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Diary Entries
April 9th, 2013
I can't sleep.
I'm up thinking about all of these different people that shouldn't mean that much to me.
I don't mean much to these people at all, at least not anymore.
I can't keep letting these people make me sad, sleepless, and worrysome.
Sometimes I think I'm getting karma.
I feel guilty for being a bitch towards this unnamed person.
I gave this girl sleepless nights, maybe that's why it's happening to me.
I gave this girl worrysome nights by not explaining to her why I cut her off.
Maybe that's why I'm worrysome about my "friends" now and maybe they're attempting to cut me off?
I mean, I wish social media sites didn't tell me so much about how a person feels about me.
If they unfollow you, it's like they're done. They don't want anything to do with you anymore.
I've been unfollowed by 2 of my "friends" and I haveNT DONE ANYTHING THIS IS WHAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY ALL THIS TIME ALL I HAVE TRIED TO DO WAS BE A NICE FRIEND, THERE FOR THEM, I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING WHY AM I SO UPSET OVER THESE BITCHES THAT PROBABLY DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT ME THEY DONT CARE IF I WALK INTO THE ROOM THEY DONT CARE IF IM AROUND THEM THEY WOULDNT CARE IF I JUST DIED RIGHT NOW THEY WOULDNT FUCKING CARE WOULD ANYONE CARE ANYBODY BESIDES MY FAMILY BECAUSE HONESTLY I THINK PEOPLE WOULD GET OVER ME PRETTY QUICKLY IM PRETTY SURE I MEAN NOTHING TO ANYONE IF I WAS JUST GONE NO ONE'S LIVES WOULD CHANGE NOTHING WOULD CHANGE BECAUSE I HAVENT IMPACTED ANYONE IN ANYWAY BUT FOR SOME REASON EVERYONE SURROUNDING ME HAS IMPACTED ME IN SOME SHAPE OF FORM BUT IM JSUT THIS INVISIBLE BEING JUST SITTING THERE QQUIETLY, PATIENTLY WAITING TO JUST FUCKING BE HAPPY CAN I PLEASE PLEASE JUST BE FUCKING HAPPY PLEASE THATS ALL I FUCKING ASK FOR IM TIRED OF WANTING TO DIE PLEASE
I'm up thinking about all of these different people that shouldn't mean that much to me.
I don't mean much to these people at all, at least not anymore.
I can't keep letting these people make me sad, sleepless, and worrysome.
Sometimes I think I'm getting karma.
I feel guilty for being a bitch towards this unnamed person.
I gave this girl sleepless nights, maybe that's why it's happening to me.
I gave this girl worrysome nights by not explaining to her why I cut her off.
Maybe that's why I'm worrysome about my "friends" now and maybe they're attempting to cut me off?
I mean, I wish social media sites didn't tell me so much about how a person feels about me.
If they unfollow you, it's like they're done. They don't want anything to do with you anymore.
I've been unfollowed by 2 of my "friends" and I haveNT DONE ANYTHING THIS IS WHAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY ALL THIS TIME ALL I HAVE TRIED TO DO WAS BE A NICE FRIEND, THERE FOR THEM, I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING WHY AM I SO UPSET OVER THESE BITCHES THAT PROBABLY DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT ME THEY DONT CARE IF I WALK INTO THE ROOM THEY DONT CARE IF IM AROUND THEM THEY WOULDNT CARE IF I JUST DIED RIGHT NOW THEY WOULDNT FUCKING CARE WOULD ANYONE CARE ANYBODY BESIDES MY FAMILY BECAUSE HONESTLY I THINK PEOPLE WOULD GET OVER ME PRETTY QUICKLY IM PRETTY SURE I MEAN NOTHING TO ANYONE IF I WAS JUST GONE NO ONE'S LIVES WOULD CHANGE NOTHING WOULD CHANGE BECAUSE I HAVENT IMPACTED ANYONE IN ANYWAY BUT FOR SOME REASON EVERYONE SURROUNDING ME HAS IMPACTED ME IN SOME SHAPE OF FORM BUT IM JSUT THIS INVISIBLE BEING JUST SITTING THERE QQUIETLY, PATIENTLY WAITING TO JUST FUCKING BE HAPPY CAN I PLEASE PLEASE JUST BE FUCKING HAPPY PLEASE THATS ALL I FUCKING ASK FOR IM TIRED OF WANTING TO DIE PLEASE