Ready Set Go

“danke, die süssen thats sehr” I said softly and smiled at him and looked away at Tom, who was pulling out a fag from his pocket and lighting it up. I sighed and he looked at me, my guess was that he heard it.

“Is there a problem?” He asked, his English wasn’t so bad I noted, and his voice was gentle. I shrugged and kind of looked away.

“Not really, I recently quit smoking that’s all.” I said and began to fiddle with my bag. I honestly wasn’t really too used to these guys, I do have my moments when we talk but in reality I hardly knew what they really liked, really hated and etc. Like before, I was never a talkative one. I was brought out of my thoughts when I realized the Georg was snapping his fingers in my face.

“Sie okay?” He asked as I looked up at him. I smiled lightly and nodded.

“Just not feeling so social.” I mumbled and went to sipping my water. From the corner of my eye I saw everyone just looking at me. I raised an eyebrow as I put the cup down.

“Was??”

“You’re a very anti-social girl.” Bill stated. I looked down.

“I’m not anti-social, I have friends, I just don’t talk much with people I don’t know a lot about, especially guys to be honest.” I said softly and again, began to fiddle with things.

“ich habe eine Idee!” Gustav sang. We all looked up at him, he had a cheeky grin and narrowed his eyes at me.

“Each of us will take you out, not on a date, every night, and we could talk and get to one each other better!” He smiled again and looked around at the guys for their opinion on this. They all seemed to agree, I guess, they just nodded their heads.

“Wie über nehme mich Sie heraus nach Abendessen?” Tom asked me with a gentle smile. I hesitated and then just nodded slightly.

After dinner, Tom said he was going to take me to the local park for a walk. I had no problem with that. We walked around the park, the first few minutes were awkwardly silent. We stopped at a bench and I looked up into the beautiful moon, it was a glistening blue and the stars were shining bright, practically dancing around it.

“Beautiful huh?” Tom asked quietly. I looked at him and nodded.

“Night time is my favorite, I love to look at the stars.” I said.

“Yes, I have to agree, they are just lovely,” He said and smiled.

“So, what do you really like to do in your spare time?” He continued.

“I really like to play my guitar, write down poetry, read, and such non-exciting things. You?” I said and looked at the passing old couple.

‘Playing guitar is never non-exciting. Its great, I love to play. When I’m on stage it’s like I’m lost in the music, and I’m trying hard to not mess up. I get really into when we play a song that reminds me of someone, it could be anyone, anyone important or special to me. Like Bill, my little brother, there are times when even our own music puts a smile on my face and it reminds me of him. We could be playing some romantic song and the person that would come to mind would be a girl, someone special to me dearly. Though I haven’t found that special girl yet, I will. So, tell me, how is your love life?” He asked softly.

“Well, honestly Tom, growing up, I was one of those girls that liked boys and such, I guess I still am into guys, I mean I’m single and such, but my whole life I’ve been single. I’ve never once had a relationship, for the sake of my dad, I didn’t want to put him and only him to my boy problems. But I’m pretty sure I’ll find someone now, since I am out of his house.” I said while looking at the same old couple who stopped and rested on a distant bench and were snuggling.

“So, you’ve never kissed a guy?”

“Nein.”

“Hmm,”

“Hmm?”

“Yes, Hmm.”

“Why Hmm tom?” I asked and looked at him. I noticed he was looking at me gently. I couldn’t help but take in his features and realize that he was rather gorgeous. If I’m saying tom is then Bill is too. Ha. Well, both of them were, from what I knew they both seemed great. Oh god, I like the twins. I blushed slightly and looked away.

‘Is something wrong? Why are you blushing?” Tom asked and turned my head so I can look at him. I smiled weakly.

“Its nothing.”

“Its not nothing.”

“Yes.”

“Tell me or else?”

“Or else what?” I teased with a smirk. He narrowed his eyes at me.

“Or else I’ll- I’ll-” His eyes softened and he leaned forward, gently brushing his soft lips against mine for a sec, scared I might pull away. Shocking both myself, and him, I didn’t and kissed him back. I pulled away shortly after and laughed a little. Tom was just my first kiss, but I still had to tell him, honestly not knowing whether its good or bad.

“I think I may like you, Tom Kaulitz and possibly Bill….”