love is the hardest thing

I laughed my way out of science with my friends following me, think that was the funniest science leason ever and I wold do.it all again
"oh my God" Emma said starting to laugh again
we stumble to the front of the school still laughing. I was trying to calm down but it didn't really work. I hugged the girls and bye and started to walk home, I was starting to feel alot more confident around them now I felt as if I could tell them everything witch I wasn't gonna do.
After about 15 minutes I arived home mum wasn't home she said something about looking for a job, I got my key from my bag and pushed the door open walking into the kitchen to get some water and walked up to my room to start my homework, after about 2 hours mum still wasn't home and I started to worry I hated It when I worried cause I tend to cut witch wasn't great. After about another hour the feeling got to much I had to do it.
I got the small box and pulled out a cold blade pulled up my sleave and lowered it t my pail skin needing to.feel something the first cut felt amazing and so did the second, I was about to do another when I heard the door bang and mum saying she's home