You Got Me.

I was becoming someone I wouldn't blame Maria for hating.

I was just so, confused.

I mean, I was trying to be a friend and tell her i'd support her if she wanted to date Matt, but then when it came down to it and Matt said he was taking her out. I lost it. I lost every thought of being supportive and more.

What it came down to? I was jealous. Jealous that it was so easy for Matty to get her when I've been trying basically my whole life.

I watched her as she slept beside me. Probably exhausted from the crying I caused her. Well that should be proof alone as to why she'd rather have Matt. I wouldn't blame her. I was suppose to protect her and make her happy. Not yell at her and make her cry.

"Yeh know Oli..." I heard from the door which startled me and I turned to see Tom with a grin.

"Usually yeh aren't one ta hold fings back." He said and I knew there was no point in holding anything from him. He was my brother after all.

"Yeah well usuallah it's not Maria I'm havin these thoughts bout." I said softly not to wake her up.

"Then tell her."

"No. I can't..."

"So let her go out with Matt?"

"Yeah. She wants to. I want her happy. So yes, I am letting her do what she wants."

He rolled his eyes, "don't be stupid Oli."

"I'm not. Puttin her happiness before my own is not stupid." I mumbled defensively.

"Right. But bein miserable is ok?"

"Leave." I said falling back onto my pillow. in all honesty, I didn't know what would be worse.

He left my room closing the door softly and I looked over at Maria who was sleeping soundly.

It hurt to think about her with Matt. Every inch of my body ached thinking about him touching her, kissing her, being the one who got to hold her. Maybe they wouldn't date after this one dinner, but a part of me knew they would. She was perfect and Matt was funny and nice which she would find endearing. I was so screwed that I felt my chest tighten.

I reached out and ran my fingers down her cheek lightly. It apparently woke her up a bit because she moved herself closer to me and wrapped her arm around me pressing herself against my chest.

So screwed.

I wrapped hy arms around her and pulled the cover over her so she wouldn't get cold. I'd lay here forever with her if it meant she would still be only mine.

I was becoming such a twat.

I kissed her head and began twirling her hair. I had to get out of this or tell her but neither was very appealing.

"You're waking me up." She mumbled which caused me to chuckle.

"Sorry..."

"I'm sure you are."

"I'm sorry bout earlier. I still feel propa bad."

"Oli, it's fine. All is forgiven." She said looking up at me sleepily.

I kissed her forehead and pulled her to me.

"Ok. I juss, in all honesty Maria, I juss want yeh ta be happy. That's all." I whispered.

"I know." She said kissing my cheek, "Bu maybe you should try it out for yourself every once in a while."

"I'd ratha yeh be happy instead."

"Why can't we just both be happy?" She asked and I stared at her in thought.

"Not possible."

"Why not?"

"Juss isn't..." I mumbled.

"Well can't we like swap every other day?"

I chuckle escaped my lips, "fraid it doesn't work like that."

"Who said? Why can't we make our own rules?"

"I mean, guess we can."

"No. Say, I know we can!"

I laughed and she started giggling.

"Are yeh a motivational speaker now?" I asked through my laughter.

"It crossed my mind..."

I kissed her forehead and climbed out of my bed.

"I fink the guys were orderin pizza. Let's go eat. Yeh haven't eaten since way before we arrived."

"Thanks for pointing that out dad." She said as I pulled her from the bed.

"Maybe I'll let yeh sit by matt." I said nudging her and she glared at me.

That simple sentence and my fake smile hurt more than I thought possible.

"Shut up." She mumbled as we headed downstairs.

I forced a laugh and she slipped her hand into mine.

"I wanna sit by you." She said into my shoulder.

"Don't yeh wanna sit by Matty?"

"No. You." She said cutely and I won't lie, that boosted my self esteem about this whole situation.

"Ok love." I said chuckling as I pulled her into the living room where Tom and Matt were sitting eating pizza and watching some american show.

I sat next to Tom in order to distance her further from Matt. I was like a teenager again. She wasn't making it better though. She sat beside me and relaxed her head against my arm.

