Everything Has Changed

Okay, I'm going to rant on things I don't ship. First of all, I don't fucking ship Gamie. That's disgusting. The name sounds like a porno or something. She's a whore. Ew. No. No. No. No. I ship those people with different people. You can't put 2 nasty ass, egotistical, pride-obsessed people together. Wait, why don't I ship them. Oh, that's right, because I'm in love with one of them. (Im going to regret writing that). Yes, I fucking love you, Gale. Please remind me why I love you again. You'll never love me back, so I guess I'll just spit out my feelings on an anonymous blog that I just give my personal information on. But, that's just me. Few people know who I am. But I guess by the hints I give you, granted you're not a huge ass idiot (Shoutout to Gale), you could probably gather information and figure out who I am. But I'd rather continue writing this having you wondering. My friend is the one who pointed this all out to me and I really do hate to admit it, but whatever, fuck it. I better get an A for this. So, yeah, that's something I just got off my chest. Flashback. I've loved you since the quarter quell and when I found out you and Juliette broke up I fucking danced all around. I was so happy. Now, not so much. I just want to get a call and you'll say "I love you too", but that won't happen because I'm a coward that won't even tell you how I feel. So, I'm going to sit, lying awake at night thinking of you and just pray that I even cross your mind. But, that won't happen because I'm just afraid of you not loving me back. I've been spending the last 7 months, just having simple conversations with you, you would always beat me at naive games, that I probably should've won. Just hoping you would read my signs that I have practically spelled out for you. It's hard sitting next to someone, knowing they mean the world to you and you mean nothing to them. I tried to ask about you all the time, but it was just sort of too hard. This is probably the sapiest shit I have ever wrote. I literarily just puked my soul into that chapter. Fuck.

By the way, my name is Katniss Everdeen and I don't give a fuck.