Smoking Cigarettes

Aiden P.O.V

I could feel his eyes on me. They kept staring at me and I didn’t like it. I wanted him to glare at me like he did before. I admit seeing a soft side to him is all right, but it just means that something is wrong. Whenever he’s glaring, scoffing, and insulting people it means everything is ok.

He has such a fucked up world.

I tried to swallow the lump that formed in my throat, but it just wouldn’t go down! Damn it. This is only making everything work. I’m pretty sure breathing during a time like this is very important. Actually I think breathing is important at any time but that is beside the point!

“I’m sorry.”

And there went the statue of liberty folks! A giant unicorn farted, its rainbow gas hitting the metal and causing it to crumble and turn to chocolate pudding, which ran into the ocean until the worlds water was nothing but chocolate pudding. To put it simply my dear readers, the world ended.

Sin just said I’m sorry.

Somebody pinch me, this can’t be happening!

I stared up at the alien, because it has to be an alien, before asking, “Who are you and where’s dickhead located?”

Sin rolled his eyes before growling, “Stop acting like an idiot Aiden and listen to me.”

“I am listening…I just don’t believe it.”

Sin’s grip around my wrists tightened. I whimpered and he immediately loosened it before leaning in. Our foreheads touched as our lips brushed. The two of us were breathing in each other’s air and it was starting to make me remember last night. My heart was speeding up and I wasn’t sure if it was because I was scared…or excited.

“I’m…sorry Aiden…for lying to you and…for being an idiot.”

He just called himself an idiot. This has to be a nightmare! Or maybe it’s one hell of a good dream? As long as he doesn’t turn into a giant T-Rex that decides to have Aiden for dinner then yes it is a good dream, but we must wait and see!

“I shouldn’t have lied and said that what we did before was a mistake, because it obviously wasn’t. I…like you, a lot Aiden.”

…

Shocked…that’s the only thing that ran through my head, how extremely shocked I was. Not only did Sin apologize, but also he said that us being a mistake was a lie and that he liked me! That is three things that Sin would not do. Yes this has to be one amazing dream or…he really is an alien?

I stared up at him, my eyes wide, as I stuttered, “W-What?”

I wanted to just pull him closer and kiss him already, but the other half of me wanted to kick him and punch him and make him feel as much pain as I did because of his little “lie.” I ignored what I wanted to do though so I could listen to him.

Although that was hard when a certain friend of mine was starting to stir. I mean I can only last so long with Sin being right there. I mean we’re pressed together like fucking lovers and god damn it I know what is in them pants and feeling it pressed against my thigh is a real turn on.

Stop thinking about it damn it! Ignore that. Concentrate on his lips!

Mm, what those lips can do…

Damn it Aiden, no! The words coming out of his lips, not what they can do you little pervert!

Oh right, right. Concentrate…

Sin sighed causing me to snap out of my strange thoughts to stare up at him. He looked a little worried maybe even scared, but I tried to ignore that. Thinking about Sin being scared made my skin crawl.

“I just…don’t like getting attached to anyone,” he slightly explained before pushing himself to sit up. I kind of missed the warmth but this was no time to act like a horny teenage boy although that’s exactly what I am. So I ignored that feeling to I could sit up straight and listen to what he had to say.

I admit I was curious, really curious. So listening would definitely benefit me.

I watched as Sin ran his fingers through his hair. His eyes stayed trained on the floor as he spoke, “I…I have an older sister or should I say…I had an older sister name Lalla. She was…she was the greatest.”

I felt my heart twist in ways I didn’t know possible when I saw the sad smile on his face. It screamed, ‘help me’, but I knew it’d kill Sin’s pride if I tried to be sympathetic. Stupid bastard.

“She was always there for me. She was always laughing, smiling, joking…she was happy, the exact opposite of me. Even when I was young I was a complete dick.”

Go figure…

“She was my sister and I loved her more than anything. I made sure to tell her that at least once a day, normally more. I told her everything. I let her know every little thing about me. I cried in front of her, let her hold me I let her in and…it was the worst mistake I ever made.”

I moved a little closer, so that my knee brushed his side. His hair was hiding his eyes from me, but I could almost hear from his voice that he was tearing up. Of course he wouldn’t actually cry, Sin wouldn’t do that no matter what and I knew that, but I could tell he was pushing the tears back.

“She…I never knew about her. I always told her about me and never listened to what she had to say. I didn’t know what she was doing. I didn’t know that she was doing drugs, drinking, selling herself on the streets for money. I knew the good, sweet her, the one that you wouldn’t think would do anything wrong, but how wrong I was.”

“She was a complete fake. On the outside she was sweet and happy, but on the inside she was rotting away. One day our parents found out. They were so mad, screaming at her and asking why she was doing it. I was only 11 at the time…and it all just hit me…”

His shoulders tensed up. He began to shiver and I decided screw his problem with touching. I leaned over and hugged him, to show that I was still here and listening, that I cared.

“She glared at me that day, like I was nothing but scum on the bottom of her shoes. She spit it out, she told me that she didn’t care about me. She said that I complained too much and that I was the biggest annoyance, the biggest baby she had ever met. I should have noticed how she would rarely answer me or how she'd roll her eyes when I started to cry. I always thought it was just because we were brother and sister...but I guess she never really did care. She just pretended to."

“I never got to speak to her again. She left me with a glare and a few harsh words…I guess you could say that…I was scared you’d abandon me too. Everyone always does.”