What If We Don't See Each Other Again?

Indianapolis, Indiana 29.4.2013.

‘So, you want to go out with me? I mean I would make you a dinner in our bus and then we could watch a movie.’ Oliver stood awkwardly on our bus back lounge door, waiting me while I did my makeup. Smile spread on my lips. ‘Sure.’ I giggled and added mascara on my lashes. Oliver sighed in relief. ‘Tonight?’ I nodded.

Before Oliver left, we agreed that he would pick me up after tonight show, from our bus. I sat in the front lounge, watching Star Wars, grinning like an idiot. ‘Hey.’ Austin, Alan, Ben and Cameron greeted me. ‘Why so happy.’ Alan laughed and sat beside me. ‘Oh nothing, just watching star wars.’ Austin interrupted me with a loud yes. ‘And I have a date tonight.’ Austin’s good mood dropped, but I didn’t have time to worry about that now. Ben looked pissed. ‘With who?’ He tried to ask calmly but horribly failed.

‘Oliver.’ I whispered. Ben sighed and shook his head. ‘Okay, where is he taking you?’ He leaned against the wall. ‘Dinner at his bus and then a movie.’ I smiled. Alan hugged me, happily I guess and I hugged him back. Austin and Cameron sat on beside me and Alan, both staring at Ben. ‘Does he know?’ Ben asked and I shook my head. ‘I don’t want to him to think I’m a freak.’ I muttered.

‘What doesn’t he know?’ Cameron asked confused. ‘My little sister state.’ Ben sighed, ‘She’s anorexic and depressed, that why all the medication.’ Cameron gasped. ‘Why didn’t you guys tell me, she’s like my little sister too.’ He sounded hurt and had every right to be. I mean we were close; he was like my big brother. Cameron made me food, kept company, gossiped with me, helped me with everything, just like Ben. I felt horrible with not telling him. ‘I’m sorry.’ But Cameron just shook his head smiling. ‘It’s okay, now I have more reasons to act like brother. Oh and who else knows?’ Alan and Austin raised their hands. ‘Motherfucker’ I heard Cam mumble. ‘Also James and Lee Malia.’ I added. I had told Lee yesterday, when we were eating lunch together, while waiting for the guys come back from the club. He didn’t feel like drinking and partying so he agreed to spent time with me.

Cameron and Ben left to the sound check, leaving me with two knob heads. Alan was playing cat on the floor and Austin was laughing his ass off. I tried to concentrate on the movie, but those two twats took my attention easily. ‘Do you guys have ice-cream?’ Alan laid on his back on the floor, licking his ‘paw’. I rolled my eyes and went to the freezer. ‘Vanilla and chocolate.’ I said, holding both flavors in my hands. I took three spoons and sat back on my spot at the couch. I gave the chocolate one to Alan and spoons for both.

‘Who the hell likes vanilla better than chocolate?’ Alan asked. ‘Me and apparently Dalia.’ Austin laughed. ‘Then why are you eating my chocolate.’ Alan took the ice-cream from Austin. ‘Because Dalia won’t let me touch the vanilla.’ Austin pouted and I couldn’t help but to laugh and hand him the ice-cream which I had barely touched. Austin smiled like a little kid and pecked my cheek.

Guys ended up eating both ice-creams before they had to go to their sound check. I sat alone, holding my stomach. Every time that I made even the slightest movement, my stomach decided to start hurt. I knew that the pills I took had side effects, but they were never this bad. I squirmed in pain until I passed out.

‘Dalia darling, are you okay?’ Danny whispered and rubbed my back, waking me. ‘No’ I groaned. Danny looked worried. ‘No wait.’ I sifted my body and started to laugh. ‘I’m okay.’ I smiled and pecked Danny’s cheek. Danny had been acting much better since the day Ben accidently hit me. Danny was kind and tried to listen me. Cameron said it was a miracle that Danny had changed.

