I Know I'm Not That Perfect...

Our breakfast turned out to be cereal and coffee, which got cold because we were busy making out in the kitchen.

When my phone rang again.

"Fuck off.", i yelled towards my phone.
Austin laughed a Bit. "you should answer it."
"No I should stay here with you and ignore everybody Else."

He gave me a warning look.
I rolled my eyes and jumped down the counter i've been sitting on.

I took a look at the screen.
Justin.

"Hello?", I asked confused.
"Alan? I need to Talk to you. Now."
"Why? What happened?"
"I'll tell you then. Meet me at Starbucks."

Then he hung up.

"Who was it?", Austin asked, his mouth full of cereal.

Should I tell him,or...?
Better not. No need to make him jealous.

"ehr, my mum. She wants me to come home.", I answered, looking at the screen.
For some reason I couldn't lie in his face.

"Oh...", he seemed a bit disappointed.
I immediatly felt bad.

"I guess I'll go then.", I said with a small smile.
He swalloed his bite and stand up, walking with me to the door.

"Will I See you on Monday?", he asked.
"I hope so", I answered and smiled again.
He leaned down to kiss me softly and I nearly melted.
Then I made my way to Starbucks.

C:

"What do you want?", I asked when I sat in front of Justin with a coffee and a donut at some table in the corner of the only Starbucks in town.

"Yeah, I'm fine, Thanks.", He murmured and I rolled my eyes annoyed.

"I wanted to ask you, if we could start over again. A new beginning. Forget about everything.", He suddenly said, a begging look in his eyes.
"Justin, I..."
"We were perfect together. You said you'd love me."
"I did. But then you cheated on me!", I responded, angryly.
"I was drunk! I had no control about myself! It was a stupid mistake! And it meant nothing to me, not a bit."

He looked so sad right now.
I sighed and stared out of the window.

"I can't."
"But why?"
"I found someone else.", I suddenly told him.

My heart dropped when I saw the change in his eyes from hopefull to broken. He looked like I ripped out his heart. Maybe I did.

"W-What?", I could see tears rising in his eyes.
"I'm sorry, Jus. You need to get over me, because I don't think we will work again and hoping for a chance will only hurt you more."

I sounded so rude and I hated it. But I needed to end this here and now.

"Who?", he suddenly asked.

"His name is Austin."
My heart skipped a beat when I spoke out his name.

"The new guy?" he said.
I nodded.

A tear rolled down his cheak and I took his hand, because it nearly killed me to see him this sad.
He pulled it away quickly.

"Do you love him?", he wanted to know.
"I think so."
He nodded slowly.
"I'm sorry...", I said.
"No I'm sorry. For wasting your time."
He stand up and walked out of the café. I sighed and run my hand through my hair.

Tony would be proud of me for saying all those things.
I hated myself for it.

~:/
-Monday-

I was standing in front of my locker, collecting my books.
I was kinda nervous because Austin hadn't talked to me over the rest of the weekend.

When I suddenly saw him walking past me.

"Austin?", I shouted, happy to see him.
"What?", he suddnly snapped while turning around.
"W-what's wrong?", I asked a Bit shocked.

He gave me a pissed look.

"I Don't mind if you want to meet your ex, but please don't lie to me.", He said.

I gave him a confused look, when he continued.
"I saw you, Alan. With Justin. I wanted to buy some coffee when I saw you."

My heart dropped into my pants.
Fuck.

"It didn't mean anything, Austin. Trust me.", I immediatly said.
"But you lied to me. And that means a lot.", with this he walked away, leaving me standing there.