I Won't Let Go

My eyes peeked open to the read numbers on the clock - 10:30 am - on Christmas day. The black drapes over the window were open just a enough to see outside to a tree with a fresh layer of snow across the limbs. I could tell the glass was foggy from here, even though my eyes were still struggling to stay open. Ever since I was little, Christmas lights and decoration have always gave me a special feeling inside. It made me warm inside, like it was the only thing I've ever known. But nothing, nothing will ever make me feel better inside than the man whose arm was wrapped tightly around my waist. His breathing was heavy, meaning he was still sleeping, so I wanted to take a shower. As soon as I pulled away, his grip tightened and he pulled me closer to him.
"Babe," I whined, turning my head in time to see his lips softly curve up.
"It's too early," he whined back, snuggling his face into my neck.
"It's never too early for Christmas," I said, pulling his face up to look at me. His lips felt soft against mine as I pressed them together. "Now lets go see my - I mean our presents." Bam's smile gave me chills as he scooped me up and carried me down the stairs. He put my down when we got to the tree, a few presents under it.
"I want you to open this one first," I said, handing him the full DVD collection of Lost. Yes we absolutely loved that show and I'm damn proud of it. His face lit up when he saw it, then he started laughing.
"Thanks babe," he said before kissing my lips. "Now all I want to do is watch the whole thing."
"I saved you the best for last," Bam said, standing up in his boxers to go to the back room. I raised an eyebrow as I watched him come back with a giant box being wheeled across the living room.
"What the hell is in there?" I asked, walking over to examine it.
"Open it!" he yelled, only making me go faster. I took off the top and looked down at the blue pit bull puppy with a pink collar whining up at me.
"Oh my god!" I yelled back, reaching down to pick her up. "I love her so much!"
Bam cleared his throat after a while. "And I love you so much!" I added, pulling him into a kiss.
"What are you gonna name her?" he asked, sitting on the floor with me to play with her.
"Kuda!" I smiled as she licked my cheek.
"Kuda. Kuda.." he kept repeating it until I crawled to him, pressing my lips against his.
"This has been my favorite Christmas yet," I whispered, trailing kisses down his neck.
"Mine too," he whispered, pulling me into his lap. I wrapped my legs around his waist and continued to kiss his neck, but started to grind against him. "You dirty, dirty girl."
I giggled and kissed him, then continued on what I was doing. Kuda started to bark and whine when we wouldn't pay attention to her.

"Aww, pretty girl don't be sad." I pouted down at her while picking her up. She licked my face and her legs were kicking as fast as ever.
"So I can see how this is gonna be." I raised an eyebrow up at my boyfriend as he adjusted his boxers.
"Babe, she's so cute though." He raised an eyebrow back at me and pat Kuda on the head.
"Did you see the snow?" Bam asked, excitedly running to the door.
"Yeah, I have to get my bo-." Before I finished, he was already out of the door and in the snow. I laughed and quickly put on my boots, then joined him outside.
"You're crazy!" I yelled, he was rolling in the snow.
"You're dating me," he retorted, tossing snow up at me.
"Unfortunately." Bam stood up and charged towards me. "I'm joking!"
Too late, I was already on the ground, freezing in the snow.

"Look babe, a snow angel!" I flapped my arms and legs up and down.
"No, you're just an angel." He stood up in front of me and held his hand out. I grabbed it and was yanked right into a kiss. I couldn't help but lift my legs around his waist, but he didn't mind. He placed his hands under my butt and ran into the house. Kuda was already asleep on the couch.
"I'm cold. We should warm up in the shower," I whispered in Bam's ear, then bit his earlobe. His teeth chattered and he carried me up the stairs, motor boating me, making me giggle like a school girl.
- - -
As I stood in the closet in just a towel, I looked around at what to wear.
"Hey babe, you know what I was thinking?" I asked, putting my hair up into a clip.
"That you're becoming a nudist?" he asked me, kissing my neck from behind.
I laughed and turned around to him. "No silly. That I have too much clothes."
"Give some away then." He shrugged, sitting down on the couch.
"Let's drop them off at the Salvation Army," I suggested, pulling out my outfit.