"I'm not hungry." She whispered.

"Yeh not? Yeh haven't reallah eaten anyfing today love."

She shrugged and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around her. She apparently was still tired so I wasn't going to push it. She was a lot more clingy when she was sleepy and well, I kind of liked it...

I pulled her into my lap and she laid her head against my chest.

"Yeh can go back upstairs if yeh want." I whispered my fingers twirling her hair.

"No. I wanna stay with you." She said softly.

"Why yeh so propa cute?" I asked kissing her nose.

"I'm not."

"Yeh are so." I whispered as her arms went around me.

I couldn't help but hope Matt was a bit jealous. Then again, he should be because if he thought they would be as close as we were he had another thing coming.

"So yeh juss gonna sleep on meh?"

She nodded and I chuckled.

"Wait. Are you hungry? I'll move." She said looking up at me with a serious face.

I laughed, "No. I'm fine love."

Which was a lie but i'd rather sit here with her.

"Oye. I fought bout where Matt could take yeh!" Tom said and I rolled my eyes. Shouldn't he be on my side?

"What tha hell? Are meh and her goin on a date or is it yeh, meh and her?" Matt asked.

"Well juss figured i'd help out. Yeh not good at fings like this. Hince why yeh still single."

Maria laughed in my arms and I couldn't help but glare at Matt.

"Well out wif it." Matt stated.

"I'l tell yeh lata. Yeh can surprise her."

"She's not really into surprises. Trust meh, I know." I found myself saying.

Maria laughed, "Very true."

"Too bloody bad." Tom said with a grin. He was seriously goin to get hurt later.

Once the next day arrived, I was nervous about her going out with him.

Although he was taking her out during the day which was better than at night. I know what usually goes down on night dates and I would personally murder him if he touched her.

I sat on my bed and watched her as she got ready for the outing. It made me feel better when I called it that.

"Sure yeh wanna go?'" I asked and she laughed, "Yes Oliver."

"Juss makin sure. I know yeh. Yeh would do somefin wifout finkin bout yeh self."

She looked at me through the mirror and I shrugged.

"Oli, it's fine. I promise." She responded with a small laugh.

"Ok...juss checkin' do I need ta give him a lecture bout keepin his hands to himself?" I asked seriously.

She laughed, "No. I think that it's fine."

"Mhm."

"You're as bad as my brothers."

I shrugged. I didn't care. I know I was, but I was also a bit different due to the fact that I'm sure her brothers didn't want to date her. So no, I was worse than her brothers.

"Yeh look lovely Maria." I said when she finished. Which was actually an understatement.

She smiled and turned to face me, "Thanks."

"What time yeh gonna be back?"

"I really don't know."

I nodded and she walked closer to me, "why don't you go out with Tom? Do some work like I'm sure you've been secretly wanting to do." She said placing her hands on my face.

I probably did need to do some work but I forgot about all that being with her.

"Yeah I probably need ta do that." I said softly.

She brushed my hair from my face and kissed my forehead.

"Love you. I'll be back in a few." She said happily.

"Love yeh too. Have fun." I managed to say. She was too happy for me to kill her mood. I couldn't bring myself to say anything close to being negative.

She said bye and skipped out of my room leaving me with a huge feeling of regret.

I sat there until I heard Matt's car start up and then I pulled myself from the bed and walked to the living room where Tom was sitting.

I began pacing the floor and he looked up from his laptop.

"Uh...yeh ok?"

"No. I'm propa not. My bird juss left ta go on a date wif my best mate. I'm not ok."

"Um, Oli, she's not yeh bird per say..."

I stopped pacing and looked at him, "She should be." I mumbled, "And yeh not helpin any. Yeh should be on my side."

"I am! But yeh not doin anyfing bout it so what do yeh want meh ta do?!"

"I don't know..." I reponded tugging on my hair in agony.

"Oli, tell her."

I shook my head viciously, "I can't. It'll ruin us."

"Then don't bitch."

"But..I love her."

