A Kiss Before She Goes

Once I knew I couldn’t cry anymore, I picked myself up and went out to the party again. I headed straight for the kitchen. As I entered I bumped into Kyle.

“Hey gorgeous!” He said smiling but faded away as he saw my eyes red. “What’s wrong?”

I waved my hand in my face, “Nothing.” I laughed weakly. “I just need a drink.”

“Beer?” He asked as he handed me a bottle. I scrunched up my face at the sight of it. He laughed.

“No I hate the taste of beer. I prefer hard liquor.”

“Well, let me mix you a drink than.” He grabbed three different bottles and started pouring them in a plastic cup. I didn’t know what he put in there but it tasted good. I let out a small squeal of joy letting him know I liked it. He smiled happy at his work and that he made me feel better. We walked out to the side of the house where a grill was set up. There was a table, a hammock, and a porch swing. We sat on the porch swing.

“So tell me about yourself? I already know your name, you like to sing, you like a lot of the same music as I do and you’re on the dance team.” Kyle asked as he started swinging the porch swing.

“How do you know I’m on the dance team?”

“I have P.E. the same time as you and I saw you guys’ practicing. You can really move.” He said winking at me.

I blushed and laughed nervously. “Thanks.” I took any sip from my drink. The burning sensation felt good going down my throat. “Well I love to cook. My mom taught me when I was ten years old how to make everything from scratch.”

“You should cook for me one day.” Kyle said with a grin.

“Sure, maybe I’ll bring you something to school one day.” I took another sip from my drink.

“I can’t wait. What are some things you don’t like?”

“Being alone in an unknown place, bugs, fast food and being lied too…” I drifted off thinking about Frank. I became the thing I hated the most. I know I didn’t lie to him but I wasn’t telling him the truth. I felt so horrible.

“Hey Anna,” Kyle nudge me snapping me out of my daze. “Are you okay?”

I smiled wearily. “Yeah just trying to figure some stuff out.”

“Anything I can do to help?”

“No, thank you. I have to do it on my own.”

“Well cheer up Anna. I don’t like seeing you like this.” He said swinging an arm around my shoulder and gripping it in comfort. I smiled at him and took another drink. He kept his arm there as we continued to talk. He told me about his love for sports and singing. I was really surprised that he was open minded like me. When I finished my drink I was really drunk and so was he. We were both making jokes, laughing about nothing when I heard someone say my name. It was Bob.

“Heeeeyyy Bob!” I said very loud. “What’s up?”

“We’re going to leave now. Are you coming?” He asked looking at Kyle. I knew that the ride back home would be weird. Frank probably doesn’t even want to see me right now…

“I can take her home later if she doesn’t want to leave now.” Kyle said looking at Bob.

“Yeah! I’ll go home later!” I said happily relieved I wouldn’t have to go through that. Bob stood there looking at both of us before nodding his head.

“Call me when you’re home. Got it?” Bob said seriously at me as I nodded my head yes. He then turned to Kyle. “I’ll kill you if anything happens to her.”

Kyle nodded his head vigorously knowing Bob was serious. He hugged me goodbye kissing me on the forehead and went back inside.

*Frank’s POV*

We were all waiting inside the Gerard’s car while Bob went to go find Rose. My head was throbbing in pain as I remembered tonight. After I stormed out of the room I found Gerard and started drinking like crazy. I was so mad at her. Why couldn’t she just tell me the reason why we can’t be together? Did she like someone else…? No, she wouldn’t do that to me. She wouldn’t lead me on like that. At the same time I felt like an asshole. When I started yelling I could see she was about to cry but I was so mad that I couldn’t stop. I didn’t mean to hurt her like that. I over reacted.

I fucked up…

Bob came back without Rose. He got in the front seat without saying anything. We all looked at him waiting for him to say something. Nothing.

“Where is she?” I asked impatient.

“She’s going to stay. She’s going to get a ride home later.” Bob said casually.

“With who?” I asked worried about her now.

“A friend.” He sounded annoyed. “Don’t worry about her. She’s fine. Let’s go”

No one asked anymore questions and we drove out of the driveway. I went home thinking about her and if she’d be okay. I was going to apologize to her when she came home.

*Rose’s POV*

“Want to go inside and dance?” Kyle said smiling at me.

“Sure but I don’t know if I’ll be able to stand, let alone dance.” I said giggling.

“Don’t worry I’ll hold you up.” He got up and held out his hand so I could get up. I took it with a smile and we headed inside. I was a mess on the dance floor. I couldn’t stop laughing and stumbling into people. Kyle had to basically hold me really close to his body so I wouldn’t fall. We danced until my feet hurt. Around 2 AM Kyle ended the party. I sat on the couch as Kyle made sure everyone get out. When he was done he came back and sat on the couch with me.

“So what do you want to do now?” Kyle asked wrapping his arm around my shoulder.

“Go home.” I yawned. “I’m so tired and probably going to wake up with a hangover.” I said yawning again.

“Are you sure you don’t want to stay longer?” Kyle asked leaning closer to me.

