Bury Me Alive
Chapter 8
X Mesly’s p.o.v. X
The next morning I woke up and I peek an eye open to see if Andy was there, and he was, but he was still sound asleep.
So I quiet moved away from him, put on some sweats that he left me and then I walked down the stairs.
I checked to see if anyone was awake, before I slipped out the door, but that was until I saw something or someone move from the corner of my eye.
Slowly I turned around and almost screamed, but whoever it was scrambled to put his hand over my mouth.
When he saw that I calmed down he breathed a sigh of relief and then took his hand off my mouth.
“Sorry I just didn’t want you to wake up everyone… do you mind if I take a walk with you?” He asked
“Um… sure…” I said
“Great, thanks.” He said
Okay, this isn’t what I expected, but okay.
We walked outside and closed the door behind us and then we moved across the lawn and around the corner of the block before any of us spoke up.
“So um what’s your name?” I asked
“Matt and yours?” He asked
“Mesly, it’s nice to meet you Matt.” I said
“Thanks, it’s nice meeting you too… so are you Andy’s girlfriend?” He asked
“Um, no not really, it’s kind of complicated.” I said
“How so… if you don’t mind me asking?” Matt asked
“Well… he likes me, but I don’t know how I feel about him…” I said
“Oh, yeah I’ve been there, it sucks.” He said
I nodded.
“So how do you know Andy?” I asked
“I actually just met him yesterday.” He said
“Really?” I asked
Matt nodded.
“Wow, it seems like you guys have known each other for a while.” I said
He laughed.
“You think so?” He asked excitedly
“Yeah…” I said cautiously
“How long have you known him?” Matt asked
“I’ve known him forever, I mean we grew up in the same neighborhood and my parents were good friends with his parents…” I said
“Oh, that’s cool… do you know what kind of sexual orientation he’s into?” He asked
I stopped and gave him a wtf look.
“Um… why are you asking me this?” I asked
“I don’t know I’m sorry.” He said
“Do you like him or something?” I asked
“No, no I was just wondering, seriously.” Matt said
I continued to look at him, but then shrugged it off and we kept walking.
“I made this conversation a little awkward didn’t I?” Matt asked
“Just a little… I mean if you did like Andy it would be … okay I guess.” I said
“Are you sure?” He asked
“Yeah, I just didn’t know that you went for that team.” I said
“You’re not a homophobic or are you?” He asked
“Pssh, please I’m not like that.” I said
“Okay, cool!” he said
“Really though, I would have never thought you were gay.” I said
“Actually I’m bi, but I don’t really look into guys all that often.” He said
Just my best friend!
“Yup… so when did you realize you were … bi?” I asked
“I guess I always knew, when I was little I guess I was a little attracted to guys as I was to girls.” He said
I nodded.
“What about you?” He asked
“Nope, I’m straight; I love guys too much to turn to girls.” I said
He laughed.
“You sure about that?” He asked
“Very sure, pretty much positive.” I said
Matt chuckled again.
“Alright I believe you.” He said
“So how did you meet Andy exactly?” I asked
“I’m in a band called ‘Destroy Rebuild Until God Shows’.” He said
“That’s a pretty cool name.” I complemented
“Thanks. Our lead singer Craig came up with it.” He said
“Ah, okay… but I still didn’t hear about how you met.” I pressed
“Well we are going to be tour with Black Veil Brides, so we had to meet up.” He said
“Who?” I asked
He stopped.
“Black Veil Brides… you’ve never heard of them?” He asked shocked
I raised my eyebrow at him.
“No, never, who are they?” I asked
“You’ve got to be joking with me, you don’t know who they are?” He asked
I shook my head.
“Seriously you’re not kidding me?” He asked
I shook my head again.
“Oh wow… and you said you’ve known Andy forever.” Matt snickered
“Wait, what does this have to do with Andy?” I asked
“Duh, he’s the lead singer of the band.” He pointed out
It took me a minute to take all this in.
“Shut up!” I said
“Why I didn’t say anything.” Matt said a little offended
I smacked my forehead.
