Baby I'll Be Your Frankenstine

Gerard's POV

“Gee, are you okay?” Frank asks me, looking at me worriedly. We were watching The Texas Chainsaw Massacre in the living room, well…they are, anyway. I’m shivering nonstop and I can’t concentrate in the movie. I need a drink.

“I-I… yeah. I’m alright.” I answer, lying quickly. “I just don’t really like this movie, I think I’m going to my room.” I head to the kitchen and start looking on the cupboards for any liquor. I’m sure there used to be some here.

“Where is it?” I whisper desperately. I hear Cloudy and Lidi come in.

“What are you looking for, Gee?” asks Lidi. I ignore her question but then I remember my room had been cleaned out. I turn around glaring at my sisters. Lidia takes a step back, but Claudia remains completely unfazed.

“What did you do with them!?!” I ask Lidia, nearly screaming. “Where did you put it?”

“Fuck off, Gerard!” She yells back at me, not answering my question. “What the hell are you talking about?”

I turn my glare to Claudia.

“You both know damn well what I’m talking about!” I yell.

“I don’t want you to die, Gerard.” She says in a calm voice, which scares the shit out of me, and completely out of the blue. I didn’t expect her voice to be so calm by the death glare she’s giving me. If looks could kill, I’d be dead a thousand times over right now.

My whole body is shaking, and I feel like I’m about to puke. I’m not sure if it’s some sort of withdrawal symptoms of the rage I’m feeling. Maybe it’s both.

“Go to hell. I’m out of here.” I scream.

I start walking out of the kitchen but my knees give in and I fall, hitting my head on the floor. Claudia and Lidia rush over to help me up, but I shove them away, getting to my feet shakily. I stumble across the hall, and I can hear them right behind me. As I reach the entrance door I feel Claudia’s arms on my back stopping me and Lidia steps in front of the door.

“Where are you going?” Lidia asks, crossing her arms across her chest.

“None of your business, Lidia.” I answer coldly.

“We’re not letting you go. I know what you’re gonna do, you’re gonna buy some shit liquor and get wasted.” Claudia says turning me around.

I fall to my knees and start crying. “I c-can’t take i-it, Cl-Cloudy!” I sob. “I’m s-sorry...” I don’t know where all the anger came from, or where it went. I don’t know why the hell I am crying. “I sh-shouldn’t yell at you. Y-you’ve-“

“Shhhh, Gee. Calm down.”Claudia cuts me off softly.

Lidi and Cloudy pull me up and take me to my room, where I crash in the bed. Lidia rubs my back as Claudia goes upstairs for something. She comes back with a damp cloth and starts wiping away the sweat in my forehead. Frank comes in right behind her, looking extremely worried. He sits next to me on the bed.

I feel like I’m about to throw up, even though I haven’t eaten in a while. And I have a headache the size of Jupiter. And strangely enough, there are stars floating around the room.

“Sleep, Gerard.” Frank tells me softly, stroking my hair. “It’ll be okay.”

I nod and close my eyes, slowly drifting into sleep.

I wake up suddenly. I notice Frank’s sleeping form right next to me. I feel suddenly anxious. I try not to wake Frank up as I stand up and looking for my Xanax. I just want to relax. I hope they didn’t take that away too. I find it under a whole bunch of drawings in my desk. I smile as I take 2 pills and swallow them.

“Gerard?” Comes Frank’s worried voice from my bed. I walk back and lay down next to him.

“Hey Frankiiieeee!” I whisper, feeling drowsier by the minute.

“Gerard…” I hear him say sadly as he hugs me, and I drift away into a dreamless sleep.