Kickstart My Heart

TARA'S P.O.V

It's been about three months since I've been home and I don't know if I cant take it much longer I miss my daddy,my brother's I miss Nikki, I miss my home I just hope they understand i need to go home.
"Benji can I talk to you for a sec?" I asked her walking into her room, Zak being her brother he has let me stay with them while I've been with them and I've never been more grateful.
"Sure come on in" She said from her desk typing away on her computer
"I need to go home" I said walking over and sitting down on her bed
"Why is everything ok? how's Tommy, Dylan and Brandon are they ok?" She asked turning around in her chair and looking at me
"Yeah everything ok, I just miss everyone "I said looking at her
"Oh ok when do you want to go back? I'll go with you” She said
"Probably Tomorrow” I said looking at the floor
"Ok do you want me to go back with you?" She asked
"Yeah I'd love for you to go with me your my best friend Ben” I said hugging her
"K I'll start packing" She said walking over to her dresser
"I'll go pack and call my daddy" I said with a smile walking back into my room and started packing

"Your leaving?" I heard someone ask i turned around and saw Zak standing there in my doorway
"Aww Zaky thinks I'm leaving him" I said smiling at him
"But your packing" He said walking into the room
"YOUR LEAVING ME!!!"I heard someone scream i looked past Zak seeing Aaron standing in the doorway in his boxers he ran over and pulled me in the most akward hug ever
"Really Aaron!? you couldn't put cloths on first!" I said trying to get away from him
"WHY ARE YOU LEAVING ME HERE WITH THEM!!” He yelled
"HEY" Zak said in defense to himself
"AARON LEAVE!, i'll talk to you before i leave"I said pointing to the door he get go and walked out of the room with his head down
"So why are you leaving me" Zak said looking at me
"I'm just going home for awhile" I said putting cloths into my bag
"But how long are you leaving me" He said 'why dose him keep saying that me? he's acting like I'm going away forever.'
"Zak your acting like I'm going away forever" I said looking at him
"I just don't want to see you going" He said coming up behind me wrapping his arms around my waste and putting his head on my shoulder
"Zak what are you doing?"I asked
"Something i should done along time ago" He said kissing my neck as he moved his hands to the top of my pants
'Please tell me this is a dream Zak wouldn't be doing this right now he doesn't feel the way I feel about him'
"Zak stop" I said trying to fight back againt him and my feelings
"Tara i love you please just let me do this" He said moving one of his hand down my pants and started unbuttoning them and the other one back around my waste
"Zak please we cant do this right now"I said moving his hand from my pants
"I'm too young, Too young to fall in love, Much to young, Too young to fall in love, I'm to young, Too Young, Too fall in love" My phone sang I moved away from Zak and grab my phone
"I have to take this" I said answering my phone
"Hey Daddy" I said with a smile
"Hey baby girl, what you up to?" He asked
"Packing, what are you doing?" I asked
"Oh nothing just sitting around the house I just thought I would call my baby girl and see how your doing why are you packing? "He said
"I'm coming to see you Daddy, me and Benji "I said putting more cloths in my bag
"That's great baby girl!,when you coming?" He asked
"Tomorrow i should be there around four or five" I said looking at Zak
"Hey Tar talk to Nik for a sec ok?"
"K dad" I said waiting to heard Nikki's voice
"Tara Nikki Lee! what you up to girl?" He asked
"Nothing much Nik what's dad up to?” I asked heard my dad in the back ground yelling
"Trying to get your brother's to clean" He said
"Haha that’s funny, them two cleaning" I said laughing
"Yeah true"He said laughing himself
"I'm going to finish packing tell dad and the boys I love them and ill see them tomorrow” I said
"Ok love ya Tar” He said
“Love you to Nik" I said hanging up the phone and zipping up my bag
“Your leaving tomorrow"Zak said from behind me
“Yea” I said sitting my bag on the floor
“So……”Zak said putting his arms around me
“So……” I said turning around in his arms
“Before i walk out of this room and not see you for god knows how long I have something to ask you” He said looking down at me
“And what would that be?” I asked
“I want you to be absolutely completely honest with me ok?” He said
“I promise” I said putting one of my hands on my heart
“Do you have feelings for me? like at all?” He asked I didn’t know what to say I opened my mouth but nothing came out
“Please say something I feel really like a complete idiot right now cause your just looking at me” He said
“I.I…..”Was all I could get to come out i didnt know what to say
“It’s plain to see you don’t feel the same way I’ll just go now” He walking out my door
“Zak no…….”But it was to late he had already walking out the door ‘ what the fuck just happened ? Why did I just tell him I loved him? Now I fucked up just fucking perfect ’ I thought sitting down on my bed then I got a idea I picked up my phone went straight to Zak’s name in my contact now I just got to get up the nerves to text him
Me: “Zak I have to tell you something. “
- TaraTragedy
Sent - Tuesday 6:29 PM
I sat on my bed waiting for Zak to reply to me
Zak: “Okay go ahead.”
- ZakAttack!
Received - Tuesday 6:30 PM
Me: “I feel the same way.”
- TaraTragedy
Sent - Tuesday 6:32 PM
As soon as I sent that I heard running coming down the hall my room and someone beating on my door
Zak: “Tara open the door.”
- ZakAttack!
Received - Tuesday 6:34 PM
“Really Zak Just open the door” I said from my bed then the door open reviling Zak shirtless he just leaned against the doorway
"Are you just going to stand there or are you going to come in?" I asked he slowly walked into my room closing the room behind him and pulling out his phone
"Can I kiss u?"
- ZakAttack!
Received - Tuesday 6:36 PM
"Zak really I'm right here you don't have to text me and yes you can kiss me"I said getting up and walking over to him and wrapping my arms around his neck he quickly put his arms around me and leaned down and kiss me.