Darling You'll Be Okay

Vic’s POV
I was awoken by small mumbling from my parents and the door slamming shut, telling me they were gone for work. They worked a lot to keep my brother Mike and I happy. I love them so much, and we were all close. I got up walking out of my room and down to the kitchen to already see Mike helping himself to some breakfast.
“Want some? Mom made it before her and dad left.”
I shook my head and muttered a no, I’m not really in the mood for food right now considering what’s going threw my head.
“Well more for me.” Mike laughed and shoved a fork full of eggs in his mouth.
I sat down next to him and pat his back. “What does our little lover boy have in mind for his girlfriend?” I laugh as Mike rose his head from his food.
“Who says I’m even going to Christina’s house?” He rolled his eyes and kept eating.
“Well,” I begun and let out a small laugh “You two can’t go a day without each other.”
“Yeah I’m going to her house so what?” He shrug and I sigh. “We need to get you a girlfriend, always so caught up in soccer being so involved in school and work and all Vic. Do you see all the girls that like you? I can’t believe you haven’t even made a move on Allie who so has the hots for you dude, and she’s cheerleader and really cute, what’s not to like Vic?”
Uhh the fact that I’m gay and not into girls but I’m to scared of your judgment to even let you know? “I’m just not really looking for a relationship right now.” Especially since the man I’m in love with is straight, that’s always a let down.
“Why not?” Mike asked as he walked over to the sink and washed his dish.
“I don’t know.” I shrugged. “To much work I guess, I just want to focus on my grades, soccer, and work I really don’t have time for girls.” I lied.
“Well suit yourself man.” Mike sighed and took out his phone, checking the time and quickly putting it in his pocket. “Well I’m off to see Christina have fun.” Mike said and started walking away.
“Tell her I said I love you!” I laugh and he rolled his eyes.
“And tell Jaime I said hi since I know you’re going over there.” He laughed and shut the door.
I got up from the chair and dragged myself up to the room putting on some basketball shorts and my gray hoodie. I quickly threw on my vans and walked out of my house. I’m gonna see the love of my life. (And my best friend) Jaime. Oh Jaime what more could you want from him? From his amazing smile and perfect set of dimples, to his amazing and fun personality. He wasn’t very active and out going with sports and stuff like I am, but I wouldn’t leave him for the world. I’m madly in love with him, but he’s straight and from everything he’s been threw he needs me as a best friend more than ever, and not a boyfriend considering he’s straight. Well he’s never really had a real girlfriend. He’s talked to some girls but for him it’s never really worked out . I lifted up my head and saw that I was already in Jaime’s drive way. I need to talk to him, hopefully today I can tell him. I just want to grab his beautiful face and look into his eyes and say ‘Jaime Alberto Preciado you’re the love of my life and I want to spend every waking moment with you because you’re perfect and you’re perfect for me and so amazing and everything I can ever want in my life!’ And kiss all over his beautiful face and hold him. But, that in my life will never happen.
I let out a small sigh at my thoughts and began to knock on the door lightly, after a couple of moments Jaime’s mom answered the door.
“Vic?” She asked confused.
“Hi Mrs. Preciado is Jaime here?”
“He’s sleep, it’s early what are you doing up so early?”
“I don’t know,” I shrug “Just thought I’d hang out with my best friend.” Jesus can she stop asking me so much damn questions?
“Come in, I’ll wake him up for you.”
She led me to his room and told me to wait in front of his door, I heard him groan and his mom told me I was here. She came out and told me I can go in and I nodded. I stood there for a little bit, my stomach began churning, come on Vic stop it’s Jaime. Well that’s exactly my problem it’s Jaime, my Jaime the Jaime I love with every single thing I could possibly have, yeah that Jaime.
Well that thought didn’t really help me much. I let out a small groan and walked into his room, looking into the direction of his closet to see him put on his red pull over. I couldn’t help but to smile, he’s so perfect. Oh god I hope he doesn’t notice me smiling all weird. He walked over to his bed and I followed.