“No my parents will worry.” He was so close to me, only inches away from our faces. I thought about letting him kiss me because I was able to but… I didn’t want to hurt Frank like he did to me. I held my hand up to his chest stopping him and softly said, “I can’t.”

He smiled rubbing the back of his neck. “I’m sorry. It was worth a try.”

I laughed as he got up and helped me get up as well. He locked his front door and we walked to his car. He put on the radio low and we drove without saying anything. As we got to my house, he got out the car and opened my door.

“Wow what a gentleman.” I said laughing as he helped me out of the car. He walked me to my front door and hugged me but didn’t let go. He got closer again going in for another kiss but I quickly turned my head so he kissed my cheek. He sighed and mumbled sorry.

“It’s ok.” I said softly as he let me go.

“Well I had a really fun night with you. I’m glad you came to my party. I’ll see you later Anna.” He hugged me again and walked back to his car. He revved up his car and waved goodbye as he drove off. I looked in my hand bag for my keys, pulling them out when I found them. As I put them in, I heard someone say my name.

*Frank’s POV*

I got woken up by a car door slamming shut. Rose. I thought as I got up and looked out my window. My heart sunk. I saw Kyle coming out of his car to open the door for her. She smiled at him as she took his hand and got out. They walked to the front of her house as he gave her a hug and held her close. I held my breath as he got closer to her.

I shouldn’t get mad if she does kiss him… I deserve it.

Just as they were about to kiss she turned her face and he kissed her cheek. I sighed in relief. I waited for him to leave before I ran outside my house. Just as she was about to open her door I called her name.

“Rose.” I said softly shoving my hands in my pockets. She turned around confused and frowned as she saw me. It hurt me to know I made her upset. “Can we talk?”

“Do you just want to talk out here?” She said as she wrapped her arms around herself. I ran out the house without putting a sweater on and until I saw her being cold, I hadn’t noticed the cold wind blowing.

“No, can we go inside to your room?” I asked stepping closer to her. She nodded her head and quickly opened the door. I went inside having the warmth of her house greet me. We silently walked down the stairs to her room. She threw her bag on her night stand and kicked off her heels. She sat on the bed and looked to me.

“You can sit down next to me if you want.” She said softly. I took the offer and sat a good distance away from her. I sighed before I began.

“I’m sorry for how I overreacted today. It was wrong for me to blow up on you like that. I know you have your reason why you don’t want to be with me and I should have respected that more. I just never had feeling for someone like this before. I’m scared that if I don’t do something now, I’ll lose you in the future…” She hung her head low as she heard what I was saying. I watched her as tears fell on her lap. My heart filled with pain. I wanted to hold her, wipe her tears and tell it was going to be okay but I needed to give her space right now. She wiped the tears before she spoke.

“Frank I never had feeling for someone like this before too… You have no idea how much I want to be with you.”

Then why can’t we?

“I had everything planned out when I came to New Jersey and when I met you, everything got changed. I’m not saying that in a bad way. What I’m trying to say is I don’t know what my future will hold right now. I need to make sure the decision I make is right for me. That’s why I don’t want to be together because it might make my decision that much harder. I know it doesn’t make much sense right now but trust me Frank, I will tell you everything when the time is right.”

She held my hand and looked me straight in the eyes. I was being selfish. I could see whatever she is battling with is killing her inside. I wanted to be with this girl no matter what and if I have to wait years to be with her; I was going to do it. I’ve never met anyone like her and she made me so happy in the small amount of time I’ve known her than anyone else in my whole life. I pulled her in my lap and held her. She shook as she sobbed into my shoulder. I made her look at me as I wiped away her tears.

“Rose, do whatever it takes to figure out what is right for you. I’ll wait for you… no matter how long it takes. I want to be with you.” More tears fell down her face as I kissed her. She wrapped her arms around my neck, pressing her body to my chest. My hands traveled to the bottom of her dress, lifting it off her body in one swift movement. I stood up with her still wrapped around my waist and laid her down on the bed. I took off my shoes, shirt, pants and boxers. I pulled out the condom from my wallet that I always carried for situations like these. Not that I was planning on sleeping with anyone else besides her. I took off her legging and underwear, along with her bra. I stood there watching every part of her body for a moment.

God, she’s so beautiful.

I saw her blush and squirm under my stare. I smirked as I crawled onto bed with her. We got under the covers as I lay in between her legs kissing her softly. As I put on the condom, she kissed my neck and collar bone, sending shocks of pleasure up and down my spine. Her lips were soft like rose petals and her touch were too much to handle. I pushed her down back on the bed and entered her. That wonderful gasp that came out of her mouth greeted my ears. As I got rhythm her moans became more intense, making me go faster. Thank God, her room is downstairs in the basement because everyone in the block would have heard her. The more she moaned, the faster I went. As we both climaxed she moaned my name in my ear, making my body go weak. I held her so tight in my arms as we both tried to catch out breaths. I pushed a strand of hair away from her face as she smiled at me, filling my heart. I kissed her softly, telling her goodnight. She buried her face into my chest, mumbling goodnight as well. Shortly I felt her breathing steady and she was fast asleep. I smiled ear to ear as I drifted off to sleep.

I didn’t care if she was forever mine or not. All that mattered is that she was mine tonight.