You See Me but You Don't...

Aly asked me to hang with her this weekend and well i have no plans so i said yes...and because i like being near her"okay Mark today we are going out to the beach"she said"bu i didn't bring a swim suit?"i said"well i bought you one"she said and handed me swim trunks"your welcome"she said and i smiled"now change those pants into those and i'm gonna change into my bikini...i'm excited because i can wear it now"she said and smiled"come on"she said and grabbed my hand she showed me her bathroom so i can change and she changed in her room and the swim suit fits and i went to show Aly but i forgot she was changing and she didn't scream she laughed"silly i'm changing here"she said and i closed the door and i tooked a breath"sorry"i said and she laughed a little"it's okay your a guy...guys are curious....especially the shy ones you play innocent"she said and smiled"i respect girls"i said"shore you do..."she said"why so distrusting?"i said and she looked a little upset when i asked"well...i try to be trusting...but all the bullshit I've been threw...its hard to trust any guy because they all have a penis and that penis controls there mind"she said and i looked at her"but i swear i'm not like that..."i said"you probably aren't...its just how my mind works...its always gonna be that way...unless you give me time to see that you truly are who u say you are"she said"if you feel that way...how come you ask to hang with me today"i said"loneliness"she said and grabbed the beach bag and we said nothing further about it...i guess i'm the first friend she made here...we went to the beach and looked at her...i feel like i upset her so"i'm sorry.."i said and she looked at me and smiled"for what?"she said"for talking earlier"i said and she laughed"you know how silly that sounds....its fine Marky i'm actually happy you said something...i needed someone who would listen and not yell at me for something i can't really help"she said and i smiled"the truth is...i'm scared of men...older men...who don't look like boys like you....always been skeptical...in New York there's a lot of pervs out there...if a girl has a nice body they try to get with them like they are sex toys...luckily i never got raped...but i can't say the same for my mom at 10"she said"she was raped?"i said feeling really sad to hear that"yeah...at 10 year old...didn't know what sex was really until some thugs raped her in the park down the hill from my block in New York...its horrible and no one should go threw that"she said"no no one should...."i feel even more upset"sorry to hear"i said upset even more...no wonder she doesn't trust men"i understand how you are rough"i said"and daring"she said and we were on a cliff with water on the bottom"know how to swim?"she asked"yeah"i said"good because i Don't"she said"what are you gonna do and tooked off her shorts and shirt"Save Me"she said and i looked at her"What?"i said"you want me to trust you...save me"she said and she jumped of the cliff into the water and i dropped the stuff and i looked as the bubbles started to fade and i jumped in the water and i saw her in the water past out and i grabbed her and swam her back to shore and i listened to her heart nothing and i quickly did CPR and she spit up water and gasped and she looked at me"you really saved me"she said and i looked at her and smiled and she kissed my lips and i wasn't expecting that and she kept kissing me and my heart beat went fast"your a crazy chick you know that right"i said and smiled"yeah"she said and kissed me and when we stopped we went back up to get our stuff we ate P,B&J sandwiches and she smiled"so want to hang tomorrow and the next day"she asked as she got up as we went to the showers to get the sand off our skin"yeah"i said"sleep over"she said and bit her lip cutely and i smiled"are you shore..."i said and she smiled"yeah"she said and went to dry off and i smiled and we went to my car and went back to her place and i looked at her as i got dressed in my dry clothes and so did she only she let the door opened and try not to look i just went to the living room and put on the TV she came out"you know that kiss was a thanks for saving my life"she said"i know"i said but i was kinda a little hurt but she will warm up to me sooner or later"yeah...just a thanks"i said and she smiled"i'm kidding ...that kiss was real"she said"really?"i said and she smiled and nodded her head"i kinda like you Mark....but i'm trying to keep my emotions in check we only knew each other for like a week ...but i like you Mark...and i hope that makes you feel good"she said and i smiled"yeah it feel great...to hear that from you"i said and she sat next to me and looked at me"so tell me your story Mark"she said and looked at me"me?...you want to hear about me"i said surprised"yeah...i think its fair because i told you mine"she said"well"i said and turned off the TV and shifted my sitting position"well i'm from London...you know that already...my mom and dad got broke up as boyfriend and girlfriend...my mom had me young she was..umm 16....my mom was alone for most of the time she was raising me...so she became depressed...and i know it wasn't her fault...she became that way...she drank to get away from it all and sometimes she would hurt me.....because she was lonely"i said wanting to cry but i'm trying hard"no...she.."Aly said feeling sad"yeah...she raped me"i said about to cry"but i let it...because i knew she wasn't in her sober state of mind...and she was my mom...."i said crying and Aly shed a tear for me and i try to suck it up"so one day a neighbor noticed they way i was acting when i was around my mom...scared when she touches my head or any part of my body...i always flinched when my mom touched me...even when it wasn't the part of my body she touched when drunk....so the neighbor reported her and i was in foster care for awhile maybe 3 years i turned 17 and was about to be 18 and on my own...i went to her..because in the years i been in foster care i realized she was just ill and she didn't mean to do that to me..."i said"so you forgave her"Aly said"yeah"i said and smiled"then when i found her she saw me she was clean for awhile now and she was happy to see me...we talked and she told me she never wanted to hurt me and thinking back she was sick and don't deserve my forgiveness but i gave her another chance...so i turned 18 and i lived with her...when i turned 19 she told me she had breast cancer...i was mad at her for not telling me...and when i was about to be 20 she died...i was broken into pieces and i couldn't live in that house anymore to many memories so i got a job and moved out to Florida and i decided to get a GED and now i'm here...and that's my story"i said and whipped my tears and Aly looked at me"i would of never knew how hard your life was if you didn't told me"she said"yeah i try not to say anything...i don't want my dark past hunt others present"i said and she smiled"i know its a touchy subject but...your not a virgin....because you couldn't stop it...but have you with other girls?"she said"no... technically i'm virgin if your talking with other girls but not because i was forced...why do you feel like you have to ask me if i'm am or not"i said and she looked down"i have this thing for virgins...its wired and i can't help it...i have to know"she said"now who's the silly one"i said and rolled my eyes and she hit me"ouch...what was that for"i said rubbing my arm"because that was mean"she said and i shooked my head"so your sleeping over?"she said"yeah"i said"get your stuff and bring back chips and soda"she said and i shooked my head and got up and i went to get my stuff from home and i bought Diet Pepsi and Pepsi and chips and went back and put my stuff down in front of the couch and she grabbed it and brought it in her room"your sleeping next to me tonight"she said and i looked at her"you shore?"i said and she smiled"okay"i said and smiled...after we ate all the chips and drank all the soda as we watched Bones on Netflix she was tired so she changed into PJs and i did the same and she smiled"your one of those guys"she said"one of what guys"i said"your wearing a button down blue plaid 2 peace PJ"she said"so...are you scared of me?"she said"no"i said and she unbotton my shirt and took it off and she smiled and kissed my lips and i was putty in her hands"there i can see your body"she said and i looked at her"come on lets go to sleep"she said and i laid down and she went into the bathroom she was taking out her contacts and she came in and laid next to me she smiled"you have kind eyes"she said and bit her lip"thanks you too"i said"your and awkward kind of guy are you?"she said and i smiled"is it that obvious?"i said"yeah but i like it"she said and smiled"night"she said"night"i said and she held me close like a life size teddy bear and we fell asleep......