In Love With a Stripper

(Robbi's POV)
After I walked around the block a few times I went back into my apartment since I left my phone and keys, plus I knew that Brian and my parents would be worried. So, I went back home and calmed my nerves since I was pregnant and stress was never good.

When I opened up my door I could just see Brian with his head down and his head in his hands. Taking a calming breath I walked into the living room and sat beside him on the couch. Taking his hand I pulled it from his face and he startled a little, “Robbi, babe…”

“Shush,” I told him and placed a finger over his lips, “Its okay. I just want to know a few things,” he nodded his head, “I just want to know if you are still with her and how many times.”

He grabbed my hands tighter, “I only been with her once and that was when you first left. I was so wasted that I didn’t even know I was with her until the next day and I haven’t been with her since. I’m sorry, but she was the only girl I’ve been with since we first split. Roberta you gotta believe me,” he said desperately.

Hearing him say my real name let me know that he was telling the truth. Closing my eyes I calmed myself before I opened them up and pulled my hands away from his to pull him into a hug. I heard him give a relieved sigh, “I shouldn’t be mad. You were with her after we broke up and besides the worst thing you ever did to me was when we broke up anyway,” I told him.

“I’m sorry Robbi, I’m really am. I don’t mean to put you through so much shit,” he told me.

“I know,” I told him as I pulled away from him and kissed his lips. I looked around the room when I noticed the silence, “Where are my parents,” I asked him next.

“They went out looking for you,” he said.

“I should call them and say that I am home,” I told him as I got up and walked into my bedroom and called my mom. While on the phone with them I asked that they not come back for a while since me and Syn still had a lot to talk about which they agreed to.

After hanging up I went back into the living room and sat down next to him. For the next hour or so all we did was talk and got all our anger, frustrations, and everything out of the way. I told him how I don’t think we should get back together, but that we should be friends for a while to see how it goes and he just became livid. If truth be told I wanted to be with him, but its like every time I am back with him I get hurt and I was tired of that.

“What do you mean we shouldn’t be together,” he roared.

“I mean we need to get to know each before we get back together. We keep hurting each other and I don’t know a damn thing about you,” I yelled back.

“You do know me and besides if you know me then we should be together.”

“Loving someone doesn’t always mean they should be together,” I said to him quietly.

“Look I have to go,” he told me.

After we were done he left and I was all by myself. I was going to call Jynx and let her know what was going on, but then I remembered how her doctor said no added stress so I didn’t call her. I kept it to myself and then I had to remember that I shouldn’t put stress on myself as well and went to my room and grabbed my dairy and a pen. I wrote down everything into that book for it always helped me and it made me feel good.

I curled up on my bed and cupped my hand under my bugling stomach. Closing my eyes I replayed the events that had just happened between me and Syn and I hoped that I was making the right choice. I wanted to be with him, but also at the same time we did not know each at all. We didn’t even know what ticked us off.

When we were together we rarely had alone time and we never got to know what each others dreams where, what was the other favorite food was, and what was our deepest secret. And the only way I knew how to get to know him was by being his friend until we knew for sure that we wanted to be together and nothing else. I loved him with all my heart, but I refused to just settle for half a relationship and keep having it fall apart over little things. It seemed hard, but we had to do what we had to do in order to make this work for the future.

I closed my eyes and started to play different parts of our relationship and how it may look like in the future. I wanted to everything work out between us and I wanted to be with him in the house that he got us on my birthday where we could raise our family, but I knew the only way to do that was to keep my distance from him for a while.