Hating You for Loving Me
I Never Wanted To Say This.
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*Spencer’s POV*
How could she even think of doing this to me?
Of all people, and a three year relationship.
I rushed into my house past my parent’s questions and into my room where I locked my door and played music loudly.
I pulled out a pen and I ripped a piece of paper from my notebook.
I started to write furiously until my hand got weak and I threw the pen across the room.
I can’t handle this life anymore, I gave everything to her, she was my everything and now I have nothing.
I was just a rebound until she met up with her precious Pete again.
I shuffled through my drawers until I found what I was looking for.
The metal felt so good sliding across my wrists but it would never complete the pain I felt.
I dropped the blood on the paper forming ‘I love you’ in the best way I could.
I put the metal to my wrists again drawing more blood.
I got up and spread my own blood on the walls forming ‘I loved her’ so that everyone knew.
I threw the piece of metal across the room as I did the pen.
I searched through my drawers once again looking for my anti-depressants.
I didn’t have to use these when JJ was around.
I never wanted to use them because I never had to.
But now, these are all I have left.
I took the top off and probably downed half of the bottle.
I grabbed the piece of paper off of my desk and crumpled it in my hands.
I took one last breath, and I fell asleep, forever.
*JJ’s POV*
I woke up to my phone ringing.
I didn’t care who it was, so I just answered it.
“Hello?” I asked as I yawned.
“JJ, could you please come to Spencer’s house this is his mom.” I heard Spencer’s mom say from the other line crying.
“Um, yea. What happened?” I asked as I bolted up waking Pete.
“It will be easier to explain things if you were just here JJ.” She said as she was sobbing.
“Alright I’ll be right over.” I said as I threw off my blankets and went straight to my closet.
“What’s up?” Pete said as he rubbed his eyes.
“Something happened to Spencer, I’ll be back.” I said as I rushed out of my room.
*Patrick’s POV*
I hate being fat, whether you know it or not its not easy being, fat.
Well, yea if you’re a couch potato but I’m not and I’m fat.
Stupid brownies.
I can’t even go on a diet, Mel won’t let me.
There is only one thing I can do but Mel won’t approve of it.
Unless she doesn’t know.
Great an evil plan being hidden from my girlfriend.
How fantastic.
*Pete’s POV*
I didn’t want to hear what happened to Spencer, just yet.
Because, I knew it would be my fault.
I couldn’t go back to sleep though, how would JJ take it whatever happened to him?
She would blame me, for everything.
I don’t blame her though; it was my fault in the first place whatever happened to Spencer.
God I just hope she doesn’t hate me.
I can never go through that again.