“What do you want this early, Fuentes?” He let out a heavy tired like sigh.
I felt bad for waking him up though, I began to look down thinking of an answer. “I don’t know my parents aren’t home and Mike went off and did whatever, so I thought I’d come and hang out with you.”
He laughed and took a seat on his bed and I placed myself next to him.
“Back up plan again,” He said in a teasing manner and I rolled my eyes laughing. “Should of known, and I thought you liked hanging out with me.” He laughed and I playfully hit his arm. Of course I love hanging out with him, he’s amazing.
“Of course I love hanging out with you Hime you’re my best friend.” The love of my life.
I leaned back on his soft bed. “When are your parents leaving? I sort of need to talk to you about something.”
He rose an eyebrow at me. “In an hour.”
Hell no that’s to long. I need to talk to him now. I groan getting up and dragging him out of the room. “Come on lets go to my house then.”
We walked out of his room and down stairs.
“Mom is it okay if I go to Vic’s for a little?”
“Pro que demonios alla?” She snapped in Spanish. Uh hello I’m right here I could here you and the reason why I want him there all the time because I love him. Psh duh. I rolled my eyes.
“Mom it was just a simple question, please?” Jaime asked and I smiled. He sounds so calm. I would of flipped out.
“Oh well alright,” She finally said. I smiled feeling happy, she said some other stuff to Jaime but I zoned out. Jaime grabbed his key and before I knew it we were walking down the street to my house. We didn’t really say much on the way but I really didn’t mind just being with him makes me happy. Alas we walked to my front door, I unlocked it and we both walked in. We sat on the couch and I turned on the t.v flipping threw the channels. Nothing that really was on that I would want to watch, but I flipped threw Toy Story and Jaime begged me to watch it, it being his favorite movie and all. I guess I will so once I agreed I kept the channel on the movie and we watched it in silence. Not really paying attention or anything but every now and then I would look at Jaime and it brought a smile on my face to see his face it up at the movie. He was seriously the cutest thing ever. Once it got to commercials I muted the t.v and turned to Jaime.
“Okay I need to talk to you.” I looked at him, I kind of really don’t want to tell him now that I’m here and about to do it.
“Sure go for it.” He nodded.
I let out a huge sigh I’ll stall right now. “Jaime, I need to let you know something.” And it’s sort of important and yeah because I love you.
He leaned in, looking confused. “Sure what’s up?” He asked.
“Well I like a boy.” I said.
Jaime looked at me, not sure what’s he thinking but it made me feel uncomfortable. He’s the only human being in the whole world that knows I’m gay, because I’m to scared to let anyone else know because well I’m scared of all the judgement. I really am.
“Oh really? Who’s this lucky guy?” Jaime asked smiling, that made my heart melt.
I looked away because I needed to hide my blush and I needed to think, Okay I don’t want him to know now what the hell am I doing? Quick Vic who’s an attractive guy that looks like you would like him?
“I’m not saying anything, but I kind of find Tony attractive.” I said, lying. Tony was cute and one of my team mates in soccer, although he was actually really cute I don’t like him like that, I mean he’s Tony. He’s cool but he’s really just my great friend. And besides he’s straighter than board and he has a girlfriend. Does Jaime know that much that he does have a girlfriend? I sure hope not.
“Tony, Tony Perry?” Jaime asked.
Now I have to back something else up with this quick Vic think. “I don’t feel like he likes me or anything, and he’s most likely not gay, and since no one knows but you, I won’t do anything.” I said, wow okay Jaime could actually believe this it’s a legit reason. I’m sort of relived, but then I’m bummed. Jaime and I have been best friends since third grade, I can’t believe I’m lying right to his face.
He groaned and I looked at him, okay I’m confused. “Vic you have to give things a shot you can never be so scared.” Oh okay now it makes sense. Yeah to bad he’s straight and I can’t give us a shot.
“Yeah but what if he isn’t gay and he just tells everyone, Jaime you know I wouldn’t like that.”
He stood quiet for a moment. “Yeah man, I guess.”
