Come With Me

"WE'RE MEANT TO BE FUCKING BEST FRIENDS! WE NEVER TALK ANYMORE! YOU SPEND MORE TIME WITH IAN THAN ME! I UNDERSTAND HE'S YOUR BOYFRIEND AND EVERYTHING BUT SPARE A THOUGHT FOR THE ONE'S WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR YOU, THERE WITH YOU FOR EVERYTHING!" He cried running out of the park turning towards his house.

I stood there, tears forming in my eyes.

Have I hurt Gav by going out with Ian?

Please, dear god, that he's not feeling intimitated by my relationship with Ian.

If I'm crying over Gav...

What does that mean?

Do I have, feelings for Gav? I hope not.

I love Ian!

But I'm in love with Gav.

Shit. What do I do? I'm caught between the devil and the deep!

Goddammit.

"Seannyyy bonniee!!" Ian giggled running up tackling me to the ground.

"Hi, Ian." I mumbled.

"What's wrong Seanny boy?" He asked softly.

"Gavin and I had a tiny argument and he stormed off crying and er yeah. I don't know whether to go talk to him or shit." I rambled.

Ian looked around for about ten minutes before speaking.

"Go see him. Talk it over with him then come speak to me."

I kissed Ian before running off to find Gav.

Damn, I love Gav. Possibly more than Ian.

But I can’t leave Ian. I just can’t.

When I reached Gav’s house I knocked hard until his mum answered.

"Oh hello Sean." His mum smiled.

"Is Gavin in?" I asked sounding desperate.

"Yeah, he's in his room just go on up." She smiled again.

I mumbled a thanks then ran up to Gav's room.

I walked straight in, didn't even knock.

I saw him, laying there. Sleeping. He looked so peaceful.

I didn't want to interupt him, nor do I want to leave.

I decided to sit in his chair and watched over him for about 20 minutes before he woke up.

"Sean? What are you doing here?" He grumbled rubbing his eyes.

"I couldn't let you run away from me like that. Gav... I have something to tell you." I mumbled.

"Aaaaannnnnnnddd?" He asked.

"I love you." I mumbled so quietly I'd be surprised if he'd heard me.

He must have heard it, because his eyes lit up and he egded closer to me.

"You love me? What about Ian?" He asked.

"I do love him, but I love you more!" I mumbled.

He pulled me into a hug.

"I love you too Seanny boy." He giggled.

I pulled away from the hug took ahold of his hands and looked into his eyes.

"Gav, have you ever been kissed by a bloke 'afore?" I asked softly.

He shook his head looking at me softly.

"Well," I smiled leaning closer towards him.

We got really close and then all of a sudden our lips connected. We kissed each other softly and built it up. After about 20 minutes of kissing we broke apart and both of us were lying on his bed shirtless. I don't know how that happened but we're shirtless, and I loved it.

I love Gav. More than Ian.

"Seanny, what are we gonna do about us? I mean I understand you can't leave Ian." He asked.

"We could sneek around for a few weeks, then when I feel that when the time is right I'll let Ian down gently. Then 2 days after that we can go out for real." I suggested pulling Gav into a hug.

"It wouldn't feel right though. Sneeking around."

"I know, but if we truly love each other this is what we should do to be together."

"Okay."

We fell asleep in each others arms.

After about 4 hours, I think, my phone buzzed. It was Ian.

Heeyyy babbeee is everything okay with Gavin? You still with him? Love youuuu - Ian xoxox

Argh.

Guilt crept up in my stomach but I ignored it.

I love Gavin more that Ian.

Everything's great! Uhm won't be able to go to the cinema the night tho gonna spend some time wi' Gav. xx

I didn't care if my phone buzzed after that.

Gavin smiled at me.

"I love you Sean Smith." He whispered into my ear.

"I love you more Gavin Butler." I whispered back.

He took ahold of my hand then fiddled with it, knotting his fingers with mine.

Damn he's gorgeous.

I leaned in and kissed him again. This time we got to tongues.

Everytime I kiss him I feel a spark.

Could he be THE one?

I dunno, but God I hope so!