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Draco Malfoy's Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 28

I walked through the streets of London with my mom at my side. She had picked me up from the Burrow so we could spend the last day of my vacation together. She was taking me out to lunch and to do a little shopping in Diagon Alley. I had requested it, but only because I had an alternative motive. My mind had been swimming, but it felt alright.

“Did that clear your head?” Fred asked when I pulled away from him.

I shrugged. “I’m still as confused as I was before the kiss.”

He smiled and gently pushed some of my hair behind my ear. I bit my lip as a blush slowly burned on my cheeks. It was different from when I was with Draco. I had always wanted to kiss Draco, but I wanted Fred to kiss me. It was the opposite. I wanted to be the one kissed and not the one doing the kissing. I didn’t know if that was a good thing or a bad thing, but whatever it was, it sure felt nice.

“You can take as much time as you like, but while you’re thinking, can we just have this one night?” he whispered and leaned his forehead against mine.

I sighed. I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know whether I should’ve given him a chance or not but with those beautiful eyes looking into mine, I just had to nod. Besides, I had plenty of dates with Draco. He had enough time to prove to me that he wanted me, but he was still keeping secrets. It was only fair. Besides, isn’t there a saying about that? Oh, yes. All is fair in love and war. Since it was love we were dealing with, taking a midnight stroll and snogging under a nearby tree seemed pretty fair to me.

“I shouldn’t have let you go,” Fred pulled away from me with a smile. “It was foolish that I couldn’t wait. You are all that I’ve wanted, and I’ve never felt guiltier about anything in my whole entire life. Courtney, I-“ he paused and gulped. “I think I love you.”

I couldn’t say it back to him. I just couldn’t. There was this sweet guy who I could have, but there was another boy that was tugging on the back of my mind. Why Draco? Why are you pulling me around like this? Instead of saying anything, which I couldn’t do anyway, I kissed him again. It seemed to work to some effect, but it was just making me more confused by the second.

“Where have you been?” Ron yelled when I arrived in his room a little while later. “You walked out to get some air during dinner, and you never came back. Neither did Fred now that I think about it. You can’t have your caked and eat it too, Courtney. You can’t yank my brother around when you’re in love with someone else!”

I nodded. “I know that, Ron.”

“Leave Courtney alone, Ronald,” Kam smiled at me. “I know what you’re doing, Court. It’s not going to end pretty. Well, at least for one of them. I know that you’re angry and upset with Draco. I would feel like I needed to move on as well, but are you sure you want to try that with one of your best friend’s brothers? Just think about it, okay?”

“Here,” Ron threw a pillow at me. “Sleep on it.”

I sighed and tried to sleep, but it didn’t come until the wee hours of the morning, when I couldn’t hold my eyes open any longer. I dreamt that someone had a wand pointed to Draco’s throat as well as Fred’s. I could only save one I was told. I couldn’t pick. It didn’t seem fair. The prosecutor then turned the wand on me because of my indecisiveness. I woke up in a sweat. My problem was getting worse as the time went on.

“Were do you want to eat at?” Mom asked as we neared the Leaky Cauldron. “Leaky Cauldron or something in the Alley?”

I shrugged. “Wherever you want to go.”

“What is it? You seem a bit distracted. Did something happen at the Burrow?” she opened the door for me, and I walked into the cool air of the restaurant.

I sighed and sat down at the nearest table. “Something did happen at the Burrow.”

“Does it have to do with what happened at Draco’s party? You still haven’t told me what exactly happened there. Come on, popkin. Tell me everything,” she touched my arm as she said that.

I broke down and told her everything. I had managed not to cry, even thought I wanted to. I didn’t need the extra attention. Mom took it all in amazement. She never imagined that any of the stuff that happened would’ve happened. I know. It sounded all far-fetched, and I wished that I did make up all of it. It was just my luck that I had all those problems.

“Honey,” she gasped. “You don’t have to hold all this in, you know? I’m right here anytime you need to talk. I just can’t believe this.”

“What should I do?”

She shrugged. “I would just go with your heart. You are the only judge of knowing what’s best for you. Do you want the sweet, funny guy who seems to regret ever leaving you? Or do you want a cocky, self absorbed guy who seems to care only about himself and, apparently, you every once in a while?”

She really did have a point. Draco only seemed to think about me when it was convenient for him. He only sought me out when he needed something. Such as the time he needed someone to talk to. I stayed up with him all night in the astronomy tower. Or the time when we were thirteen and he kissed me for the first time. He had been angry at his parents, so he came over to my house, which shocked the hell out of me. He needed someone to talk to, and when we were finished, he kissed me.

“I’m moving on,” I had made my decision.

She nodded and smiled. “Good.”

I stood. “You don’t mind, do you? I can take care of this and be back for shopping?”

“You don’t even have to come back. Just be home in time for dinner,” she winked. “Bring him back with you if you want to. I’ll be sure to have an extra place set for him.”

I nodded and headed for the back door of the restaurant. There was the brick wall that I usually fought with because I couldn’t remember the right sequence of bricks to tap, but I guess it was fate or something because I hit everyone perfectly and watched as the bricks rearranged themselves to let me through to the Alley. I didn’t know exactly where I was going, but I found the shop sure enough. I smiled when I saw the ‘life-like’ statues of Fred and George outside. Not much for blending in, are they?

“Can I help you?” asked a girl behind the counter.

“Um,” I looked at her beautiful green eyes and flowing brown hair. She was simply gorgeous. “Who are you?”

She laughed. “I work here as a cashier and seller. My name is Dawn. Is there anything that you’re looking for in particular?”

I nodded. “I’m actually looking for Fred.”

“What for?” she asked, raising an eyebrow up at me.

“That’s kind of personal, Dawn,” I put a hand on my hip. “Would you please go get him or just point me in the right direction? I don’t have time for your shit right now.”

“Excuse me? Apparently I hit a nerve of some kind. I can’t believe that Fred knows someone like you, when he has me. Didn’t you hear, we’re dating,” she smirked.

My confidence faded and so hadn’t my own smirk. Dating? Fred was dating that bitch that wouldn’t let me see him? No wonder she felt protective. I couldn’t believe that I had let my emotions get carried away like that. I can’t believe that I was going to try and have a relationship with him when he tried to pull the same shit on me.

“Court!”

I turned and saw George making his way over to me. I bit my lip and tried not to cry. I could be strong. I didn’t want to move on with Fred anyway. He was just some huge joke that tried to play itself on me again, but that wasn’t happening.

“What are you doing here?” he raised an eyebrow up at me. “Wanted to continue your hot night with Fred, I presume? If so, you can find him-“ he started to point by I shut him up by shoving his hand back down.

I shook my head. “No, that’s just fine. Dawn already filled me in on everything so-“

“Dawn? You have to ignore her,” he said and eyed the girl behind me. “She has a major thing for Fred and will try to run off any girl who threatens her chances of being with him. Little does she know, Fred hates her. Don’t really know why we keep her around…”

“So, they’re not dating?” I asked in shock.

He laughed. “Is that what she told you? Don’t believe it for a second. Fred is so single it’s sad, and Dawn is so obsessed with him that it’s sad. So, don’t fret and get your little behind into the back room,” he smirked and pointed behind me.

I nodded and turned. There was the door straight behind me. I smirked at Dawn as I passed as well as adding that she was a bitch. I opened the door slowly and popped my head in. He was in there alright, tinkering with something. I walked in, closed the door silently before walking up behind him and covering his eyes.

“Dawn, how many times have I told you-“ he stopped when he took my hands off and turned to see me. “Hey, you. I wasn’t expecting you to show up here. Did you need something?”

I nodded. “Yes, I do. I need to move on terribly, and I was thinking that we could give us a shot, you know, just on a trial basis to see that it works out. I don’t want this to end in flames, so could we just try it out and then we can see if we still want to be together once summer comes. Alright?”

He smiled. “Of course,” next thing I knew, he had kissed me, which led to us snogging in the back room for the rest of the afternoon.