I'd Run Away

It’s been over a week since I watched the sunrise with Alex for the first time. We’ve watched it together almost every morning since which is such an amazing way to start out the day.

School for me starts in two weeks and for Becca, it starts in three. A few days ago, we all drove Spencer up to Maine because his classes start this week. We helped him get settled and now, we’re driving through New York so the boys can drop us off.

Our apartment is completely furnished already thanks to my lovely mother who had some people set everything up how we want it. It’s gotten to this point where everything is becoming dream-like and none of it’s really happening.

We’re all sprawled out in the van All Time Low used to use for touring while another van behind us hold all of our luggage.

Becca and I couldn’t fit all of our belongings in the amount of boxes a moving truck could carry, so we had to pull out the suitcases and storage bins.

The worst part is, though, we didn’t even pack everything from our houses.

As much as I wanted to get settled in New York City and really start living my life, I didn’t want to leave Alex.

It’s going to be so hard not waking up next to him in the mornings and falling asleep to him at night. It hasn’t even happened yet and I already miss him.

I don’t know how couples do it.

I must have fallen asleep because next thing I knew, I was being shaken awake by Alex who had a strange expression on his face. Or, it was strange for Alex because he’s always so happy.

“We’re here, baby.” He said, smiling only slightly. I just nodded and unbuckled, holding out my arms and gesturing for him to carry me.

At this, Alex laughed which made me happy as well. He moved so my arms wrapped around his neck and his hands slid to my back and under my knees. I could hear him groan a little bit as he lifted me, making me hit him lightly on the back of the head. Alex just smiled at me and moved to kiss my lips lightly.

He walked into the building and to the elevator. We sat in silence in the elevator and didn’t talk at all to the door of the apartment.

Before he opened the door, though, I had him put me down. As soon as my feet touched the ground, I had my arms around his neck and my lips against his.

He pulled me as close as possible and kissed me with more emotion than ever before. Alex had his hands on my waist and my back against a wall. I could feel a tear fall from my eye as I thought about leaving this boy in a few days.

When we were both absolutely out of breath, we pulled away but stayed holding each other. I giggled slightly at Alex’s slightly swollen lips and knew mine must have matched. Once more, I leaned up to place a short kiss on his lips.

“I love you, Jasmine.” Alex said, kissing my forehead lightly and then resting his against it. I smiled at him and replied, “I love you too, Lexy. But we should probably go inside.”

The older boy groaned playfully before opening the unlocked door. He held my hand as we walked inside, making me smile.

Ugh, I love him so much.

The apartment looked way better than I was expecting, and that was saying something because I had really high standards. The walls were decorated with pictures and paintings, the hardwood floors were covered with rugs, and the furniture was exactly in the right place.

It was amazing.

Becca ran up to me when she heard the door close and wrapped her arms around me. She was screaming something, but there was absolutely no chance of me understanding her. I only caught on to her excitement when she began jumping up and down.

I couldn’t help but laugh at the girl I call my best friend as she nearly cried from excitement in our new apartment. She constantly hugged Alex and I along with Jack and the other guys. It was cute how excited she was.

As she was still jumping around, I made my way out of the main room and into my bedroom. I smiled when I walked in and noticed I had a balcony. The walls were a beautiful sea foam green color and they were decorated with pictures in frames. I walked around and looked at the pictures, seeing a ton of Alex and I. There were also some of our entire group and Becca and I. The ones that really got me were the pictures of my dad and I.

There weren’t that many of them, but just enough to bring back memories. In a few, we were at our park, playing on the swings or in the grass. In others, we were in our house and we were baking or just messing around.

I continued staring at the pictures until I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and a chin rest on my shoulder. Lips were touching my cheek and I couldn’t help but let the tears that were forming in my eyes escape.

Alex turned me around and pulled me into a tight hug, allowing me to cry on his chest. He lightly rubbed my back as I sobbed and kept whispering little words into my ear.

“I miss him, Alex.” I managed to mumble as my tears slowed down.

“I know you do, baby. I also know that he would be so proud of you and that he watches over you.” Alex’s words made the tears fall faster, which he must have expected. “You know what else I know? He wouldn’t want you crying like this.”

His hands moved up to my face and he wiped the tears as they fell. Alex cupped my cheeks in his hands as he leaned down to lightly kiss my lips. When he pulled away, he kissed my forehead and then rested his upon it.

“You’re too beautiful to cry, baby. And it hurts me to see you hurting.”

I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck and just held him as we stood in the center of my room. Our moment was interrupted, however, when Becca barged into the room. She stood at the door for a few seconds before turning and running right back out of the room.

I couldn’t help but laugh as she left, which made Alex laugh as well.

Becca walked back into the room a few minutes later, with Jack following behind her.

“The guys have to get going, but Jack and Alex are staying for a few days. And the guys are refusing to leave until you go say goodbye, so…” Becca said, trailing off at the end. I quickly ran out of the room and into the living room, where all the boys were located.

I hugged each of my boys goodbye and wouldn’t let them leave until they promised to come visit soon. Ben kissed my forehead and promised that he would be stopping by soon enough with Spencer riding shotgun for a holiday visit. Zack and Rian wouldn’t let go and practically had to be forced out of the apartment by Jack and Alex, but they kept saying how they would visit every month. Soon enough, it was just Alex, Becca, Jack, and I left in the apartment.