I checked the time. Asking Alexandria had just finished their set, so Bring Me the Horizon was on at the moment. I had about hour before Oliver would come to take me on our date.

I sat in the back lounge, doing my makeup. ‘Red lips, fishtail braid, cross plugs on ears. Someone is trying to look good for Oliver.’ Cameron laughed and sat on the couch as I did my finishing touches, before getting dressed. ‘Okay, let’s keep it simple, full length jeans and shirt that won’t show your boobs.’ Cameron said seriously destroying my outfit plan.

Cameron clapped his hands and Ben walked in, handing me a pile of clothes. ‘You two are total twats.’ I laid the clothes on the couch, next to Cameron. I took my clothes off, leaving me just on my lingerie. ‘Cameron, out.’ Ben quickly ordered but I stopped Cam from leaving. ‘Ben you know that Cameron is like my brother, his like step brother.’ I smiled. ‘Am I a Bruce now?’ Cameron faked terrified tone, making us laugh.

Black high waist jeans, James’s white t-shirt that had naked girl with hands covering her boobs and a fading Great-Britain flag over the girl, red heels and gray cardigan. ‘Is that my shirt?’ James smirked as I walked through the bun area. He told me I looked good in it, better than he does but I didn’t agree with him. The shirt was sizes too big, but I think that’s why Ben made me wear it. It hid my skeletal body perfectly, making me look like normal sized girl. ‘Oliver is here.’ Danny sang and I couldn’t help but to smile.

He was wearing black skinnies, one of his clothing lines shirts which was white with a print in the middle. Over the t-shirt was a gray cardigan. ‘How cute, they are matching.’ Vegan laughed and sat on the couch with Matt, Lee and Jordan. I gave them a confused look.

‘Oliver kicked us out.’ Lee pouted and Oliver laughed. ‘I know you twats wouldn’t let us be, so you are staying here, till she walks through the door.’ Oliver said and took my hand, telling how beautiful I were.

‘Want to watch the movie as we eat or after.’ Oliver asked and handed me my plate, which had too much food for me. Well at least it was vegetarian food due the fact Oliver was vegetarian. I smiled and took the plate sitting down onto the couch. ‘as we eat.’ I giggled. Oliver went to their back lounge or game room as they called it to grab the movie. While he was there I took my pills from the jeans pocket and took them one at the time.

‘Why are you taking those?’ Oliver suddenly appeared next to me, before I managed to take the last one. ‘I don’t want to talk about it.’ I sighed and swallowed the last pill. ‘Lee knows, James, Austin, Alan and Ben knows.’ He sighed. ‘You forgot Cameron.’ Why in the bloody hell did I say that? Oliver didn’t say anything until the movie was on and the Jurassic Park logo appeared on the screen.

‘I love these movies.’ I laughed. Oliver smiled and we started to talk about our favorite scenes, characters and dinosaurs. We were so into the conversation that we missed the movie. When we finally started to pay attention to the screen, ending credits were on. We had eaten as we spoke. Oliver didn’t say anything when I left the plate almost untouched.

We were drinking wine and watching some shitty teen movie, which for my surprise was one of Oliver’s favorite movies. Oliver had his arm around my torso and he was acting every scene in the movie. ‘Mr. Sykes, you are weird.’ I laughed as he acted this really slutty and dump bitch, speaking about her shoes.

‘Take it back.’ He said, taking the wine class from me and putting it on the ground with his, far enough from the couch that we wouldn’t accidently overturn them on the floor. ‘Never.’ I giggled and he started to tickle me.

‘Take it back.’ He suddenly bit my neck, right on top of my sweet spot, making me moan. He stopped and lifted his head up, smirking. ‘You know I really like you right?’ He looked straight into my eyes. I blushed and nodded. ‘Good.’ He whispered and pressed his lips on mine.

The sweet kiss ended too soon. ‘Did you really have to stop kissing me?’ I pouted. Oliver smirked and nodded. ‘Would you be my girlfriend?’