Take a Breath

I was laying on my bed minding my own business when all of a sudden someone plopped down next to me. When I looked over and seen that it was Harry. I glared at him

"What do you want?" I asked a little harsher than I intended to sound

"Bella" Was all he responded with

"What?" I asked now growing annoyed with him

"I need a favor" He said rolling over on side to face me

"Whatever it is no"

"You don't even know what I was going to ask" Harry whined wrapping his arm around me

"So it has something to do with Kate" I said struggling to get out of his hold

"No it doesn't" He agrued

"Harry yes it does I know you better than that"

"Alright fine, I want you two to become friends and get to know each other more"

"No!"

"To bad she's already on her way" Harry giggled

"So" I said getting out of his arms

"Pleeease Bella I wont leave you alone until you say yes"

"Its not that hard to ignore you Styles" I chuckled pushing him away from me

"Are you sure about that?" He asked raising an eyebrow

"God damn it fine only this one time!" I huffed giving into him

Harry jumped up from my bed with a smile and hugged me. What a dork. As soon as he let go of me the door bell rang. I shoved him out of the way and ran downstairs knowing that it was Kate at the door.

"Lads little miss priss is here!" I shouted when I let Kate inside

"Shut up Bella " Harry said jogging downstairs towards Kate

He grabbed her by her waist and pulled her in for a kiss which made me want to gag.

"Make me" I sassed

"Bella stop it now" Liam scolded me as he walked into the dining room

"Wow suddenly I'm the bad person here .. awesome" I said sarcastically rolling my eyes.

"Kate these are my mates Liam, and Niall, you already know Louis and Bella and lads this is Kate" Harry said when we were all gathered in the kitchen

"Its nice to meet you all," Kate smiled

"Same, its a pleasure" Niall said a little to kindly

Um is this really happening right now? All these idiots are really drooling over this girl.

"Liam is it okay if I invite Leslie over?" I asked

"She's already on her way," Liam mumbled not really paying attention to what I said

All four of them had their attention on her, watching her every move and it was starting to piss me off especially cause Liam already has a girlfriend who also happens to be a very close friend of mine.

"Liam James Payne " I hissed

Liam's head quickly shot in my direction. He looked at me with a confused look and I glared at him in return.

"What?" Liam mouthed

I glared at him again. She's not all that pretty. Just because she has blonde hair and blue eyes doesn't mean anything. I have brunette hair and hazel eyes and I'm just as pretty. Hold on since when do I care if I look good or not? I'm not one to care but I don't like that she has my boys attention.

When Leslie finally got to the house I was so relieved. I mean I would still have to deal with Kate but I wouldn't have to deal with her alone. Once she said her hellos to Ashton the three of us headed up to my room to do girl stuff.

"This isn't fair" I whispered to Leslie as we walked up the steps

"Of course it not its Harry what did you expect?" Leslie whispered back giggling

I scoffed she couldn't be more right. Harry is always up to something that isn't suitable for everyone else. Kate sat on my bed, I sat in my desk chair and Leslie sat on a pillow on the floor. The three of us sat there quietly. I didn't know Kate that well. I knew of her but I've never talked to her. She's the popular girl at school the one all the guys want but now can't have because Harry has her.

"Honestly I don't want to be here" Kate said breaking the silence

"I don't want you here either" I mumbled switching from sitting cross legged to laying on my stomach

"I much rather be with Harry" Kate whined pulling at her skirt

"Then go be with Him we're not stopping you" Leslie snapped catching Kate off guard

"He wants me to bond with you two" Kate said awkwardly

"Okay then stop with your whining " Leslie said

I couldn't help but to laugh. Leslie is such a sweet person but she can be so mean when she wants to be.

Every now and then Harry would come in my room and check on us. It got annoying after a while. Its not like we're going to kill her.

"Bella!" I barley heard Louis shout from downstairs

I stopped my conversation to get up and go downstairs to see what the boy wanted. I found him in the family room holding out an x box controller

"I can't I'm talking with Leslie and Kate" I sighed

Louis frowned. I had to fight back a smile, he's to cute.

"Later" I promised

"Fine" Louis pouted crossing his arms like a little kid would when they didn't get what they wanted

"Don't be mad I'm just going to kick your ass anyways" I smiled

I winked at him then went back upstairs. Turns out Kate isn't such a horrible person after all. She's nice a bit to preppy for me to be friends with. She left around 8 ish. Leslie left soon after. I changed in to something more comfortable then went downstairs. Louis was sitting on the couch watching some show on tv.

"Are you ready to lose?" I asked causing him to tear his attention for the tv

Louis looked over at me and smirked

"Me lose? Ha your funny" Louis laughed sarcastically

"Yeah we'll see" I smirked

Louis turned on the Xbox and as I sat down next to him. FIFA was already in the console. I grabbed a controller off the coffee table. The score was 5-2 yes ladies and gentlemen I was beating Louis at FIFA.