I smiled, that was a little bit to close. My secret should be safe. Should be safe. Whatever I’m good for now. “Thanks Jaime.” I hugged him and it basically sent butterfly’s flying around my stomach.
He sigh and hugged be back. “Anytime Vic.”
We spent the rest of the morning watching Toy Story in silence, and then we grabbed some junk food because we’re fat asses like that. I looked at the clock and sighed. I got up and Jaime looked at me.
“I have to go to soccer practice.” I said.
“Oh,” He nodded and got up.
“I’ll give you a ride back, just let me get ready.” I motioned him to sit down and he plopped back to the couch. I quickly ran upstairs and to my room can’t have him waiting to long. I grabbed my soccer bag and threw my soccer ball in threw everything I would need. I put on my soccer shorts (a little to short for me, and I’m gay and I don’t like that) my practice jersey, my socks, and my vans. I put my bag strap across my chest and to my other shoulder and began to walk back down stairs. I walked to my kitchen and grabbed my water bottle throwing it in my bag, okay I think I have everything. I walked over to Jaime and a smiled stamped onto my face. “Ready.” I mumbled as he looked up.
He got up and turned off the t.v and walked over next to me. “Can you hang out later? Maybe you can spend the night.”
I smile, of course I can come over I’m not gonna miss a chance to hang out with him. “Yes, that would be great.”
“Alright, cool.” He smiled and we walked out of my house. I locked it and we then made it to my car. We got in and I started it, slowly backing out of my drive way. And within the next 5.5 seconds Jaime was already getting out of my car.
“Just text me when you’re done and stuff.” He said as he shut the door.
“Of course see you later Hime Time.” I waved and he smiled, walking over to his house. I watched him walk until he vanished into the house because let’s face it, he’s the cutest thing ever walking. I let out a small sigh and started to drive away to our high school Mission Bay High. San Diego is great, the school is great. I’m actually really liked I don’t know why or how if I hang out with Jaime all the time and only Jaime. I wouldn’t leave him. It took about ten minuets to get to school. After I pulled into the parking lot I grabbed my bag from my trunk and made my way to the soccer field. I noticed I was the second one their, the other person was Tony. I couldn’t help but laugh as I saw him dribbling the ball down the filed, especially since Jaime now thinks I like him, Tony is cute and all but he’s just a great friend. I walked onto the field and set my bag onto the floor.
“I’m open!” I yelled as I sprinted down the field.
Tony laughed and passed the ball to me and I shot it in the goal. “Hey what’s up Vic?” Tony said as he ran over to get the ball from the goal.
“Nothing much, I can’t believe you’re early since you’re always late.” I chuckled as I kicked the ball to Tony.
“Well might as well get some practice in before practice.”
I bit my lip slightly, I think I should talk to Tony, we are good friends anyways, and it was the perfect time, if I don’t talk to him, when will I? I stopped the ball placing my foot at the base and sighed. Even though I’m really worried about peoples reaction about me being gay, Tony is a really nice and understanding guy, maybe it wouldn’t Kill him to know.
“Tony, can we talk in all seriousness about something?”
He gave me a strange look before nodding. “Uhh sure what’s on your mind Vic?”
I sat down on the grass crossing my legs and Tony came walking towards me and sat down. “Okay I’ve never really told anyone this except my best friend but now I have a problem, and I trust you because we’re really good friends and pretty close.”
Tony nodded and smiled. “Yeah, we are aren’t we?”
I let out a small laugh. “Yes we are.”
“So Vic what’s up?”
“Okay first of Tony, I think you should know that I’m uhh-” I took a long pause and looked at the floor, I then met Tony’s eyes and he gave me a weak smile. “Come on Vic you can tell me, no matter what I don’t judge.”
I nodded and sighed. “Tony I’m gay.”
Tony stared at me for a moment, not in disgust, he didn’t even look bothered he just smiled at me.
“Man dude that’s great, I’m the only person who knows besides Jaime?”
I looked at him and nodded “Yeah, now here’s the other thing.”
“Yeah?”
