Come With Me

I saw them everyday since they got together. They were so lovey dovey! It made my stomach churn. It should be me kissing Sean's lips, holding him close and making him laugh. But no. It's Ian fuckin' Watkins. How am I supposed to compete with him? Sean adored Ian.

We seem to be growing apart now that Ian is around. If their not sucking each other's faces off after school or at lunch they're texting each other every minute of everyday! It bugs me.

"Gav? Gavin?" I heard someone call my name. I snapped out of my daydream at the third mention of my name.
"What?" I snapped harshly. Seeing Sean's smiling face turn into a sad frown.
Shit.

"I was going to ask you to come to the cinema with me but seeing as you don't seem to be in a good mood, I'll ask Ian." He snapped back leaving the room taking his phone out of his pocket.

Great.

I've just gone and partially ruined my friendship with Sean. That's the last thing I wanted.

I love him. Have done since Primary 7!

I know that sounds wrong, an 11 year old boy finds out that he is in love with his best friend. I'm mature for my age, not many 14 year olds are. They're all away making dick jokes and oogling girls.

It's weird. I have loved Sean since P7 but I have had a few girlfriends since I found out. I liked them an' all, but they weren't Sean.

I'm bisexual if you're wondering. I like guys and girls if you haven't already guessed!

How am I going to get Sean? How am I going to be able to win him over?

It's horrible seeing the man you love suck the face off someone else. I can't watch it for much longer.

One problem how will he react? Will he be scared? Will he leave Ian for me?

I doubt he will. He won't ever be my friend again if I tell him I love him. That's my fault for being me. We're meant to be best friends. He told his parents he's gay and that Ian's his boyfriend.
They are proud he's come out at his age. I've not been over to Sean's for 2 weeks, he's not been to mine. We've just not seen each other apart from school.

It's Ian's fault.

"Cheered up yet?" Sean asked gritting his teeth. One problem with him. He gets angry easily.

"Maybe." I said shrugging my shoulders. I probably shouldn't have done that but hey ho.

"Gavin, we're meant to be best friends! What the hell is up with you?!" He spat.

"Is that what we are. Thought I'd been demoted cause of the new guy in your life." I retaliated. I sensed his anger rising more and more.

"Why are you acting like this Gavin?"

"Well, would you like me to tell you a long list or just one?" I spat looking towards him angrily.

"Tell me the list then!" He yelled throwing his hands up in the air angrily.

"WE'RE MEANT TO BE FUCKING BEST FRIENDS! WE NEVER TALK ANYMORE! YOU SPEND MORE TIME WITH IAN THAN ME! I UNDERSTAND HE'S YOUR BOYFRIEND AND EVERYTHING BUT SPARE A THOUGHT FOR THE ONE'S WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR YOU, THERE WITH YOU FOR EVERYTHING!" I spat running out of the park and towards my house.

When I walked in the door I ran up to my room and threw myself on the bed.

Tears erupted from my eyes and I lay there for hours crying. I can't believe I've just yelled at Sean. I would never, ever yell at him.

Eventually I fell asleep. Forgetting everything that happened.