After putting clothes in boxes and boxes, we Bam took them to the car, and I took Kuda out to go potty. She started barking at me as I tried to leave her when Bam was getting the last of the boxes into the hummer.
"Shhh, Kuda." I hushed her, trying to close the door. Her eyes pleaded me to stay, but instead while Bam wasn't looking, I put her in my coat and ran to the car. When I sat down, I leaned over to kiss Bam. A little bark came from my pocket, but I tried to cover it up with a cough.
"Babe, did you eat Kuda?" He asked, raising an eyebrow. I laughed and shook my head just as her head popped out of the top.
"I know, she's perfect, right?" I nodded and leaned over again to kiss him before we took off to Salvation Army. There were a lot of people standing in line, but the one that caught my eye was a pretty red haired girl, tall, slender, and wrapped in a thin jacket. It made me feel bad that I was sitting here, living in luxury while there are people struggling to survive.
I sighed and got out of the car, attaching the leash to Kuda's collar.
"GUYS! It's BAM and his girlfriend!" We took a few pictures here and there, a lot of autographs. The store owner was standing at the door, so we pulled him aside and told him we had boxes filled with our clothes, but we wanted to give them for free, no cost whatsoever. He was understanding, and did just that.

"Can I play with your puppy?" A little boy with black hair and grey eyes asked. I stopped myself from pouting at his dimples and nodded, setting Kuda on the ground. He got down on his knees and let the puppy jump all over him, licking his face. He laughed and ran around the parking lot with her, bending down every so often to pet her and play with her.

After we left the Salvation Army, we brought back Kuda and headed towards Dunn and Angie's apartment for a Brunch. Angie was an amazing cook and knew exactly what she was doing. Everyone was already there when we arrived, sitting around with alcohol and making small talk. I wrapped my arms around my favorite brother - only brother - and kissed him on the cheek.
"Merry Christmas Adhole."
"Merry Christmas Dung," I wrinkled my nose and ruffled his hair. Joining Angie at the oven, I helped her with french toast and her spanish omelets.
"Look at us and our themed eggs!" Angie laughed, seeing the red and green peppers. I couldn't help but laugh at her and look her in the eyes.
"You stoner!" I whispered harshly. "You're just not sharing." That's when she reached in her back pocket and pulled out a baggie with what look a little less than an eighth.
"You're the best sister ever!" I gasped, wrapping my arms around her.
"Yea! Give her a little one on one!" Bam joked, lifting his water bottle in the air. Dunn looked disgusted at his best friend and turned back to the TV, not before flipping me off. I just laughed and went into the bathroom with Angie. They'd never know.

As soon as I stepped into the living room, Bam was standing right in front of me, looking deep into my eyes.
"Hi, how are you?" I smiled, kissing his lips.
"How high are you?" He widened his eyes and nodded at me. This, for some reason, was fucking hilarious.
"Breakfast is ready Latoya." Dunn's eyes widened at me just like Bam's had, his jaw slightly dropped.
"Latoya?" Angie laughed out, setting down the plates on the counter. "Where did that come from?!"
"You promised!" He yelled, standing up to walk towards me.
"It just slipped!" I yelled back, hiding behind Bam. My big brother narrowed his eyes at me, just then an evil smile spread across his face. "Hey Bam, did Adilean ever tell you about the time she was obsessed with this guy in 4th grade?"

My eyes widened and I leaped at him from behind Bam, who grabbed me to stop from interrupting the story.
"She sure didn't!"
Dunn looked dramatically pleased. "Oh she didn't?" Now Angie was in the living room, sure the story was good. "She kept a scratch book of him! All the pictures from the newspaper. Even straws and napkins he's dropped in the cafeteria. She took it the next level by taking his hat and finding a -"
I yelled and charged at Dunn, knocking him to the ground. My hands covered his mouth, his pinned under my knees. "I'll kill you!"
"Latoya though?" Angie asked, still confused.
"Little Dunn here use to dress up in my clothes! He would call himself Latoya!" Now an evil grin was on my lips. "Take that you fucker!"

Bam wasn't sure if he should laugh more or help his best friend from being destroyed by his girlfriend. Finally he came to tears and pulled me off of him.
"OKAY! No more! It's fucking Christmas!" Angie helped Dunn off the ground and looked over at our food. "It's probably cold again, and you know what, baby jesus would've never wanted that!"