“I’m hopelessly in love with him Tony, I’ve always have been, like I can’t even hide the feelings anymore, but I’m pretty sure he’s straight and the reason no one else knows about me being gay not even Mike who I’m close to is because honestly I’m to scared to be judged.”
Tony wrapped his arm around me and sighed. “Hey man, if things are worth it who cares? If you want to be with Jaime you have to be honest with him and everyone else you don’t have to do it now, but when you feel like you’re ready. But wow you and Jaime? Dude I must say that would actually be cute you and Jaime are really good looking guys, I say that and I’m straight.”
We both got up laughing, see Tony was a great friend. “If anything,” Tony chuckled. “Being with Jaime maybe less confusing than me being with Amber.” He laughed and shook his head.
“But you and Amber are the cutest soccer couple I’ve ever seen!” I smiled, they really are.
Tony let out a small smile. “Yeah dude I know, but she can be confusing at times, but I put up with it because I really…” He trailed off twirling his thumbs.
“Love her?” I finished for him smiling.
“Thanks.” He cleared his throat and I smiled. “Yeah I do, but she’s a pain in my ass. But it’s great how we always play soccer and stuff, she’s just great.”
“You guys are cute.” I said truthfully they were. “I wish Jaime would actually show people how great he is at soccer and everything.”
“He plays?” Tony asked.
“Best person I know, he’s better than me, he always wins.” I laughed, he was absolutely amazing at soccer and it was one of his favorite things to do.
“Why doesn’t he try out for the team next year, we will be seniors.” Tony smiled. “I’d love to play a game with him, if he’s better than you and you’re the best on the team, why won’t he?”
I looked down and back up. “He’s to shy, he’s really to shy for anything. I try to let him know everyday how amazing he really is at everything but, he’s just shy.” I shrugged and Tony looked up at the gray sky, looks like rain will occur tonight. This made me smile.
“Maybe if I actually get to know him and be friend with him do you think he will try out? I really want to see what this kid could do.” He mumbled.
I smiled. “Why don’t you hang out with us, I’m sleeping over at his house tonight maybe if you stay for a little you could become friends. I know you two love the same things. Music, soccer, food, horror movies, you guys are a like. You guys could be friends.”
He stopped kicking the ball and thought. “Yeah man that would be great, he actually looks like a cool guy.”
“He really is.” I nodded. “He’s just shy.”
“I’ll tag along if that’s okay.”
I smiled knowing my two closest friends can actually get to know each other. “I’ll give you a ride after practice to my house and we can get cleaned there and then go?”
Tony nodded. “Yeah man that would work.”
Maybe I should let Tony know. “Oh yeah and Tone?”
“Yeah?”
“One more thing.” I chuckled. “I was suppose to tell him my feelings today and I got nervous and for some reason I told him it was you so he’s gonna be weird and stuff since he thinks I like you.”
Tony blushed and looked away. “That’s great man, I feel honored to know I’m your made up crush.” He laughed and I couldn’t help but to laugh with him. I’m more than greatful that he understands. After about ten minuets the rest of the team showed up and we got started on our practice, about two hours later it was finished. We walked back to my car and slumped into the seat, sweaty, out of breath, and tired.
“I should call Jaime now.” I mumbled to myself and Tony nodded as I pulled out my phone. I pressed on his contact and his numbed dialed out. After a few rings I heard some mumbling and smiled.
“Hello?” Jaime sounded sleepy, and adorable.
“Hey, we’re on our way.”
“We?” He questioned confused.
“Yeah Tony wants to hang out with us for a little.” I said.
He stood quiet for a moment that felt like forever “Yeah uhh sure okay.” He finally said.
“Alright cool see you in a little.” I hung up the phone and looked at Tony.
“Is he cool with it?”
I began to back out of the parking lot and mumbled a yeah. Oh I hope this goes great. Tony’s a great guy, I don’t see why Jaime wouldn’t like him. I hope this works out the way I plan.
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Jaime's POV
“Jaime.” My mom shook me, causing me to groan and wiggle in my bed sheets.
