn't really say no to that . And maybe this was the way our goodbye was supposed to be , just him sleeping while I walked away ...

So I sat there , carefully placing my hands on his chest and rubbing soft circles on top of it ... He took 1 of my hands in his , and kissed it , refusing to let it out of his grasp ...

And we stayed like that for some minutes , as it didn't take long for Brian to sleep . I looked at his sleeping -face , and smiled as I saw that he looked so calm and happy in his sleep ... I stood up , letting go of his hand and moved to leave the room , not before taking another look at Brian's sleeping form ....

I walked outside and opened my phone . I had a text from Jason . I stared at the screen as I read :

'' We have the tickets ... Plane leaves in 3 hours .... New York , New York ;) '' .

I sighed and threw my phone back in my bag before heading out of the hospital .

So , I guess , this is goodbye ...