That snapped both of us out of our trance. We couldn't stop laughing in fact; Dunn's laugh always got me to crack up.
Finally, he spoke. "Fucking Latoya," he laughed out.
I laughed too, looking at Bam. "Babe, I promise I'm not a stalker anymore." My gorgeous boyfriend only laughed and pulled me into his side.
"It's okay, I believe you," he said, kissing my lips quickly. "Now lets fucking eat!"
"Thank you!" Angie called out sarcastically from the kitchen, already loading up her plate.

Of course the food was delicious, I ate every last bite. Bam and Dunn cornered me, giving me a good 142 reasons why we should all smoke again.
They didn't even need to give me one.

"Happy Christmas Dunn." I giggled and held my face. "I meant-"
"I know, retard." Bam laughed at my brother and I narrowed my eyes at them both.
"I'll remember this when you want to have sex tonight," I threatened Bam. He stopped laughing and looked at me if I had just taken away his christmas present.
"I'm going to act like I didn't hear that, because that's fucking nasty. But, Merry Christmas my favorite sister."
"Only sister," I corrected him, pulling him into a hug.
He laughed and gave me a tight squeeze. "I love you Adilean."
"I love you too Ryan." I kissed his fuzzy cheek and to my surprised, he didn't wrinkle his nose or sneer. He just simply smiled and kissed my cheek too.

"Bye Angie!" I yelled through the house. I knew she'd come running to the door, like a little puppy. She gave Bam and I both hugs and wished us a Merry Christmas.
"Let's go play with Kuda!" I begged as we got to the hummer.
"Of course baby. First we have to go ice skating!" Excitement rushed through me and I couldn't wait. The place he took me was in the middle of a tree and short black metal gate barrier. It was lined with lights and families filled the giant patch.
"I'm so excited!" We were putting on our skates and I wobbled to the rink, not sure I really remembered how to ice skate. It had been a year or seven.
Luckily, it felt like it was just yesterday as soon as I hit the ice. I waited for Bam to come join me, then we linked hands and started to skate. We wink around the exterior of the rink a few times until I felt like racing.

"Catch me!" I shouted, starting to skate side to side, faster and faster. I didn't want to look behind me because I knew I'd fall. It'd be a waste because Bam right up behind me and wrapped his arms around me. I screamed, mainly because he collided with me hard enough to knock us over. We landed on our sides and landed hard. It knocked the wind out of me for a minute, but I started to laugh. I rolled over to face Bam, who was laughing just as hard. We both calmed at the same time and I leaned in to kiss him.
"I love you so much, baby," Bam whispered, pulling me into another long kiss.
"Are you guys okay?!" Someone asked, stopping right next to us.
"We're fine, thank you!" I told them happily. I sat up and attempted to stand again. When I thought I had my balance, I slipped and landed right on my ass.

Bam laughed so hard I thought I saw his face turn purple.
"That wasn't funny, Brandon!" I said, a little more rudely than I intended. "I almost shit my pants," I added, not able to contain my laughter anymore. We laughed for a good 5 minutes until Bam got up, kept his balance, and helped me up. We skated for a little while longer, then decided we'd go home and spend the rest of Christmas together at the house, in front of the fireplace, with way less clothing.

We laid on the fuzzy blanket, underneath another fuzzy blanket, cuddling and talking in front of the fireplace. Bam ran his finger tips on the outline of my body and it felt so good, it put me to sleep.

I don't know how long we were out for, but Kuda made sure I woke up. I slipped on Bam's button up shirt from earlier and went to the kitchen. I grabbed marshmallows, graham crackers, chocolate, then some metal skewers for kabobs and figured they'd work in substitution of sticks.

When I got back, Bam was sitting up and playing with Kuda. He looked up at me and a sexy smirk spread across his perfect lips. "You're like a goddess." He whispered, pulling me down on top of him. I laughed and kissed his lips, dropping the food down. I got lost in the kiss, feeling his erection grow underneath me. The bare skin contact made me wet itself, let alone Bam massaging my clit. I moaned out his named and Kuda started to bark. She kept looking at us and it made me feel uncomfortable.
"Babe," I moaned as he placed kisses on my neck.
"Mm?"
"Stop. I can't do this in front of Kuda."
"She's a dog." He gave me a look as if I were retarded.
"So!" I sighed, pressing my forehead to his. "Later."
"Fine." He kissed me and lifted me off of him, opening up the marshmallows. "But you bet you're ass I'll make you sore for the morning."

I bit my lip and didn't take it as a threat. That's when I found myself thinking of all the possible way he could torture me.

Oh what fun it is to...fuck?