“Mom,” I began then looked at the time. “It’s 8:30 and Saturday, leave me alone.”
“I would but Vic’s here to see you.” She mumbled and got up. “I’ll let him in.”
My body froze, what’s Vic doing here so early? What does he want with me and my life this early?! Oh well, I sat up rubbing my eyes. Is it so weird that I can’t explain how I feel when I see him or talk to him? He’s only Vic, all the girls love him and he was loved by everyone. You could say more or less he was “Popular.” Well he was, but he sure wasn’t one of those stupid stuck up snobs you expect a popular person to be. No actually he was the sweetest person I knew. I would think he’s embarsed to be my best friend and everything. Considering I’m a no one. He hangs out with me other than the cool kids at school. He’s someone, I’m no one. And that’s how it is, people know me as Vic’s best friend and that’s it they don’t go ‘Oh you’re Jaime right?’ Nope, they always say ‘Oh you’re Vic’s best friend right?’. Yeah, sometimes living as his shadow isn’t the easiest thing to do. But, that’s how it is since both of us have been best friends since third grade. I got off my bed pulling me from my thoughts I walked over to my closet grabbing my plain red pull over. As I was slipping my pull over well over my head I heard the door open. I turned around, Vic looked at me a small smile placed at the base of his big pink full lips. Why is he smiling like this?
I let out a heavy sigh and walked over to my bed. “What do you want this early, Fuentes?”
He began to look down. “I don’t know my parents aren’t home and my Mike went off and did whatever, so I thought I’d come and hang out with you.”
I laughed and took a seat next to him on my bed. “Back up plan again,” I said teasingly shaking my head. “Should of known, and I thought you liked hanging out with me.” I laugh as he playfully hit my arm.
“Of course I love hanging out with you Hime you’re my best friend.” He leaned back on my bed smiling. “When are you’re parents leaving? I sort of need to talk to you about something.”
I rose an eyebrow at him “In an hour.”
He groaned, getting up and dragging me with him. “Come on lets go to my house then.” We then walked out of my room and down the stairs.
“Mom is it okay if I go to Vic’s for a little?” I asked.
“Pro que demonios quieres alla?” She rolled her eyes, she looks so rude right now it isn’t even funny.
“Mom it was just a simple question, please?”
She hesitated and then finally shook her head. “Oh well alright, I’m leaving to work and your father won’t be home till later, so when you come you’ll have to make dinner.”
I nodded, I was always alone. “Kay I’ll see you later.” I called out as I grabbed my key and we headed out the door. Vic only lived down the street from me, so it never took long to get to his house. Once we entered the house we sat on the couch and he filpped on the t.v and my favorite movie Toy Story came on. After begging Vic to watch it he finally agreed. We fell silent watching the movie, when it hit commercials however he turned to me and muted the t.v.
“Okay, I need to talk to you.” He said looking at me.
“Sure go for it.” I nodded for him to go, letting out a huge sigh he looked at me and then nodded.
“Jaime, I need to let you know something.”
I leaned in confused. “Sure what’s up?”
“Well, I like a boy.” Vic started, did I mention Vic was gay? Well yeah he’s gay. No one suspected the head captin of the soccer team to be gay, but I mean I thought it was obvious. I myself am not really sure about my sexuality anymore. I mean I don’t even care for it, it’s not like anyone likes me anyways. Besides me one knew Vic was gay, no one. He didn’t feel comfortable telling anyone but me. I didn’t mind really.
“Oh really? Who’s this lucky guy?” I asked smiling.
He looked away laughing, his face red and looked back at me.
“I’m not saying anything, but I kind of find Tony attractive and stuff” He laughed.
“Tony, Tony Perry?” I asked, out of everyone why him?
“I don’t feel like he would like me or anything, and he’s most likely not gay, and since no one but you knows, I wont do anything.”
I groaned, I wan’t him to be happy. “Vic, you have to give things a shot you can never be so scared.”
“Yeah but what if he isn’t gay and he just tells everyone, Jaime you know I wouldn’t like that.”
