When I Look At You

I rolled away from the light that was streaming into my eyes.

"Ooh." I groaned.

I squeezed my eyes shut, the light too bright for my liking.

I rolled even farther away but the light was everywhere.

I finally gave up, sitting up slowly and stretching out.

I looked down and realized that I was naked.

My eyes widened in surprise and all of the memories from last night came rushing back.

"Holy shit." I gasped, my hand flying over my mouth.

I felt my cheeks redden in embarrassment as my brain lingered on details.

The way Matt's lips felt against my skin.

I shivered and pulled the sheet up over my naked chest.

That's when I realized I was alone.

I looked around quickly, trying to see if I could find any of his clothes.

But there were none.

I tried not to let the sadness envelope me.

It was just a one night stand.

I'd had them before.

And I've dealt with them just fine.

But for some reason, this is different?

I looked down at my hands, suddenly angry that I was feeling this way.

I shouldn't have been this stupid.

How could I have let this happen?

Why am I feeling this way?

I hate it.

I really do.

Vulnerability is not something I handle very well.

I looked down at my finger nails, trying to keep the look of sadness on my face.

I looked up quickly, my eyes going to the door when it hit the wall gently.

I instantly pulled the sheet up a little higher, my eyes widening when I saw Matt standing in my doorway.

I was shocked, to the say the least.

Not only because he's still here, but because he was holding a tray of food.

"Hey sleepy head." He said with a smile.

I was still in shock and I couldn't move.

"Hey, are you okay?" Matt asked, coming over and sitting next to me.

I shook my head to clear the thoughts gathering there.

"Yeah, sorry. You just surprised me." I told him.

He looked down for a moment and then his warmth brown eyes met mine.

"You thought I left." He said, almost acting like he could read my mind.

I didn't say anything, just kept my eyes down.

I felt his fingers curl under my chin and tilt my head up until I was looking at him.

"What kind of guy do you think I am?" He asked with a smile.

I focused on his face and after a few seconds and I couldn't help but smile too.

"To be honest, I'm not sure yet. But I'm definitely willing to find out." I told him with a grin.

He smiled too and his eyes trailed down to my lips.

With the way he was looking at me, it brought all of the memories from last night back to mind.

He looked hesitant.

Probably trying to read me.

So I lifted my hand, curled it around his neck, and brought his lips back down on mine.

The feelings flowing through my body at the moment were overwhelming.

Matt's arms wound around my body, pulling me closer.

Things started to get heavier when Matt's arms started to run up and down my sides.

Matt pulled away and I instantly leaned forward, desperate for his touch.

"You should eat something, Mia." He said.

I started to pout and Matt chuckled, rubbing his finger over my bottom lip before pecking my lip.

I looked down at the tray that he brought in and I smiled.

"Pancakes, toast, eggs and a cinnamon roll. How did you know?" I asked with a smile.

"It's really the only thing you have in your kitchen. Is breakfast your favorite meal?" He asked.

"Yeah it is." I said.

He smiled and nodded, jerking his head towards the plate of food.

"It all looks so good. I don't know where to start." I said.

He smiled and moved me back so that I was laying against the head board.

He set the tray on my lap and sat next to me.

"Try it. Let me know what you think." He smiled.

I looked at the cinnamon bun and my mouth started to water.

It looked absolutely delicious.

I picked it up gingerly, not wanting to stuff it down my mouth and look like a complete pig.

I took a little bite and licked my lips, getting the extra sugar off my lips.

"You don't have to be polite around me, you know?" He asked.

I looked up and laughed, taking another big bite.

He had the most hopeful look in his eye.

"Absolutely delicious." I told him.

He smiled and looked so satisfied with me telling him he did a good job.

And surprisingly, it made me happy that he was.

"You know, we didn't really get to talk that much last night." Matt said.

That brought a blush to my cheeks and I looked down, suddenly very aware that I was practically naked and sitting in front of him.

"Yeah, we were a little busy." I laughed.

Now it was his turn to blush.

"Yeah you could say that." He laughed.

"So, let's start now. What do you do for the living?" I asked him.

He actually looked extremely surprised.

I was a little confused at his reaction.

"You, uh, you don't know who I am?" He asked me.

I narrowed my eyes in confusion.

What the hell is that supposed to mean?

"Um, you're Matt?" I said as more of a question.

He chuckled and grabbed my hand.

"Hmmm, where to start." He said.