Forgive Me

Elijah was sleeping in his room and Brent and I were talking on the couch.

"Why did you come back?" I asked out if curiosity.
"I hired agents to search for you. They went through seven states until they found you. It took them a matter of two years until they did."

My eyes widened.
Two Years he's been looking for us.
He would've met Elijah when he was three..

"That long?"
"Yeah. I wanted to be apart of my son's life and yours. I never forgot you. I lived with regret ever since. I only dated once and it lasted a matter of two weeks. She broke it off with me saying I loved my ex too much to care about her. I don't blame her. I do love my ex too much to care about anyone else. I love my son too. I had to find you. I had to meet my son. I want to give you the world, Bree. I will wait for you until the day I die. You're the love of my life. Always have been. You never left my thoughts. I was worried about if my child survived. If you did. Where you were. How you were. My music got me less stressed. It saved me from depression thats for sure."

That hit home.
I got feelings that I hadn't had since I found out I was pregnant with Eli.
The butterflies came back.
The warm safe feeling came back.
But I still didn't trust him.

"What are you trying to accomplish?"
"I'm trying to get my girl back. I want my old life back with you in it."
"I just need time, Brent."
"I know. I'm willing to wait." He whispered.

I got up and kissed his cheek before going into the kitchen to grab a glass of water.
He followed.
Right before I opened the cabinet he twirled me around against the counter and cupped my face.
He was so close.

"Brent-"

He pressed his lips to mine cutting me off.
I didn't kiss back at first but then I gave in.
I couldn't help it.
His hands travelled under my butt and picked me up setting me on top of the counter.
My hands went to the back of his neck and rested there.
His hands were on my thighs.
I bit his bottom lip lightly making him moan.
He licked my bottom lip.
We were interrupted by Elijah screaming.
I broke away from him and jumped off the counter.
I ran to his room and opened the door.
I got in his bed and cradled him in my arms as he cried on me.

"Mommy, the bad men were taking me! They were so scary!!"
"Shhh..... they can't hurt you now. Mommy's got you." I whispered into his ear.

Brent walked in and sat on the other side of Elijah.
Eli moved out of my hands and leaned onto him.
Brent wrapped him into his arms conforting him
I smiled at it.
Why couldn't Brent be here the whole time?
Soon Eli fell asleep again and we walked out shutting the door lightly.
We walked back into the kitchen.
I jumped up and sat on the counter.
I laid my head in my hands sighing.
I felt two hands on my thighs.
I looked up into those crystal blue eyes i'd grown to love all over again.

"He has nightmares often. He's been so good with it ever since you showed up..."
"We'll get through this. Its just a phase. It'll pass. Soon he'll be sleeping without them."
"What if he doesn't?"
"I'll make sure he does. We'll get through this together."

I smiled and kissed his cheek while hugging him.
I felt him pick me up and I wrapped my legs around his torso.
He carried us up to my room.
He laid me down while getting on top.

"I love you so much, Bree."

He said before kissing me again.
I kissed back letting my legs relax.
My hands wandered his chest feeling his muscles.
God I missed this.
If only I could be like this with him forever...
I'm scared to get too attatched.
He's in a band.
Which means tours.
And fans.
Which means crazy obsessive girls.
Which also means he wont be home often.
I'm surprised he is now..
I don't know what to do.
Am I doing the right thing by kissing him back?