I thought for a minuet and sighed. “Yeah man, I guess.” I still think he should give things a shot, he’s always scared to go for things because he’s always to scared of what people will think, he already self harms, it broke my heart but he does. I don’t need another reason for him to add on to his already family problems. So i’ll just leave it alone.
He hugged me and smiled. “Thanks Jaime.”
I let out a sigh hugging him back. “Anytime Vic.”
And needless to say, I don’t know what to feel about this.
After we watched Toy Story and ate nothing but junk, I noticed Vic looking at the clock and he sighed. Vic got up and looked at me.
“I have to go to soccer practice.” He said.
“Oh,” I nodded and got up.
“I’ll give you a ride back, just let me get ready.” Vic motioned for me to sit down and I plopped back to the couch. Vic quickly ran upstairs.
Sitting alone on Vic’s couch made me be consumed by my thoughts. What made me have feelings for Vic? Yeah he was really good looking, and so athletic, even though I’m able to bet him at soccer. He was just perfect. Perfect for me that is. There might even be a bit of hope that he would like me back.
“Ready.” I heard Vic mumble I looked up to him.
I then got up and turned off the t.v and walked over next to him. “Can you hang out later? Maybe you can spend the night.”
Vic smiled “Yes, that would be great.”
“Alright, cool.” I smiled and we walked out of Vic’s house. He locked it and we then made it to his car. We got in and he started it, slowly backing out of my drive way. And within the next 5.5 seconds I was already getting out of his car.
“Just text me when you’re done and stuff.” I said as I shut the door.
“Of course see you later Hime Time.” He waved and he smiled.
I walked up the drive way to my house and walked into my house. No one was home of course.
I walked to my room and dropped my keys on my desk and went straight to my bed. I laid there hoping I’d fall asleep but no such luck, too much thoughts flowing through my mind. I kept on thinking of Vic. Vic’s dark brown eyes, Vic’s full pink lips, Vic’s beautiful dark long hair, the way Vic says my name; I even thought about how Vic and I would be as a couple. Vic and I would be the cutest couple at Mission Bay.
I looked at my clock and it said that it was 2:3o which meant that Vic didn’t even start practice an hour ago. Only an hour a half left and I’d see the guy that I loved with all my heart. I got out of bed and walked around my house. It was a bit messy so I put on some music and picked up a little. This would help me pass the time, right?
I was wrong, I only picked up my living room and then I went back to lie down in my bed, I wanted to think of how amazing and perfect Vic was. I put on my headphones and listened to songs that reminded me of Vic. I couldn’t help but feel at peace while I listened to these songs and thought of Vic.
Just then, another thought crept in my mind, how are my parents going to react if I end up telling them I’m gay? My parents were hardcore catholic and believed that men should not be with other men. I can’t keep it a secret because my parents would end up finding out and I can’t tell them cause them they’d disown me and think of me as a disappointment. I wouldn’t want that.
I know it’s way too early for them but I got out of bed and went to my desk drawer and took out my sleeping pills and popped two of them. I needed to escape my mind for a bit.
I dreamt that it was a couple years later and Vic and I were still friends, maybe even together, and we looked as happy as can be. Vic had the biggest smile on his handsome face. In the distance were my parents, they were starring at Vic and I in a disapproving way and I could tell that they knew and have disowned me. All of a sudden, I started crying in my dreams and to comfort me Vic had his arm around me was coming in for us to kiss but before we locked lips, I was awoken by my phone ringer going off.
“Hello?” I answered sounding sleepy.
“Hey, we’re on our way.” It was Vic, and his adorable voice.
“We?” I questioned confused.
“Yeah Tony wants to hang out with us for a little.” He said.
I was quiet for a moment “Yeah uhh sure okay.”
“Alright cool see you in a little.” Vic hung up the phone.
Why would Vic want me to be the third wheel if he was going to hangout with his crush? I don’t know how to feel about this. Maybe I should have told Vic how I felt WAY before he talked about liking Tony. I got out of bed trying to collect my thoughts. I went to get things ready for the long night ahead.