“It was just an expression you know.” I said
“Ohh… sorry.” He said
“It’s okay… could you please tell me more about them?” I asked
“Sure, from what I know though, I thought you knew more about them?” He said
“I just heard about them a minute ago.” I said
“Alright, true. Um well Jinxx plays guitar, CC is their Drummer, Jake is lead guitar, and Ashley is their bass player. Andy is the singer as I’ve already said.” He explained
I stood there, stunned again.
“How come they’ve never told you any of this?” Matt asked
“I don’t know.” I said
***
:: Andy’s p.o.v. ::
I rolled over and then suddenly woke up when I felt the bed sheets and not Mesly.
“Mesly?” I called out
No response.
Shoot!
I jumped out of bed and ran out of the room.
Jinxx’s eyes bugged out and then he covered his eyes with his hands.
“Dude, I understand that you’re comfortable around people and I understand that, but could you please have courtesy for my eyes?!” He exclaimed
I looked down and cursed.
Then I ran back into the room and pulled on some jeans.
Afterwards I ran down the stairs and when I didn’t find her I ran outside and called her name.
“Mesly!” I yelled
Where could she be?
I hope she doesn’t go home.
Just as I was about to call her name out she looked right at me with sadden eyes.
“Mesly… what’s wrong?” I asked
“How could you not tell me?” She said softly
“Mesly, I can explain.” I said
“No, I don’t want to hear any more of your excuses, just leave me alone I’m getting out of here!” She said
She then took off running.
“What have you done?!” I yelled at Matt
I took off running after her.
“Mesly please stop!” I yelled
“Why should I? So you could keep me like your little pet and lie to me?” She shouted back
“No Mesly please let me explain!” I said
“Why didn’t you tell me before, huh?” She asked
“I was afraid to.” I confessed
“What were you afraid of me only liking you because of your fame?” She yelled
“No, Mesly please just stop and let me explain!” I said
She stopped and turned and looked at me.
“Alright then explain.” She said
“I was afraid of you wanting you leave because that’s what you usually do.” I said
“Where else could I go Andy? I have nowhere to go to.” She said in a hoarse voice
“I know, and I’m really sorry about that-“ I said
“Is that why you want me there with you, because you feel sorry for me?” She asked
“No, Mesly you’re taking this completely wrong.” I said
“Why do you want me then Andy?” She asked
“You’re my best friend and I lov-“ I said
She pressed her lips to mine and I slowly pulled her closer to me.
When we broke away I looked at her, and she had begun to cry again.
“Mesly, why don’t you want me to tell you that I love you?” I asked
“I don’t want to hurt me…” She said
“I’m never going to hurt you, do you not see that? I’ve liked you ever since I’ve met you.” I said
“Why… what’s so special about me?” She asked
“You’re not like the other girls, your different in a good way, and whenever I see you I get this feeling that no one else can make me feel…” I said
“Andy stop please.” Mesly said
“Why can’t you just believe me?” I asked
“I can’t do this… I’m sorry.” She said
Tears threatened to spill over, but I held them in because I didn’t want her to see how much this hurt me.
“Alright… I understand… I’m sorry about all of this. Can we still be friends?” I asked
“Yes Andy, you’ll always be my best friend, and I love you, but not like that.” She said
I took in a deep breath and then nodded.
She came closer to me, but this time she didn’t kiss me, but pulled me into a hug.
“Now you’ve got a lot of explaining to do.” She said
I tried to crack a smile, but it just felt awkward.
She didn’t seem to notice, so I just put whatever happened to us aside.
“Well… Ash and I started this band a while back and do you remember those weekends when I was taking a ‘family vacation’?” I asked
She nodded.
“I was actually touring all around the US.” I said
“Wow, and you’ve already become huge, because your friend Matt is like totally obsessed with you guys.” She said
“Yeah Matt is just Matt.” I said
“What’s the deal with you two?” She asked
“Don’t get jelouse now, he’s just a friend.” I said
She huffed.
“Whatever.” Mesly said
I laughed and wrapped my arm around her.
