An Abandoned Imprint

`I woke up to the sound of my babies crying, and like I have been for the past three weeks. I got out of bed slowly, because I still feel some pain when I walk, and went to the cribs a few feet away from my bed.

The Cullen’s offered to let them have their own room, but I refused, I felt better knowing they were only a few feet away in case of an emergency. I silently grabbed both of my babies, and took them to my bed.

“Shh…its okay, mommy’s here,” I cooed to them as they stared at me with their baby, confused, eyes.

I grabbed them both and fed them from my breast, since they needed their nutrients. I fed them until they squirmed away, now full. I slowly burped them one by one and laid them down next to me. Putting pillows around them, so they wouldn’t fall out of bed – just a precaution since they hardly move around a lot when they sleep.

I slowly fell asleep watching my little angels sleeping. I slowly put one of my arms around them both as I fell asleep, just to make sure they don’t fall out of bed. Geez…I fell like an overprotective mom!

I woke up the next morning with the babies still asleep next to me. The Cullen’s probably respected that I wanted to sleep with them alone. I made sure they were still safe and surrounded by pillows, before I left to go to the bathroom. When I finished I changed and came out back to my room.

I found my little angels awake and playing with their hands as they stared around them. I turned on the TV, and sat down on my bed, pillows propped up against my back and the headboard. I laid them on their tummies in between my legs as I played with their little feet causing them to giggle.

My favorite song came on, “If I Die Young” by The Band Perry, I sang along to the song, singing to my little babies. I heard the door open and didn’t look up; my babies were staring at me in wonder as I sang to them:

“If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls”