All I Ever Wanted

It was 09:00 am in the morning when the ringing of my cell phone woke me up from my peaceful sleep. I groaned and rolled over so I could grab it from my bedside table. I blinked a couple of times and let my eyes adjust to the light before I unlocked the screen and checked who disturbed me this early.

"Hey Megs wanna meet up for lunch today? x"

The text from my best friend read. I quickly replied telling her that I would meet her at our favorite place before I closed my phone and got up from my bed. Might as well start my day bright and early. I had a shower before I got dressed and made some breakfast and coffee.

Jimmy told me that he will be in the studio with the guys 'till late tonight and I thought that maybe it would be a good idea to go to his place and surprise him with a nice dinner, ‘cause I knew that when he will returned home he will be hungry.

Jimmy and I met a hot June day at the beach he was with his friends I was with mine long story short we clicked and we started dating after two weeks. I never believed that you could fall in love with someone so quickly but it happen. I fell in love with him and he with me. Some might say that it was summer love but it wasn't I could see it in the way he looked at me and I could feel it inside of me.

It was now October and we have been dating since the end of June so that give us almost 4 months together. Four months that I wouldn't trade with anything in the world. I knew that he was the one for me and I wanted to believe that I was the one for him too.

After I finished my breakfast I cleaned my plate and started getting ready for my lunch date with Julie. The restaurant that we were meeting was right at the beach so I decided that I would get there early so I could have a nice walk by the beach.

I enjoyed my walk before Julie called me and told me that she was waiting for me so I went to meet her. I knew her since we were 5 years old and she was my best friend in the world and the only person that understood me. We had our lunch with Julie complaining how much of an asshole her boss was lucky for me I was off work for the rest of the week.

Julie went back to work after lunch and I went to the grocery store to buy the things I would need in order to make Jimmy's dinner. After got everything I needed I went to my car and started driving towards Jimmy's place. I saw and unfamiliar car outside and I frowned because Jimmy said that he would be out so who was in there?

I parked my car and got out walking towards the front door. I decided to knock since I didn't know who was in the house. A minute later a beautiful woman opened the door with a smile on her face. I swear she looked like one of the VS models if she wasn't one already.

"How can I help you?" she asked me

"Um...is Jimmy here?" I asked confused

"No sorry...he is at the studio. Do you want to leave him a message?"

"No that's ok. I will stop by another time...don't mean to be rude but are you his sister?" who else could she be??

"His sister? No" she said and laughed a little "I'm his fiancé" she said and I felt like a ton of bricks fell up on me

"His...his fi-fiancé?" I shuttered

"Yeah...we've been engaged for a year, we're getting married next month" she smiled "But who are you?"

"I'm nobody..." I said and shook my head "just a friend"

I said and before she could say anything else I turned around and run to my car. How could he do this to me? If he was already engaged then what did he want for me? He just used me, he wanted to get in my pants and I being the stupid girl I am let him because I fell in love with him. Everything he ever said was a lie.

Angry tears kept running down my face as I was driving towards the studio. I felt angry and betrayed. I wiped away my tears because I didn't want to cause a crash I wouldn't die for him even though inside I already felt dead. Our love was a lie...he said that he loved me to the moon and back. I still remember the day he told me that while lying on the sand together one night. Every single think was a lie a big fat lie.

Before I knew it I was outside of the studio I quickly parked my car before I got out and stormed inside. I walked inside where I spotted Brian. He looked surprised to see me there and when he saw the look in my face his eyes widened a little.

"Meg? What's wrong?" he asked me but I ignored his question

"Where's Jimmy?" I asked him trying to keep my voice to a normal level

"He's recording some of his parts"

That was all I needed. I walked into the recording room and everyone snapped their heads to the door and of course they all again looked surprised to see me. Matt was ready to say something but I ignored him and walked to the room when Jimmy was recording. The moment he saw me he stopped playing and his eyes widened when he saw the state I was in...I was literally fuming

"Meg...what are you-" I cut him off

"You have a fucking fiancé?" I screamed at him and I couldn't help the tears that escaped my eyes.

"How did you find out?" he asked as he got up and came closer to me

"That's you have to say how did I find out? I can't believe you did this to me! If you were already engaged what did you want with me huh?" I yelled

"Megan please just listen to me. I want you not her..." he tried to make me listen to him but I couldn't

"You know I went to your house to make dinner for you and surprise you only to find out that you're engaged. Why Jimmy just tell me WHY?" I said and let out a sob

"Because I fell in love with you and I don't even know what she is doing at my house she was on business all summer. I didn't want you to know because I wanted to break up with her so we could be together. Please Meg..." he tried to take a hold of my hand but I took a step back

"You wouldn't even going to tell me" I shook my head “I really can't believe you...Did even love me even for one second?"

"Of course I did...Megan I still do" his eyes were pleading me but I wasn’t going to give in

“No you don’t…if you did you wouldn’t have play with me nor lie to me like that Jimmy” I said sadly

“Megan no I made a mistake” he came and wrapped his arms around me

“No! Don’t touch me…You’re lying to me” I repeatedly hit his chest to make him to leave me alone

“Meg…please” he sighed

“No…This” I pointed between me and him “Us…it’s over but you already knew that. Find another girl to play with Jimmy I’m over believing you and your lies” I said and turned around to leave. I was one step away from the door before I heard

“Yeah go away I don’t need you. You want to know the truth I never once loved you…you were just another girl to play with! You mean nothing to me” I couldn’t help but to let the tears fall from my eyes. It was another think thinking that he didn’t and another hearing him say it. It make my heart broke in half

“I hate you”

I turned to look at him one last time and for the first time his eyes were cold, not once he had look at me that way. When I got out I saw all the guys sitting there with an apologetic look on their faces. It wasn’t their fault although the new…Jimmy is their best friend not mine of course they would cover up for him

“Megan…” Matt began but I cut him off

“It’s ok really…I mean he is your friend after all…I’m just gonna go. Bye guys” and with that I left
When I got out of the building I completely broke down and a voice called my name

“Meg?”

“Megan…wake up”

I opened my eyes and there I was back to my bedroom. Another night dreaming of that day…it has been five months since then and still I wasn’t able to forget about it.

“Are you ok?” Julie asked me

“Was I screaming again?” I asked her and she looked at me before she sat down on the bed next to me

“Megan…you should stop beating yourself over this. He doesn’t deserve it”

“I know…but I can’t stop thinking about it. I mean I never did anything to deserve this” I shook my head and wiped my eyes from the tears that had fall during my dream.

It was the same every night. Me dreaming about the day we broke up screaming and crying and Julie coming to console me because she was afraid that I would harm myself. I may do a lot of things but I would never hurt myself physically over something even if that something was the love of my life.

“We have a show today” Julie told me when I entered the kitchen

“Oh…where?” I asked and took a sip from my coffee

“Johnny’s” I sighed

“I don’t wanna go there. He is always there…I don’t want to see him.”

“You know you have to some time. It might help you” She raised her eyebrows

“I’m not going to win this fight am I?” I said and she laughed

“No you’re not. Now go get ready” she ordered and I went to have a shower

Me and Julie along with Mark and Nate had a band. Well it was more like a hobby we all had our jobs but we like to do some lives there and then. We had a few songs written we mostly did covers from bands that we liked.

After I was done with my shower I got out and picked my outfit for tonight. I did my hair and make-up before I found Julie on the couch ready to go and waiting for me. We met with Mark and Nate at Johnny’s so we could do a rehearsal before our live.

I stayed at the back of the bar because I didn’t want to be seen if he came here. I knew that this was the place he came almost every day. I ordered a drink and waited until it was time for us to go on stage.

I was quietly sipping my drink when I felt a presence behind me. Good thing I stayed in the back I thought to myself…but when I turned around it wasn’t Jimmy who stood there and I thanked God for that.

“Brian hey” I said and smiled a little

“Hey Meg…how are you doing?” he casually asked

“Fine” I shrugged

“Look Meg I need to talk to you…well we all do” he said and I looked behind his shoulder to see the rest of the guys except Jimmy standing there

“Guys really I already told you I have nothing against you. You are his friends I get it…”

“But we still feel awful about it…it wasn’t right and we wanted to tell you that we’re sorry” Zacky spoke this time

“It’s alright I have forgiven you a long time ago” I smiled and each one of them pulled me into a hug.
One hour letter they called me because it was our time to get on stage I excused myself because I was still sitting with the guys and made my way to the stage.

Our live was going great we have already play three songs and we were ready to start our forth a Halestorm cover before the door to Johnny’s opened and I saw him come in. He looked a mess but I was a bigger one and it was his entire fault. So why do I still care?

He locked eyes with me and for a moment I thought I was lost in them. I always loved his eyes I could look into them forever and never get bored. It was all gone now…we’re over and I have to keep reminding myself that. I shook my head and focused on the song that we were starting to play….it was Halestorm's-Bet You Wish You Had Me Back ...oh the irony….!

It was you and me and one hot summer
Beading up with sweat all over each other
Soaking wet
We didn't have a lot of time
So we didn't waste much
Found in all the right places
You wanted me to touch
And all those memories
Make it so hard to forget about me

I bet you wish you had me back
Another chance to gain it just like that
The best you ever had
And do you close your eyes with her
And pretend I'm doing you again
Like only I can
I bet you wish you had me back
I bet you wish you had me back

I looked at the crowd and saw him right in front of the stage his eyes never leaving my face. Oh God please move!

It was you and me it seemed to last forever
The way you taste and I still remember
The sounds we made
One day in June I stayed all night
And made love to you like
The 4th of July
And all those memories
Make it so hard to forget about me

He moved but only for a while so he could grab a drink and he sat with the guys in the back but he still wouldn’t stop staring at me and for the first time it was making me uncomfortable.

I bet you wish you had me back
Another chance to gain it just like that
The best you ever had
And do you close your eyes with her
And pretend I'm doing you again
Like only I can
I bet you wish you had me back

Every night every time
You see me when you close your eyes

I bet you wish you had me back
Another chance to gain it just like that
Like only I can
You wish you had me back
Bet you wish you had me back
Bet you wish you had me back

The song ended and we still have a couple of more songs before our set ended. I managed to sing avoiding him because if I didn’t I wouldn’t been able to sing. Our last song ended and before I was able to say goodnight to the crowd and get off stage and go home Noah spoke.

“We have a surprise for you today. We’re gonna play one more song it was written by Megan our beautiful singer. It’s called Happy Ending” he said and my eyes widened.

Not that song. It was the song that I had written when we broke up and now he wanted me to sing it while he is in the same room with him. I really hate Noah right now. I turned around and sent him a death glare before I turned back and took a deep breath before I heard the first notes of my song filling the room.

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
in a city so dead
Held up so high
on such a breakable thread

you were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

He knew that song was for him…I could tell by the way he was looking at me.
You've got your dumb friends … I sang and sent an apologetic smile to the guys because to tell the truth I loved this guys they were crazy
I know what they say
they tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
all the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
and I thought we could be

I sang the chorus one more time before the part that I dreaded the most came. The one that made me want to break down all over again.

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

I closed my eyes because I was sure that if I kept them open I would start crying and I didn’t want that. I sang the rest of the song before I left the stage with a small goodnight to the crowd. I made my way outside where I leaned against the wall and let it all out. He being here and the song brought it all back. Everything I had buried inside or try to buried came back and I couldn’t control myself anymore.
It wasn’t long before I heard the door from the bar open once again but I didn’t bother looking who it was until I felt someone sitting beside me. I turned my head and saw him sitting there staring ahead of him.

“Don’t you have a fiancé to go home too?” I asked bitterly but he didn’t move nor did he say something

“I never pretended with you” he said after a while and I shook my head standing up

“Really? Because for a moment I thought I might need to give you an Oscar you were a great actor” I glared at him

“Meg just let me explain” he sigh standing up too

“Explain then. What was your reason for breaking my heart in half” I crossed my hands over my chest.

“What I said at the studio that day…I…I didn’t mean it. You are the only one that I need the one that I love…please believe me” he said and I could see it in his eyes that he was telling the truth

“Why did you lie to me then?”

"I didn't want to lose you. I was going to break up with her the moment I saw her. She just showed up at my house. I didn’t want her I only want you…I broke up with her that day too I couldn’t be with her…and I told her the truth it wasn’t easy but I did it because if you ever forgave me I wanted to be with you again” he yelled and I was taken a back

“You broke me. Do you think I wanted this…do you think I wanted to wake up screaming and crying and having nightmares about that horrible day,do you? The only thing I ever wanted was to be with you” I started sobbing again and I felt him pulling me into his arms but this time I didn’t fight him because I needed him.

“Please forgive me” he said as I continue to cry into his chest and I thought about it for a minute.
Yes he did hurt me but everyone makes mistakes. His was a big one but was I ready to forgive him? I love him with all my heart and I knew for a fact that I couldn’t leave without. So why not giving him one more chance? Why not giving US one more chance?

“I forgive you” I said in a low voice but he heard it

“You mean that? You’ll give us a chance?” he said as he lifted my chin with his fingers and his eyes were full of hope.

“Yes I do. But no more lies Jimmy you have to promise me that” I said and he nodded

“No more lies”

He said and before I knew it he kissed me. It had been so long…I missed kissing him. I felt him smile into the kiss making me smile too and tighten my arms around his neck. He licked my bottom lip and I parted my lips so his tongue could enter my mouth. Our lips move in synch as our tongues battle for dominance.

We broke the kiss because we both needed to breathe and we stood still looking at each other’s eyes both with big smiles on our faces. I couldn’t be happier right now I think I was going to explode. Suddenly Jimmy picked me up while hugging me and started spinning me around and started laughing making me laugh too. I always loved his laugh.

“I love you Meg” he said and leaned down to kiss me

“I love you too Jimmy” I smiled and rested my head on his chest leaving a sigh o content

“You’re all I ever wanted” I heard him mumble after a while of standing there in his arms were I was supposed to be. I didn’t answer to him because he knew my answer I just tighten my arms around him and buried my face further into his chest before I felt him kiss the top of my head and I could picture him smiling.

He is all I ever wanted!