“What do you say about getting us some Starbucks and we talk about it there?” Andy asked
“Starbucks sounds lovely.” She said
***
The next morning I woke up and I peek an eye open to see if Andy was there, and he was, but he was still sound asleep.
So I quiet moved away from him, put on some sweats that he left me and then I walked down the stairs.
I checked to see if anyone was awake, before I slipped out the door, but that was until I saw something or someone move from the corner of my eye.
Slowly I turned around and almost screamed, but whoever it was scrambled to put his hand over my mouth.
When he saw that I calmed down he breathed a sigh of relief and then took his hand off my mouth.
“Sorry I just didn’t want you to wake up everyone… do you mind if I take a walk with you?” He asked
“Um… sure…” I said
“Great, thanks.” He said
Okay, this isn’t what I expected, but okay.
We walked outside and closed the door behind us and then we moved across the lawn and around the corner of the block before any of us spoke up.
“So um what’s your name?” I asked
“Matt and yours?” He asked
“Mesly, it’s nice to meet you Matt.” I said
“Thanks, it’s nice meeting you too… so are you Andy’s girlfriend?” He asked
“Um, no not really, it’s kind of complicated.” I said
“How so… if you don’t mind me asking?” Matt asked
“Well… he likes me, but I don’t know how I feel about him…” I said
“Oh, yeah I’ve been there, it sucks.” He said
I nodded.
“So how do you know Andy?” I asked
“I actually just met him yesterday.” He said
“Really?” I asked
Matt nodded.
“Wow, it seems like you guys have known each other for a while.” I said
He laughed.
“You think so?” He asked excitedly
“Yeah…” I said cautiously
“How long have you known him?” Matt asked
“I’ve known him forever, I mean we grew up in the same neighborhood and my parents were good friends with his parents…” I said
“Oh, that’s cool… do you know what kind of sexual orientation he’s into?” He asked
I stopped and gave him a wtf look.
“Um… why are you asking me this?” I asked
“I don’t know I’m sorry.” He said
“Do you like him or something?” I asked
“No, no I was just wondering, seriously.” Matt said
I continued to look at him, but then shrugged it off and we kept walking.
“I made this conversation a little awkward didn’t I?” Matt asked
“Just a little… I mean if you did like Andy it would be … okay I guess.” I said
“Are you sure?” He asked
“Yeah, I just didn’t know that you went for that team.” I said
“You’re not a homophobic or are you?” He asked
“Pssh, please I’m not like that.” I said
“Okay, cool!” he said
“Really though, I would have never thought you were gay.” I said
“Actually I’m bi, but I don’t really look into guys all that often.” He said
Just my best friend!
“Yup… so when did you realize you were … bi?” I asked
“I guess I always knew, when I was little I guess I was a little attracted to guys as I was to girls.” He said
I nodded.
“What about you?” He asked
“Nope, I’m straight; I love guys too much to turn to girls.” I said
He laughed.
“You sure about that?” He asked
“Very sure, pretty much positive.” I said
Matt chuckled again.
“Alright I believe you.” He said
“So how did you meet Andy exactly?” I asked
“I’m in a band called ‘Destroy Rebuild Until God Shows’.” He said
“That’s a pretty cool name.” I complemented
“Thanks. Our lead singer Craig came up with it.” He said
“Ah, okay… but I still didn’t hear about how you met.” I pressed
“Well we are going to be tour with Black Veil Brides, so we had to meet up.” He said
“Who?” I asked
He stopped.
“Black Veil Brides… you’ve never heard of them?” He asked shocked
I raised my eyebrow at him.
“No, never, who are they?” I asked
“You’ve got to be joking with me, you don’t know who they are?” He asked
I shook my head.
“Seriously you’re not kidding me?” He asked
I shook my head again.
“Oh wow… and you said you’ve known Andy forever.” Matt snickered
“Wait, what does this have to do with Andy?” I asked
“Duh, he’s the lead singer of the band.” He pointed out
It took me a minute to take all this in.
“Shut up!” I said
“Why I didn’t say anything.” Matt said a little offended
I smacked my forehead.
