Darling, You'll Be Okay

"I am not afraid to keep on living I. Am not afraid to walk this world alone honey if you stay you'll be forgivin nothing you can say will stop me going home !" My alarm clock blared
It was Wednesday but since it was Christmas vacation. I didn't have a school till next Friday

I looked at my clock and saw it was 11 so I got out of bed and looked out my window which faced the street so. I could see the boys house from mine .
I looked out my window for awhile until I decided to get dressed
I put on some red skinnys a black Star Wars shirt and straightened my dark hair while putting my nose ring in
Is lipped on my toms and skipped down the stairs
I walked in the kitchen to see Corey sitting there eating pancakes.
" hey sleepy head " he said
"Hey where's mom?" I said grabbing a pepsi which is the only thing I drink besides water
"Christmas shopping" he said putting his plate away
"Got any plans today? " he asked leaving the kitchen and going Ito the living room I followed
" nope"
"We'll why don't me and you go get lunch and we can get those guys Christmas presents cause I know you want to get then something" he said smiling
"Sounds good" I said "let me go get my stuff ad il be down in. A minute"
I got up and went back to my room
I grabbed my old crappy phone and looked at the messages
Jaime:hey where r u kid I haven't seen u since yesterday morning?:)
Mike: hey babe:) how'd you sleep?
Vic:hey neighbor lady , come over tonight I miss u
Tony:mornig:)
Just as I was about reply Jaimes name flashed on my screen. And I hit answere
" hey hime"
"Jess! Are you okay? You were supposed to come over last night rember? You promised to watch movies but you never came n never texted us"
"Oh uh sorry I fell asleep honestly I'm fine sorry hime I promise ill be over at like 6 tonight okay?" I said
".. You better not have been doing anything stupid.."
"No hime honestly I haven't , now ill see I at 6 ik going out with Corey "
"Okay love you chica"he said as he hung up the phone
I sighed, if only he knew
I put my phone in my pocket grabbed my duct taped wallet and a black hoodie and skipped back downstairs
"God you take forever " Corey said chuckling as we walked out the door
We decided on shopping first then getting food after
We arrived at the mall and imediatly went to a Jewlery store . I picked out a diamond cross necklace for my mother and Corey picked out matching earrings
We walked out of the store
"where to next" corey asked
"I dont know i said "
I only needed the guys presents considering I got Corey his, new Xbox controller
"How about hot topic"
"Ug not that store I hate that store it's filled with weirdos" Corey mumbled
"Oh come on it's not that bad,"I said dragging him in the store direction

We walked into hot topic and I got a Star Wars shirt with a turtle stuffed animal key chain for tony, an a Harry potter shirt for mike.

Okay now lets go to the little music store I'm sure Mikey would love new drum sticks" I said walking in the direction dragging Corey along he absolutely hated shopping

We walked the music store and I got mike a pair of drumsticks his favorite brand
Now all I needed was vic and Jaime
I settled on 50$ mall gift cards for both of them considering they were always so picky about things
" you really love these boys don't you?" Corey asked as we exited the mall
"I really do they make me feel so much better." I said sighing

" as long as they make you happy and they keep you from hurting yourself again , I like them " he said getting in his car
it was 4:30 as we pulled up to panera bread which we both love a lot
We got in and. I ordered a lemonade and a panini as did Corey

By the time we finished It was 5:20and I was eager to get home and give the guys their gifts, even though Christmas wasn't till Friday I was leaving tomorrow to be with my grandparents for Christmas but I was coming back on Sunday .

