Girl Corrupted

I woke up the next morning with Jesse on my mind thinking about what happened the day before .
My emotions were scattered everywhere though.
I didn't know if the kiss meant we were together, or it was meaningless to him..
I just didn't know..
And the last thing I wanted was for it to be awkward between us.

"Maria Bennett to the entrance, Maria Bennett." I heard on the loudspeaker.
Fuck

I really didn't care what I had on and didn't even bother to tame my wild hair.
Natural was better anyway.
I rushed out of my room and sped walked down the hallway,
until Jesse grabbed me into his room.
He kissed me again holding me close to him.
I guess that kiss wasn't meaningless to him.

"Maria," he began, "I like you. I really do."
He likes me? A boy likes ME?
"I like you too." I said.
"Then lets be together." He insisted.
Me having a boyfriend? Wow.
I embraced him giving him a kiss.
"I'm guessing that's a yes?" He questioned.
What do you think?
"Yes." I said while laughing.

We were hugging for about 2 minutes until I realized I had to be at the entrance.

"Oh crap!" I gasped.
"What!? What is it?" Jesse said shocked.
"They called me down to the entrance," I informed, "I have to go, I'll be back!"

I ran out of Jesse's room seeing Isabella standing there.
she gave me a wicked look which sent chills down my spine.
Nothing ever sent chills down my spine like that.
I honestly thought she was eavesdropping on me and Jesse,
what else would make her look at me like that?

I arrived at the entrance seeing a package at the front desk.

"Maria." Mrs. Shane called, "what took you so long?"
"Sorry, I got caught up." I replied.
"Well here," she said while handing me the package, "it's for you. I don't know who sent it, it doesn't have a name."
The fuck? Why is it so small?
"Oh okay thanks." I uttered.

Anxious to open the package,
I ran to my room and made sure I locked the door behind me.
It was against the institution's regulations but I really didn't give a shit.

I sat down on the floor tearing at the paper.

"Razors?" I said to myself. "Who would send me razors?"

The sight of them triggered me.

No Maria. Stop. You can't. You've been clean for too long. You can't start this again.

Listening to my conscience, I took the razors and put them in my drawer.
I knew I couldn't start cutting again, I was too strong for that.

For the past hours, I was wondering who had sent me them.
It was really getting to me, I'd find out sooner or later though.

As bored as I was, I got up to go to the recreational room, bracing myself for what was to come.
As I walked in, I seen Jesse, Karen, Desiree, Isabella and James sitting all together on the couch.

"There she is!" Karen burst out
Okay, keep it cool Maria. Don't do anything you will regret.

I spotted Isabella sitting a little too close to Jesse.
Get away from him whore.

I think Isabella likes Jesse, she was starting to piss me off with that though, he was mine and she needed to get that through her head.

Keeping my cool, I sat down next to Karen who was next to Desiree.

"Where have you been Missy?" Karen said with a giggle.
"In my room, you know, being anti-social." I remarked.

What was ticking me off was that Isabella kept distracting Jesse,
she kept talking in a low voice to him when I was talking.
That just pissed me off even more.

"Well," I said suddenly, "i'm gonna go now."

I stood up giving a big stretch, looked at Jesse and exited the recreational room.
I was outraged and sad at the same time, but I held it all in.

I started not to like Isabella, she was getting a bit too attached to Jesse.
But then again, she didn't know we were a couple. Or maybe she did. She was eavesdropping!
I should have announced it at the recreational room though.
It was the perfect opportunity, hopefully it comes around again.

I entered my room, thinking about the razors in my drawer.

Should I?