“It was just an expression you know.” I said
“Ohh… sorry.” He said
“It’s okay… could you please tell me more about them?” I asked
“Sure, from what I know though, I thought you knew more about them?” He said
“I just heard about them a minute ago.” I said
“Alright, true. Um well Jinxx plays guitar, CC is their Drummer, Jake is lead guitar, and Ashley is their bass player. Andy is the singer as I’ve already said.” He explained
I stood there, stunned again.
“How come they’ve never told you any of this?” Matt asked
“I don’t know.” I said
***
:: Andy’s p.o.v. ::
I rolled over and then suddenly woke up when I felt the bed sheets and not Mesly.
“Mesly?” I called out
No response.
Shoot!
I jumped out of bed and ran out of the room.
Jinxx’s eyes bugged out and then he covered his eyes with his hands.
“Dude, I understand that you’re comfortable around people and I understand that, but could you please have courtesy for my eyes?!” He exclaimed
I looked down and cursed.
Then I ran back into the room and pulled on some jeans.
Afterwards I ran down the stairs and when I didn’t find her I ran outside and called her name.
“Mesly!” I yelled
Where could she be?
I hope she doesn’t go home.
Just as I was about to call her name out she looked right at me with sadden eyes.
“Mesly… what’s wrong?” I asked
“How could you not tell me?” She said softly
“Mesly, I can explain.” I said
“No, I don’t want to hear any more of your excuses, just leave me alone I’m getting out of here!” She said
She then took off running.
“What have you done?!” I yelled at Matt
I took off running after her.
“Mesly please stop!” I yelled
“Why should I? So you could keep me like your little pet and lie to me?” She shouted back
“No Mesly please let me explain!” I said
“Why didn’t you tell me before, huh?” She asked
“I was afraid to.” I confessed
“What were you afraid of me only liking you because of your fame?” She yelled
“No, Mesly please just stop and let me explain!” I said
She stopped and turned and looked at me.
“Alright then explain.” She said
“I was afraid of you wanting you leave because that’s what you usually do.” I said
“Where else could I go Andy? I have nowhere to go to.” She said in a hoarse voice
“I know, and I’m really sorry about that-“ I said
“Is that why you want me there with you, because you feel sorry for me?” She asked
“No, Mesly you’re taking this completely wrong.” I said
“Why do you want me then Andy?” She asked
“You’re my best friend and I lov-“ I said
She pressed her lips to mine and I slowly pulled her closer to me.
When we broke away I looked at her, and she had begun to cry again.
“Mesly, why don’t you want me to tell you that I love you?” I asked
“I don’t want to hurt me…” She said
“I’m never going to hurt you, do you not see that? I’ve liked you ever since I’ve met you.” I said
“Why… what’s so special about me?” She asked
“You’re not like the other girls, your different in a good way, and whenever I see you I get this feeling that no one else can make me feel…” I said
“Andy stop please.” Mesly said
“Why can’t you just believe me?” I asked
“I can’t do this… I’m sorry.” She said
Tears threatened to spill over, but I held them in because I didn’t want her to see how much this hurt me.
“Alright… I understand… I’m sorry about all of this. Can we still be friends?” I asked
“Yes Andy, you’ll always be my best friend, and I love you, but not like that.” She said
I took in a deep breath and then nodded.
She came closer to me, but this time she didn’t kiss me, but pulled me into a hug.
“Now you’ve got a lot of explaining to do.” She said
I tried to crack a smile, but it just felt awkward.
She didn’t seem to notice, so I just put whatever happened to us aside.
“Well… Ash and I started this band a while back and do you remember those weekends when I was taking a ‘family vacation’?” I asked
She nodded.
“I was actually touring all around the US.” I said
“Wow, and you’ve already become huge, because your friend Matt is like totally obsessed with you guys.” She said
“Yeah Matt is just Matt.” I said
“What’s the deal with you two?” She asked
“Don’t get jelouse now, he’s just a friend.” I said
She huffed.
“Whatever.” Mesly said
I laughed and wrapped my arm around her.
“What do you say about getting us some Starbucks and we talk about it there?” Andy asked
“Starbucks sounds lovely.” She said
***