We got in the drive way n I separated the gifts I to separate bags and walked over
"Don't be too late remember we have a 5 am flight "! Corey shouted as I walked across the street
"I won't " I shouted as I opened the door
"I got presents bitches!!" I yelled walking forward when I felt myself being grabbed me from behind
i recognized the hands as Jaimes considering he does this a lot a
"Holy fuck Jaime where'd you come from" i said as he dragged me in the living room with the others
"
"We'll u see when a mommy and a daddy love eachother -" he started giggling
"Oh hush you "i said laughing
"now put me down or no presents " i said as he threw me on the couch next to us
i landed on mike.
"hey beautiful" he said pecking my lips. i stood up
"Jaime your first" I said getting up and handing him the gift card
"Thanks Jess!" He said
"My turn"he said pulling out something from his pocket , it was a necklace that had a anchor on it with the words "I refuse to sink "
I absolutely loved anchors and he knew it
I hugged him "thanks hime time it's beautiful
"Who's next" I asked smiling
"Me!" Mike yelled getting up from his seat
" Ill be right back!" He shouted running up stairs
I walked over n sat next to vic
"Hey chica so where were u last night" he said stroking my hair before I could answere
Mike ran back down with his hand behind his back.
He smiled and handed me a white iPhone 4
"Merry Christmas baby, I know your old phone is terrible" he smiled
" oh my god Mikey thank you!" I said kissing his lips warning a few fake gags from te boys
I flipped them off
"Your on my plan also so don't worry about paying " he said smiling
I handed him the bag of his presents and he hugged me as he opened the bag
"I love it Jess." He said sitting back down
" we'll I don't know if u guys deserve any presents anymore." I teased causing them pour
I sat back between vic and tony and handed vic his card .
" wow tha ms Jess this is awesome " he said kissing my forehead as he got up and grabbed a bag out of the closet in the living room
He sat back down
"Hope you like it"
I opened it to find 2 band tshirts
Blink 182
And a pantera one and then batman and Spider-Man bracelets
"Thanks vickey " I said smiling and hugging him
i then handed tony his bag and he handed me a 50$ mall card .
" wow this is awesome!" He said playing with the turtle key chain.
"your such a little boy "I said teasin
"Let's get food I'm starving " I wined
"Anything for princess Jessica "Jaime teased as he tickled my stomach and got up
"How about me a jess go get pizza" jaime said as the other guys nodded their heads
"Pick up some soda" vic said as we walked out to door
we got into Jaimes car and I turned on my iPod on his radio wanting to avoid any conversation about last night
We drove along singing our hearts out to the radio when we arrived to a pizza place
We walked into it and Jaime grabbed the 4 pizzas we ordered on the way an handed the man cash and walked out the door.
He put the pizza in the back seat and turned to me
"Lets go next door to the 7-11and get Vick his soda" he said walking to the door
I followed him into the store he grabbed coke and I grabbed myself Pepsi
He laughed walking out
"You know too much Pepsi isn't good" he joked
I stuc my toung out
We got back in the car and I went to turn the radio when I noticed I forgot my bracelets and te fresh cuts from last night were showing
I threw my hand down hoping Jaime didn't see
He did
He grabbed my wrist examining te cuts
"Jess.." He said
"I knew I should have came n checked on you, what happened" he said looking at me
"I was thinking about josh, about the whole situation , and in worthless , and ugly and none fucking cares about me I'm just so sick of living ! I need something ! Idk anything the kids at school fucking hate me! My dad? He thinks ill never accomplish anything ..and I just hate my life."I shouted tears streaming my face
He cupped my cheek with his hand and looked in my face
"Listen your beautiful , those kids ? Fuck them,and as for josh , he didn't deserve u n I wana beat him so bad for hurting you." He said angrily
" I love u Jess ur my sister and I need u to stop hurting yourself next time u want to call me ill be there. , ill never leave" he kissed my cheek and I hugged him for the longest time
I needed this hug, I really did
Jaime pulled away and patted my head
"Let's go the guys will throw a fit if we don't get back" he said putting the key in and driving away
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(3 hours later)
"Guys I really have to go" I said getting up
Vic bounced up and hugged
"Stay safe and call me when u get there" he said hugging me still
"Will do moma vic" I said chuckling as Jaime now grabbed me
"Love you! Text me okay?"
"I will" I said
Next tony came
"Stay safe " he whispers as he lightly hugged me, he smelt amazing and I loved his hugs
Next. Mike grabbed me and pulled me close
"Love you babe" he said as he smashed his lips against mine
" love you too " I said
I walked out of the house an ran across the street back into my house
" I'm home mom " I called running up the stairs
"Don't forget wake up at 3:30 to get our flight at 5" she called back
I went into my room and put my new phone on the charger
I put on pajamas and then set my alarm clock.
I jumped in my bed and looked at my phone which was already set with the lock screen all of us on Halloween the boys dressed in ninja turtles outfits and me in regular cloths.
I unlocked it and my home screen was me and mike kissing
I smiled and went to my contacts to notice they were all set up already.
I out the phone down and laid down trying to fall asleep , I was not excited about waking up early
I rolled over and looked out my window watching the night sky as I fell asleep