Our End Never Got to Be Happy

i sat in my families house by the lake starring at the carpet as my father scolded me ."Ronald , as the hire to this estate what you have done is extremely irresponsible .. no .. unacceptable ! you have to marry a woman , a female who can bare your children to take over after you , being with another man is not only NOT an option it is discussing , wrong , and a act against god ." he yelled . i just ignored him and stared into the fire place . my mother garbed my fathers arm and tried to make him calm down " HELENA I WILL NOT CALM DOWN !! THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE AND MUST BE DELT WITH IMMEDIATELY !!! come with me to my study and we may talk of this " they left the rom leaving me alone to wallow in my self misery . why is it so wrong for me to love another man ? Who is this man you ask ? His name is Jacky . He isnt rich , his family is actually very poor . his father died when he was young so him and his mother have to take care of his four younger siblings . I love him with all my heart . I think his shyness is adorable , i love his eyes , his hair , Everything . But my father is to thick headed to think about it or try to understand . After about fifteen or twenty minutes my mother ran in the room tears streaming down her face . "mother is everything ok ?" i asked and hugged her genteelly "no ronald , your father .. he's gone mad ...im so sorry .." she sobbed
"whats wrong ? what did he do ??"
".. tha-at young man you like so-o much .. your fa-athers going to kill him ... " i felt my heart shatter inside of my chest . I relased my mother and ran down the hall and threw open the front door of the estate . Jacky lives on the other side of the city .. i'll never get there in time if i run . i thought for a second before grabing the reins of a horse in front of a stable , not even bothering to see who it belonged to . When i reached jacky's home ,i jumped of the horse nearly falling . The small house was up in flames and there were three childrens standing a few feet away from me . sobbing , screaming , and the smell of smoke was all that filled the peaceful night air . i crouched by the eldest child i know as Lillian "Lillian , what happened !?! where jacky and anna ?" Anna being jacky's mother . the twelve year old girl through her arms around me and sobbed into my chest
" we-e all got out bu-ut mother ha-ad forgotte-en the ba-by and she ra-an back insi-ide to get him . she didnt come out afte-er awhile so jacky ran inside to fi-ind her . The ro-of collapsed , Ronnie ." Jacky's family were the only ones who called me ronnie . I felt tears silently roll down my checks as i stroked the crieing chills hair . the smoke in the air continued to get thicker so i grabbed the children and left , ignoring their protests . i left them in the care of an elderly woman across the street from me . wasting no more time i stormed through the estate throwing open door and yelling for my father "WHERE ARE YOU !! YOU COWARD !! YOU KILLED JACKY AND NOW YOU DONT HAVE THE GUTS TO FACE ME !!! WHERE ARE YOU !!!!!" with the last part i fliped over a hall table sending the glass vase shattering in all directions . i can only imagine how i look . red with anger , tear stained face , soot on my clothes ... i reached the second level of the house and went directly for my fathers study . i through open the door so hard and fast i heard it break . he just watched me from his desk . a slight smile resting on his lips "WHY !?! what did jacky ever do to you !!!!"
"oh .. nothing , nothing at all . But it was the only way to insure you wouldnt stay with him .. cant be with him if he's . well .. dead ." a loud growling noise escaped m y lips as i lunged at my father , pinning him to the ground by his throat "LISTEN TO ME OLD MAN !! I LOVED JACKY !! LOVED HIM !! WITH EVERYTHING IN ME !! I BET YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE !! TO LOVE SOMEONE SO MUCH YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT THEM !!! WELL I DO !! JACKY WAS MY HEART !!! MY SOUL!! EVERYTHING TO ME !!! AND YOU KILLED HIM !! YOU BASTARD !!!! " i slammed his head into the hard wood floor . he stared at me with an expression that can only be described as , fear. "DID YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT THE INNOCENT WOMAN , THE CHILDREN !!?!?! THE BABY !! THAT LIVES IN THAT HOUSE !! THE WOMAN AND INFINT YOU KILLED !!! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED FATHER !! IS IT !?!?! BECAUSE CONGRATULATIONS !! NOT ONLY ARE THOSE THREE REMAINING CHILDREN FATHERLESS BUT YOU TOOK THEIR MOTHER AND BROTHERS FROM THEM AS WELL !!! " i picked him up by his shirt and dragged him to the top of the stairs
"Ro-onald .. w-what are you going to d-do . i did it for your own good son , you'll thank me one day !" he tried to convince me . i laughed and glared at him "Have fun in hell " was the last thing i said before tossing him down the stairs and burning the estate to the ground . I smiled and left the area of the estate . little did i know this would be my last night as a human . i sat deep in the forest and kicked and punched a tree repeatedly , through my tears "Aww . poor baby . did daddy kill your boyfriend ??" a voice mocked . i spun around in circles trieing to find who the voice had came from "Dont be so sad ronnie . you'll see jacky again ... but in the mean time .. do you want the pain to go away ??"
"what do you mean ?"
"the pain , the heart break , the lose .. do you want it to fade away , like it was nothing ??.. do you want to forget that people are even necessary ? i saw what you did ronald ... your a killer , a cold blooded killer .. i like that . join me ?"
"..a-and the pain will stop ??" i asked
"of coarse .. like it never even happened , so .. what do you say ??"
"alright .." before i knew what was happening something sharp was implanted in my skin and i felt my blood being forced out of the wound . i tried to pull away but i was being held in place , next thing i knew .. the human world faded to black for me .. forever