Warmness On The Soul.

I was struggling to remain asleep; clinging to the images that were slowly becoming foggy in my mind. I didn’t want to wake up yet, I didn’t want to stop the lovely dream I was having about Matt. The dream was making me feel so warm and fuzzy inside, and I wanted to keep that feeling going.

However, I was aware of something gliding along my arm gently. Goosebumps raised across my skin when I felt a pair of lips kiss up my arm and to the side of my neck gently. I moaned quietly, I guess if I had to wake up this was better than the dream. The rough fingertips continued their assault, and slowly but surely I realized the lips and fingers belong to Matt.

Sighing contently I rolled onto my back, opening my eyes to find his hazel ones staring into mine. Smiling, I leaned up to peck his lips gently, enjoying the way he smiled against me.

“You’ve got to get dressed babe.” He murmured gently. “We’ve got an appointment with your doctor today.”

I made a whine of protest. “Can’t we just lie in bed all day and kiss? We can reschedule the appointment for some other day.” I suggested with a hopeful smile.

He chuckled, “trust me, as tempting as that sounds I want to see the baby for the first time. Plus we find out if we’re going to have a little girl or a little boy today.” His eyes lit up at the mention of it.

I couldn’t help but smile at the look of excitement on his face. No matter what anyone ever said, Matt was going to be the best Father on the planet. And even though I wanted to stay in bed and kiss, I also wanted to see the baby and find out what we were having.

“I guess give me a few minutes to get dressed.” I pouted, earning a laugh from Matt.

“Take all the time you need, do you want me to go cook for you?” He asked. While waiting for me to think it over Matt lifted my shirt up enough to see my stomach, his famous dimpled grin popping out. Watching him, he leaned down to kiss the raised skin, murmuring to the baby that he was so excited to see him or her, and how excited he was to get to hold them for the first time.

“How about we just go grab breakfast afterwards?” I suggested running my fingers through his hair.

He looked up at me before pressing another kiss to my tummy. “I like that idea, and how about a beach day too? I can call everyone and we can all meet up afterwards.”

I nodded, “sounds like a plan, but if anyone calls me a whale I will murder them. Now leave me to get dressed.” I giggled sitting up.

He pouted, “Hmph, fine.”

*

Matt and I had parked by the beach since my doctor’s office was conveniently right by the beach. Made no sense in parking right in front of the office just to have to find a spot by the beach later on; plus it was nice out today. Strolling towards my doctor’s office I couldn’t help but notice all the other girls around me moment. All of them were practically eye fucking Matt even though he clearly had his arm around me.

I felt a sudden realization that I was no longer their size; I was basically a human whale at the moment. All of them were clad in skimpy bikinis, giggling when they passed back. A few of them looked at him with wide eyes, and then narrowed them when they spotted me latched onto him. They whispered to each other while trying to be sneaky and point to me.

I was far from stupid; I knew exactly what they were saying about me.

I looked down at the pavement, resisting the urge to cry my eyes out right there. I was glad Matt seemed unaware in my change of mood; I didn’t want him to be upset too.

Matt held open the door for me to the office, I forced a smile for him, not wanting to ruin today. I walked up to the front desk, waiting for the middle aged nurse to notice me. After a few awkward moments she glanced up and smiled politely.

“Hello.”

“Hi, I’ve got an appointment with Dr. Cali, my last name is Moore.” I replied.

She nodded, typing my name into the computer. “Alright it’ll be a few more minutes, and in the meantime fill this form out and bring it back up once you’re done.” She handed me the form along with a pen.

I smiled thankfully before turning and heading over to Matt. His leg was jumping up and down, while he read from a home making magazine. The image was rather funny to see, but I knew if I got my phone to take a picture he’d throw the magazine as far away as possible.

After all Matt was manly man.

As soon as I sat down he set the magazine down, lying his head down on my shoulder gently. I felt my lips turn upwards into a real smile as I filled out the form. Basic questions about how my pregnancy was going so far, anything unusual, how much I ate and how much weight I had gained.

At the mention of the weight I felt my bad mood return. I finished the last questions, returned the form and pen to the nurse, and took my seat again. I was trying to distract myself from my foul mood, pretending to be watching the news on the TV/. Matt’s fingers laced with mine, his thumb rubbing small circles into the palm of my hand. It was calming me down slowly, but every commercial with stick thin girls just made me more and more upset.

Luckily my attention was stolen when the door to the backrooms opened, and out walked Dr. Cali, a smile on her tanned face.

“Kara, nice to see you! Ooh and do I finally get to meet the lucky Father?” She grinned as Matt and I got up.

I nodded, “Dr. Cali this is the Father Matt.” I introduced the two, feeling Matt squeeze my hand nervously.

She smiled politely, “nice to meet you, well lets go back and take a look at the bun in your oven.” She chuckled. “Do you want to find out the sex today?” She asked as we followed her down the hallway.

“Yes please, that way we can plan the nursery for them.” I rubbed my stomach nervously. “Dr. Cali how much weight should I gain?” I asked, hoping Matt wouldn’t think anything of the question.

“Well it depends really, but most of the girls I’ve had usually gain around fifteen to twenty five pounds. Why are you worried you haven’t gained enough?” She asked holding the door to the room open.

I cleared my throat nervously, “no, I was just curious.” I replied giving her a stiff smile. “Want me to lie down and do the same as last time?”

She nodded, “Mhm, I warmed up the gel a little bit so it shouldn’t be cold.”

I nodded before getting onto the bed, pulling up my dress. I was thankful that I had bikini bottoms on at the moment; however I wished I had worn a one piece instead. Who I was kidding, I was too big to be dressed like this.

“Going to the beach today?” Dr. Cali asked squirting some gel onto my stomach.

“Yeah, nice relaxing day.” Matt grinned, “Is it alright for her to be out in the sun?”

She chuckled, turning on the sonogram machine. “It’s more than fine, fresh air will do all of you good. I’ve always been curious as to if babies can hear the waves or the water inside of their mothers. It must be lovely sounding if they can.” She commented before pressing the wand onto my stomach. “Ready to find this little babe?”

I looked at Matt, seeing his eyes wide with excitement.

“Ready.”

She turned on the machine, moving the wand around my stomach. It was nothing but black for a while, making e worry that something was wrong with the baby. My heart was thudding painfully as I waited to see the familiar shape. Tears prickled in my eyes as I thought of something that could’ve gone wrong. The baby never kicked; maybe I had done something wrong and ruined everything.

“Kara? Baby don’t cry, what’s wrong?” Matt asked noticing the tears in my eyes.

I sniffled, quickly wiping at them. “The baby’s not there, what if I did something wrong?” I asked in a quiet voice.

He smiled sadly, “even if you did we could have another baby, but trust me you didn’t do anything wrong babe. The baby’s probably just sleeping so don’t worry.” He leaned over and kissed my forehead.

“Uh oh.”

My eyes snapped towards Dr. Cali, who was staring at the screen with a frown. She moved the wand around a bit, making my heartbeat increase by ten folds.

“Dr.?”

She snapped out of her thoughts, noticing the worried look on my face. “Oh, don’t worry it’s not bad, well depending on how you take it.” She murmured. “Matt, Kara, meet the twins..”