His eyes went wide probably because I just said that out loud and him nor myself ever thought that would happen.

"I love her." I repeated softly as I rubbed my neck nervously.

"Oli, yeh gotta tell her man. She loves yeh too. Truss meh I know."

"She loves meh so much ta go out wif Matt." I mumbled.

He sighed, "Reallah? Yeh that bloody stupid?"

"How am I stupid?!"

he shook his head, "Believe what yeh want Oli."

"What are yeh not tellin meh?"

"Nuffin Oli, but if yeh fink she doesn't feel how yeh feel yeh daft." He said looking back at his computer.

It made no sense to me. If she did would she be out with Matt? I mean, I wouldn't be caught dead on a date right now.

"Where is he takin her?"

"I fink ice skatin."

"Ice skatin?! Dear god help meh. She is not that coordinated. I swear if she comes back wif a scratch on her I'll kill him." I mumbled picking up my pacing agan.

He laughed and I glared at him.

"Neva seen yeh this worked up before ova a bird."

"It's Maria. She isn't juss anotha bird. How long is this gonna take?" I asked preparing myself for a heart attack if it would be a few hours.

"Mate, settle down. They'll be back when they get back."

"Easy for yeh ta say." I mumbled forcing myself onto the couch.

"Why don't yeh go showa and shave yeh need it." He said eyeing me.

I ran my hand on my jaw. Ok, maybe I needed to shave.

"Look good when yeh bird gets back." He said clearly mocking me now.

I mumbled a few words as I headed upstairs.

It would take my mind off of things for a while so I decided to shower and all that great stuff.

"Yeh know what would be funny?" I asked Tom returning to the living room looking better.

"What?" He groaned.

"If I made a little call ta Kared lettin him know she's on a date." I said with a grin.

"Seriously? I didn't think yeh wanted Matt dead."

I shrugged and he rolled his eyes, "Yeh not doin that."

I frowned and sat down crossing my arms. This was complete torture.

After two more grueling hours Matt and Maria arrived and I tried to contain my excitement as they walked into the door.

"Hey love. Did yeh have fun?" I asked forcing a fake smile.

She shook her head no and Matt started laughing, "she did until she fell." He said as she raised her pant leg and she showed me the bruise already forming.

I glared at Matt as Tom chuckled beside me knowing what I was thinking.

"Oi, don't look at meh like that. Not my fault!"

Maria walked over and sat in my lap and I scanned over her arms to see if there was anything else hurt.

"Yeah it is. Don't take someone like Maria to ice skate."

"Like me?!" She asked and I nodded, "Babe, yeh not tha most coordinated person I know."

She frowned and crossed her arms.

Matt laughed, "Oh we had fun." He said patting her head as he passed.

"Yeah it was pretty fun." She agreed and a part of me was disappointed.

"Did you do anything?" She asked.

"Nah juss hung out wif Tom."

Tom chuckled as he stared at his computer. I wouldn't mind hitting him just once.

"You smell good." She said as she relaxed against me and her nose touched my neck.

I swear she drives me mad.

"Yeah juss showered."

"And shaved." She added.

I chuckled, "Yeah that too." I responded nervously.

"I missed you." She said at a whisper and I hoped she couldn't feel my heart pick up speed.

"How can yeh missed meh? It was only a few houas?" I asked brushing my fingers through her hair.

"I don't know..."

Probably the same way I missed her. Maybe Tom was right after all...

"Goin ta eva try ta go home?" I asked trying to change subjects because I don't know how much more my heart could take.

"Yeah. I should probably do that. Come with me?" She asked looking up at me.

"Right now?"

"Yeah I figure since I'm already brusied up I mine as well."

I laughed, "Good point. Well, go get yeh fings love." I said patting her thigh and she sighed, "Ok..."

I had to get her out of here. Not that I wanted her gone but I knew the longer she was here, in my bed, acting the way she does with me, filling my house with the smell of her, I wouldn't have a chance of ever getting past these feelings.

Although, it was questionable if that chance was even here now or if it had already came and gone.