Another Wave Has Turned Its Back On Me

This morning I wasn't awoken by some type of crazy nightmare but rather Mike, who was rubbing my side and whispering "wake up Alexandrea," in my ear. This caused me to smile to myself. 

"Good morning Miguelito." I said softly, opening my eyes and looking up at him. He had also just woken up and his hair was messy. I couldn't help myself. He looked so adorable. I pecked him on the lips and he smiled in return. 

"I'm so happy that you were my first," He said brushing my ear as he spoke while sending shivers throughout my body. I looked over at Mike, who was blushing slightly. I wasn't sure what he meant until the pain from the night before finally hit me. 

"I am too babe." And I was. I've known him for so long that it wasn't even awkward for us. Maybe it was rushed, but I didn't care. I didn't regret Mike and I wouldn't start to anytime soon. 

He unexpectedly pressed his lips to mine almost passionately. I kissed back and this time my tongue was asking for permission. He gladly granted it, smiling against the loving kiss, and our tongues swirled around each others. We finally parted and he leaned his forehead onto mine. 

"I know it's soon, but I've wanted you to be mine for so long.." his voice faded as his eyes lingered on mine. 

"And..?" I said with a smirk. 

"Be my girlfriend because I'm selfish and want you all to myself," he talked like a 5 year old boy, pulling me closely and wrapping his arms around me, pushing my face to his bare chest.
 
"Michael I really want to.. But.." I sighed and thought to myself for a minute. I've only known Tony for a while and I'm dumb for even considering him. But the way he kisses me is something different than Mike. I can't read it. And I'm not sure if I like that or not. But I also can't just lose my virginity to Mike, and then leave him for Tony. I'd never be able to do that to him, knowing that he's been in live with me since we were kids. Too bad I was so focused on Vic to notice. Ugh. Vic. Even though my feelings for him faded, my eyes still stared a little too long at his perfectly sculpted features. 

"But what Alex?" Mike snapped me back to the real situation ahead. I shook my head, clearing them out. It was just me and Mike. The way it should be. I kissed him with a giant grin on my face and turned down, nodding into the nape of his neck. 

"I'm yours." He lifted my chin up with a finger and looked me in the eyes, smiling with all of his pearly teeth. He looked like his dreams just came true, and maybe they have. But why didn't I feel the same? He kissed me on my cheeks, my forehead following soon after, and then slowly kissed my lips, to which I returned the favor. When the kiss got even more heated, I decided I could tease him a little now, for all the pain caused by him in my body from the previous night. I straddled him and dug my fingers into his morning hair, pulling at the ends while kissing him roughly. He began to feel under my shirt, or his shirt, that I threw on in the middle of the night. I decided to tease some more, so I sucked on the spot near his shoulder that drove him crazy, and grinded my hips into his. He groaned a bit and the only thing stopping me from going even farther was the pain lingering throughout my body. Being said, when he pulled my shirt up I shook my head, pulling apart and looking into his hungry, lust filled eyes. 

"What?" He said completely seriously, and a little disappointed. I couldn't help but smile because I had done this to him. I chuckled a bit. 

"Do you think I can just wake up after last night and be ready to go? This shit hurts a little, in case you forgot." I said laughing, still. "Don't worry baby," I leaned in, before he could protest, brushing my lips to his ear, "I'm not finished with you yet."

Then I got off of him and opened the door, leaving him dissatisfied and making my way to the bathroom down the hall past Vic's room. Shit. I really hoped he wasn't home. Or any of our friends. Mike then caught up to me. "I'll be joining you, then" he said quietly, causing me to giggle stupidly. 

We walked past Vic's room, trying to be quiet and sneaky, but the door was wide open. 

"What are you guys doing?" Vic asked with a knowing smirk on his face. 

"We're going to shower," Mike stated, making a face at his older brother. Just then, Jaime peeked his head through the doorway and winked at me, witnessing my attire, that consisted of Mike's shirt only. 

"Hey Alex," he smiled jokingly. "Have a good time last night?" I blushed and looked down a bit, laughing lightly. 

