Twisted Life

One month later

It’s been about a month since I’ve been with the boys and Paul. I’d love to say I talk to them all the time and we’ve become inseparable, but that’s not the case. Sure, I still talk to them, but with the different time zones it’s pretty hard. Harry kept his promise about calling me before and after every show for the rest of the US Tour, but now that they’re back in the UK I can’t call or text him because my phone bill would be through the roof.
Harry and I try to Skype as much as possible now, which isn’t very often. With the time zones and his crazy work schedule and my boss giving me eight billion hours a week; it’s hard to make time, but we always try to at least once a week. He’s supposed to Skype sometime tonight, so I’m just waiting up for him.

From: Kristyn
Hey slut, what are you doing?
To: Kristyn
Waiting for Harry to get online to Skype, you?
From Kristyn
Oh ahah, I was just talking to Niall and Harry a little bit ago actually :3 Niall says hi by the way!

A ping of jealousy shot through me. Kristyn still has her blackberry, so she can BBM the boys for free whenever.

To Kristyn:
Tell him I say hi back! How are things with Niall by the way? ;)
From: Kristyn
Oh my God will you give it up! Lol, there is NOTHING going on between us. He’s just like a brother, you know that. And besides, I’m talking to Shane again anyways
To: Kristyn
Yeah yeah, whatever you say lol

I looked up at the computer to see that Harry had just signed into Skype. I couldn’t help but smile at seeing his name appear.

To: Kristyn
Got to go! Skype time!

A few seconds after he signed in, Harry sent me an invitation to a video call which I eagerly accepted. I impatiently waited for the connection to load. After what seemed like hours, Harry’s face finally appeared on my screen. I smiled at him.
“Hey!” I started.
“Hey, sorry I didn’t mean to keep you waiting, but traffic was horrible”
“It’s all good. How was work?”
“Long. We had to stop and sign autographs today before entering the studio. There had to have been like two hundred people waiting outside and even more when we went to leave.” I laughed at him.

“Oh so the usual?” I asked.
“Pretty much. Oh that and I got a box full of condoms thrown at the side of my head as we were going into the studio.” I burst out laughing.
“Oh my God, what did you do?”
“I picked it up and put it in my bag obviously! I told the fans I would need these for later,” I pang of jealously shot through me. I didn’t know if he was being serious or not, so I just laughed.
“So how was sandwich – making tonight?” I groaned, thinking about my horrible job at Subway. Don’t get me wrong it’s not a bad job, but we have some of the rudest customers.
“Well considering it was ‘be a bitch to your Subway worker day’ it went great!” I stated sarcastically. He just laughed at me.
“You need a new job love,” I sighed. I did, but jobs don’t come easy.
“I know, but it won’t be for too much longer since I leave for school in September I’ll have to quit,”
“Oh yeah! Are you excited yet?”
“Oh excited, I need to leave this town,”
“Well you get to leave in a month and a half when you come see us!” Harry exclaimed.

I smiled at the thought. Kristyn and I would be flying out to London to see Paul and the boys seeing as how then they have some time off then before they start another tour.
“Yay I’m excited! Even if it is only for a week!” I said, disappointed. Our spring break is two weeks, but I already made plans back in October to go skiing at the resort I go to every year; the trip was already paid for, so I couldn’t back out now.
“I still think you should cancel the skiing trip. You can go skiing anytime!” Harry said, I couldn’t help but noticed the disappointed tone to his voice.
“You know I can’t I only go once a year, you know that,” I said, my tone matching his own disappointed one.
“Yeah, yeah I know. I was just teasing. I’m really excited to see you though!”

“I know, agh! I’m excited. Only like a month and a half more!” I smiled brightly at him. We haven’t really talked much about what was said the last night in the club, so I don’t really know what to define our relationship as. There is definitely something between us; I just don’t know what to do about it. I just really like him, but it’s hard just really hard, with him living half way around the world and touring and ugh. So much to think about. I know I shouldn’t be overthinking everything, I mean come on; Harry Styles is interested in ME of all people.

“Hey love, you okay there? You look out of it?” Harry asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.
“Yeah, just thinking about stuff,”
“Anything interesting?”
“No not really,” Harry yawned at me in response.
“Sorry, am I keeping you up?” I joked.
“No! I’m just really tired, works been crazy lately,”
“Oh sorry, you don’t have to stay up and talk to me. Go get some rest!” I insisted.
“But I’d rather talk to you” My heart melted.
“Okay,” I smiled brightly at him.

We stayed up to talk for a little over a hour until Harry was all but sleeping in front of the computer.
“Okay, it’s time for you to go to bed before you fall asleep on me,” I joked.
“Okay I guess. You really need to get a blackberry so we can BBM for free all the time,” I rolled my eyes at him.
“Sorry, my budget doesn’t allow for two phone bills,” I joked at him.
“You know I would buy you one, especially if it meant I could talk to you more often,” I glared at him. We’ve had this discussion before; he’s not going to waste his hard-earned money on things for me. He noticed me glaring and put his hands up in defence.
“Hey, I was only suggesting,”
“I know,” I smiled at him, “Good night Harry.”
“Goodnight love. I miss you.”
“I miss you to,” I said sadly. We stared at each other for a few moments before I ended the call.

