30 Letters In 30 Days.

Dear Trevor,
I know you miss me and i'm truly sorry that i cant always be there for you. I do try to stay home. I know you might not believe that and i hate that i cant make believe me. I wish i could give this to you. But i just cant grow balls to. But maybe someday i will. I love you. No matter what happens. I know you think of me as your best friend. I'm so happy that you think that way. I love being your big sister. I just hate how you see me as a fuck up and that i dont want to be home helping you and tyler out with Shwan and his drunken ways. I hope i can come home and make things better.

Dear Tyler,
Ok i know we always fight. It seems to never stop. But you're my little brother. I know i'm such a bitch to you and i say shit that hurts you. I dont know why i do thoses things. It kills me inside to know you care about me and i treat you like shit. Its not right and i wish can forgive me. I'll try my best to be a better sister and friend. I dont want to mess up a relationship like this. I love you.