"Yeah, I did." I stated, turning my head to look up at Mike, who playfully slapped Jaime's chest. I turned back to Jaime and saw Tony now standing behind them. Oops. He didn't look happy, or disappointed. He looked angry and jealous. Yay. His eyes traveled all over my body, seeing Mike's shirt, and also his hand that was gripping my waist a little more tightly now, when he also saw Tony. 

"Hey Tone," Mike said, smiling widely and practically bragging because he had me and Tony didn't. They were so immature. I just wondered how they could both want me. Or how anyone could, for that matter. 

"Hey Mike, having a nice time?" Tony said coldly, glaring at us. 

"Yeah, in fact, I'm having a wonderful time." He pulled me closer and looked down at me, to which I glared back, "What?" he asked, giggling to himself. 

"Nothing. Don't be a dick," I said looking at him and then the floor, earning 'ooooh's from Vic and Jaime, who were still watching. He shouldn't treat Tony that way. Or me. I felt objectified. Like a toy they were constantly fighting over. I felt gross. Dirty, even. 

With that, I walked to the bathroom and locked the door. I was showering alone today. I let the warm water pour over me while I thought. Not even about me and Mike. But about how good Tony looked just now, despite his glaring looks. I wondered what would happen if I kissed him again. No. Alex. Stop. You're MIKE'S girlfriend now. Okay. I also need to stop talking to myself. 

Tony's POV

"Don't be a dick," Alex said, giving Mike a knowing glare and looking back down. My eyes widened a bit. At least she still cares about sparing my feelings. With that being said, she speed walked over to the bathroom, almost slamming the door behind her. I couldn't help but stare at her curly, messy hair that fell down her back, and her perfectly tanned legs that poked out from under Mike's shirt. She would look a lot better in my shirt.

It made my stomach churn just thinking about what they were possibly doing last night. I could've had her first. We both knew that. But she pushed people away and how Mike got it, I'll never know. He probably told her lie after lie just to fuck her. That made me even more sick. Just the thought of her touching him made me want to puke. I snapped back to reality when I felt a hand slap my back. Vic. I gave him a glare. 

"The fuck was that for?" 

"You stare at nothing a lot. Creeps me out," he shrugged. I turned my attention towards Mike, who stared at the floor, probably thinking about the same person as me. I knew I wasn't going to stop. Not for Mike. I was determined to make Alex all mine. And he needed to know that. So I made up a lie to talk to him in private. 

"You wanna smoke, Mike?" I stated, causing him to snap his head up and look at me. 

"Uh, I guess.. Yeah" he said, walking back to his room to which I followed. It smelt like pure weed in here. Until I sat on his bed and smelt Alex. I looked at the floor next to me and saw a girl's clothes scattered around. Alex. That just made me angry. I sat up and walked up to him, getting close enough so he would hear me clearly. 

"You can use Alex and fuck her and smoke with her all you want, but when she's pissed at you, I'll be there. And when you can't do shit about it, she'll be mine." I spoke carefully and coldly. 

He just laughed, which also pissed me off, "You can try, but Alex wouldn't do that. We're together now, if you didn't already know." My heart dropped at that. Is that why she said no to me? Because Mike asked? Whatever. I still need her. 

"That doesn't mean shit and you know it Mike." I said, turning around. "And I won't stop until she's mine." As I went to open the door to leave, a figure stood before me wrapped in a white towel.

"I, uh, I need my clothes." She said quietly, pushing past me lightly. My face got hot. Hopefully she didn't hear me. I didn't want her to think I just wanted to ruin her relationship. Jealousy rose once again when I turned back to see Mike holding her close, seeming to be apologizing to which she excepted by kissing him hard. I scoffed. "Have a blast, asshole." I mumbled to Mike, who chuckled in return. I stormed out the door and walked to my car. 

"Fuck.." I spat out, pulling out of the driveway and making my way back home. How the fuck could a girl do this to me? It didn't matter though. Mike would fuck it up and she'd come right back to me. I know it.