"Okay I quit" Louis groaned throwing the controller down on the ground in frustration

"I told you!" I smiled throwing my hands up in victory

"Whatever" Louis grumbled

"Awww is Lou mad?" I mocked

"Yes I am"

"Poor baby"

"That's it" Louis said and lunged at me.

I reacted quick enough that he fell face first into the couch.

"na na na you can't catch me" I teased

"Oh yeah?" Louis questioned with a smirk

Louis jumped up from the couch and started chasing me around the house. He finally managed to tackle me on my bed. He pinned my arms above me.

"Caught you" Louis smirked

Both of us were breathing heavily. Louis' crotch was pressed against mine and I'm not going to lie it was turning me on. Slowly Louis started to lean in towards me. When his lips touch mine it sent chills of excitement down my spine. He let go of my arms. When he did I ran my fingers threw his hair. Louis pressed himself harder against me causing me to let out a small moan. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he went to lift me up.

"The door!" I mumbled against his lips

Without breaking the kiss or setting me down He walked over to the door shut and locked it. He put me up against the wall, and started kissing my neck. Once both our shirts were off he carried me to the bed. We kinda just fell on the bed. I left kisses all over his torso. Lou took his pants off like there was no tomorrow when as I took mine off slow just to tease him. I felt his 'situation' when I got back on top of him. Slowly I started to grind on him

"Oh God" Louis gasped falling backwards on the bed

After a minute he grabbed my waist and turned us over so he was on top of me. My panties came of so did his boxers. I bit down on my lip to try to keep quiet it was hard not to be. Someone knocked on my bedroom door. We ignored it. They knocked again. I was meant I shout go away but all that came out was a moan. A very loud moan

"Oi! What's going on in there? " Liam shouted pounding on my bedroom door

We are in such deep shit! Louis got off of the top of me and we both got up from my bed and quickly got dressed.

"That was fun" Louis smiled while buckling his pants

I smiled nodding in agreement. I made sure we both looked decent before I opened the door. Liam was standing there with his arms crossed. Harry, and Niall were behind him with the same pose. I bit my lip trying not to laugh.

"My sister really?" Liam asked the annoyance clear in his voice

"Sorry mate it just kind of happened " Louis said shrugging his shoulders

"I don't care she's my sister" Liam hissed

"Li calm down" I sighed really not in the mood to fight with him

"This wont happen again" Liam said sternly pointing between the two of us

"Whatever " I mumbled

"I mean it, it wont" Liam glared

"Alright it wont!" I said loudly

Liam glared at me and Louis once more before pushing through Harry and Niall to walk away.

"God he treats me like I'm a little fucking kid!" I groaned

"He's your brother he's just being protective," Harry said

"I don't care! I'm so sick of him" I said

"Watch your mouth Bella, he's your brother. He treats you the way he does because he scared of losing you, your the only family he has left" Niall snapped.

I looked at him shocked. He didn't respond. He just walked away

I felt a tear run down my cheek. Louis gave me a hug before leaving my room. Harry on the other hand leaned against my door frame.

"Since when do you and Lou have a thing?" Harry asked with a cheeky smile

"Harry not now please " I said taking a deep breath

"I just want to know"

"And I just want you to leave me alone! "

"Fine! Sometimes I don't know why I even bother "

"Excuse me?"

"I try and try to talk to you but you don't let me in or any of the other lads, you shut us out every time"

"You don't understand " I mumbled

"I'm always here for you Bella so is your brother, Niall and Louis" Harry said

"I know"

"Then why? What happened to the Bella I fell in love with?"

My world slowly felt like it stopped when I heard those words come out of his mouth.

"What did you just say?" I whispered trying not to let any tears escape

"I love you" Harry said with a small smile

"No!... no you can't do this to me!"

"Do what?" Harry asked giving me a confused look

"You're dating Kate , you can't love me ... get out!"

"Bella ple-" Harry began before I cut him off

"Get out Harry! "

Harry frowned then walked out of my room. I ran to my door and slammed it shut. By this time I couldn't control my tears. Why does he decide to tell me he loves me now? He can't just fucking do that to me. I've been in love with this boy for years and now he finally wants to tell me that he loves me when I had sex with someone else? I don't think so.

Instantly I went to my closet for my bottle of vodka. I drank it until I felt nauseous. With the bottle still in my hand I walked into my bathroom. I opened the medicine cabinet to grabbed the bottle of pills that was sitting on the top shelf. I don't remember what they were called but they should get the job done. I set the bottle of pills and alcohol bottle on the sink and shut the cabinet. I stood and looked at myself in the mirror. My make up was beyond a mess. My whole life is. Without thinking I punched my mirror as hard as I could. The Glass shattered and pieces flew every where. My knuckles instantly started to bleed. I opened the bottle of pills. I dumped them all into the plan of my hand left hand ignoring the pain in the right hand. I threw the empty bottle off to the side.

"I love you Liam " I said before putting as many of the pills in my mouth as I could. I washed them down with the vodka. I took some more. The last thing I heard was the vodka bottle hit the floor along with the pills that I didn't take