God, I just want to see him again.
A month and a Half later – on route to skiing trip
We were about two hours into our four hour drive to the resort already. I tried to sleep but I just couldn’t get comfortable. I sighed and grabbed my phone and went to twitter to look at my mentions. The first tweet I seen was

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@CrissieNichols WTF?! Say it ain’t so :( I thought you were with Harry?! Cybergossip.1D.net/harrystylesnewlove

I didn’t bother to open the link. The boys can’t even look at a girl without people assuming that they’re hooking up anymore.
I continued down my mentions, only to see more links referring to Harry’s new ‘love interest’. Harry and I are not official, or even technically seeing each other, but that doesn’t stop the fans from assuming something is going on between us.
The tweets continued on, most mentioning some Kathy woman, who apparently people think I am way better than. I finally gave in and opened one of the links someone sent me.

“Harry Styles is at it again; Watch out cougars!”
It has recently been confirmed that Harry Styles has had a secret affair with a married 32 year old Kathy Jones. Kathy Jones spoke to the press about the matter, claiming that “It went on for about three months, but I recently ended things to try and improve things with my husband.” Jones husband Kevin was aware about the affair while it was going on but made no move to stop it.
This would be the second woman the young pop star has had a fling with so far. When questioned about the matter, Styles had no comment.

My heart sunk. I continued on to read about the alleged affair in several different websites; there was even a link to the video where this Kathy woman talks to the press about it. The more I read about the situation the shittier I felt. I know that Harry and I weren’t in a relationship, so he should be allowed to go out and be with other woman, but it still fucking hurts. I felt tears come to my eyes as I closed out of the webpage. I closed my eyes, trying to prevent the tears from spilling over.
I will not cry over this; not now when I’m on vacation and am supposed to be having a good time. I closed my eyes and tried to clear all thoughts of Harry Styles out of my head.

“WE’RE HERE BITCHES!” I heard my friend Kayla scream. I must have fallen asleep at some point.
“AHHHH!” I screamed and jumped out of the car. We quickly registered for our rooms and slowly started to drag our belongings upstairs. We were on the third floor as always, but there is no nice easy elevator for us to take up so we have to walk up about twenty billion stairs.
It took us about half an hour to get all of our stuff unpacked. I was sharing a room with my three good friends Kayla, Kylie and Cass. As soon as we were done unpacking we went out to the hills. No one else was there yet, so we just skied around for a bit.

As much as I love skiing I couldn’t help but think of Harry and this Kathy girl. I know I said I wasn’t going to think about it, but I couldn’t help it. The more I thought about, the more pissed off I became. Fuck Harry Styles. I don’t need a man in my life that sleeps around with thirty year old MARRIED woman.
I managed to keep my focus off Harry for the rest of the day and just had fun catching up with old friends.

We went back to the room around supper time and quickly ate some snack food, excited to go to the hot tub for the night. After all of this Harry bullshit, I just wanted to hang out with my girls, go be hit on by some random guys, and get white girl wasty-pants.
“Girls it’s shot time!” Cass called out, holding a bottle of whiskey in one hand, and the four shot glasses in the other. I smirked and grabbed my shot.
“Cheers to the best week we’ll never remember!” Kayla cheered. We all downed the shots.
After about for more shots we decided it was time to head down to the hot tub. We filled are cooler with alcohol and stumbled down the stairs, laughing the whole way.
We arrived at the hot tub to see it already quite full. I looked to see who was already there, immediately noticing my friend Noah.

“NOAH! I screamed and tried to run to the hot tub. I managed to get across to the hot tub without tripping and falling, which is a miracle all on its own.
“CRISSIE!” Noah screamed back at me. He was already quite intoxicated as well I noticed. I jumped in and gave him a hug.
“I missed you,” I mumbled into his chest.
“I missed you too! Drink?” He asked, holding out another beer.
“Thank you!” I slurred at him. I looked around and noticed that there were not empty seats. I shrugged and sat in Noah’s lap; his arm went instantly around loosely my waist, holding me down.
After a few more beers I turned my body around so that I was facing Noah.

“Why couldn’t I have fallen for a guy like you Noah? You don’t sleep with old married woman,” I slurred to him. He laughed at me.
“I think you’ve had one to many to drink there,” He stated.
“No! I want more!” I demanded, and tried reaching over his shoulder to grab another beer, but he held me back.
“Nope, no more for you,” I pouted at him. He smiled and pulled me in for a hug, which I immediately returned.
“Crissie, you are wasted,” Cass called out to me, laughed. I ignored him and snuggled closer to Noah.

I looked over when I heard the gate open, meaning someone had just come to the pool / hot tub area. It was really dark, and I couldn’t really see straight but I did notice it was a group of guys. They looked familiar but I couldn’t place who they were. I noticed a girl with them and she started to run up to the hot tub. As she got closer I realised that it was Kristyn!
“What the fuck dude, what are you doing here?” I slurred at Kristyn. She looked pointedly at Noah. I just rolled my eyes at her.
“You really thought the boys and I were gonna let you go on vacation without us for a week?” She asked, laughing.
“I don’t know. Can’t we talk about this in the morning? I’m sleepy.” I mumbled and rested my head on Noah’s shoulder.

“Aww, Is Crissie a little drunk?” Kristyn laughed at me. That’s when it dawned on me. Wait… her… and the boys are here, and that means…
“Crissie! Long-time no see!” Niall yelled at me. I was suddenly wide awake again. I looked up to notice all five boys standing just behind Kristyn. My eyes automatically went to a very confused looking Harry, the guy I’ve spent all day trying to not think about. And now he’s here; and we’re going to spend the next two weeks together.
Fuck my life.