Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead

'Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,'

It has been five months since Andy and i broke up.Since than i haven't talked to him or seen him.CC,Jake,Jinxx forgave me for hurting Andy but they don't want me near him at all.I was also told that Andy was dating his best friend Matt.

'Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!'

I felt so bad that i cheated on Andy.I still love him and hearing that he is with Matt hurts me so much.Andy is very happy that his now with Matt and It hurts that we are done for good.
I wish Andy would let me be his friend atleast.

'That should be me,Holdin' your hand,
That should be meMakin' you laugh,
That should be me,This is so sad,
That should be me,That should be me,
That should be me,Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,I can't go on,
Till you believe that,That should be me'

I wish Andy and i could get back together but that isn't going to happen now.Andy made it clear that he nevers wants me around him execpt for concerts.He doesn't even want me to be in the same room on the bus as him.But that isnt gonna happen.

'That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,'

Andy and i broke up because i cheated on him .I wish that i could take it all back . i want to have him wrapped up in my arms again.

'Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know
that should be me'

Right now We are on the bus headed to a hotel.We are touring with DRUGS and because of the lack of buses, Craig and Matt are on our tour bus.Andy is sitting arcoss from me and is wrapped up in Matt's arms.They are sitting there laughing and talking.Andy has the look in his eyes that he used to have for me.

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

I really wish that he would come back to me.Andy and i rarely talk now and only see each other on for concerts,rehearsals,and on tour.Even if we don't get back together i wish he would talk to me again.I really miss his voice,sparkling blue eye.I miss everything about him.
I hope he knows that i still love him.i hope he knows that should be me right there holding him and loving him.That should be me

'Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!! <3
Never should've let you go
That should be me!!<3'

I miss me and i want him mback so badly that it hurts.I guess i really should've never let him go.