My Wonderful Insanity

i stared at the blood stains on the floor, am i coursed, am i meant to have no one to love in my life, i feel like i won't even have a brother anymore.

i felt a strong pain in my chest making me fall to the ground, fuck, the thirst, it's to strong.
the thoughts of feeling someone's last pulse, last breath, watching them die slowly and painfully,
crept into my mind making me feel excited.
"hey snap out of it" i saw my brothers hand wave in front of my face, i grabbed it, holding his hand tight
"hey, diskay, stop it, that hurts" he said trying to pull his hand out of my grip
" let go" he shouted, i let go of his hand and got up
"sorry..." i mumbled
" it's just, the thirst, it's starting to control me... sorry" i whispered
" it's ok come lets go" he said leading me outside, sometimes i forget mickal's my twin, he seems so much older and wiser, maybe he is in a way years older than me.
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we got out side of the car, getting are things from the boot, we said good bye to the officer and made are way to the front door, it opened before we could even knock, a woman with ginger hair and bright green eyes stood there staring at us.
" you must be Diskay and mickal" she said letting us in
" you must be Allie" mickal spat at her
" hey no need to be rude" she said showing him his room, he slammed the door in her face
" what's up with him" she asked
" don't know" she turned the corner showing me my room
" thanks" i said closing the door, i sat my bags on the bed, why dose she already have spare rooms, it doesn't add up, i put my box on the side table, pulling out a razor, i need to i'v got to much to deal with and this little razor takes away all the pain i hide behind my smile i wear everyday, i dug the small blade into my arm, sliding it across, small blood drops started to form on my pale skin, i made a few more lines before hiding my razor back in the box.

i laid on the bed staring at the roof, i wonder if this place has an attic, i should go ask allie if it dose, i looked over at the window on the other side of the room, i got up and walked over looking out at the forest plastid next to the house, it looks like one of those forest from scary movies.
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i headed down the long hallway to the lounge, this place is awesome, we get to eat in the lounge, we never got to do that at the old house, then again i'm not living with mum anymore,
i sat down on the couch, mickey looked at me with anger, oh yeah he hates chicken.

" so what do you think of your room" allie asked
" oh... i love it" i happily said
" what about you mickal" she asked him, he glared at her
" it's... fine" he slowly spoke, i don't think he likes Allie.

so much commotion and no time to smooth it out, wow, what is with me today and not giving a crap, i looked out the window and saw someone looking at us, i waved and assumed they new Allie.

" who are you waving at" she asked looking concerned
" him" i pointed to the window, she looked and smiled, she got up and opened the front door letting them in.
" why hello there Scott" she said
" who are they" he asked
" they live with me now meet Diskay and Mickal" she said pointing at us both
" oh... hi" he spoke softly
" so what are you doing all the way out here" she asked him
" i got kicked out of my house so i'm walking to Chris's"
"oh, say hi from me ok" she said opening the door again to let him out, he nodded and walked out.