It's About Love

I haven't slept well in the last month, since that kiss with Kellin. I can't say that I didn't like it though, it was a good kiss.
Maybe because I wanted that to happen so badly, but I lost my courage and ran away.
The thing is that I would be lying if I said that I haven't thought about that kiss, and about Kellin all month.
I really wanted to call him, but I couldn't. I know he would leave, everyone does.
So I just stayed in my room all month, never leaving it, regardless of what my brother could possibly say or do.
I know he is happy with Tony and I don't want to ruin their relationship, they love each other so much.
Did I mentioned that Tony moved here? Yeah, he did.
Right now I'm in my room, which is completely dark, writing. And I came up with this.

I cannot spend another night in this home
I close my eyes and take a breath real slow
The consequence is if I leave I'm alone
But what’s the difference when you beg for love?

As I run through glass in the street
Kerosene hearts
Carry the name that my father gave me
And take the face of the wolf

'Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me

I met a girl who never looked so alone
Like sugar water in your mouth luke warm
She tied a cherry stem for me with her tongue
We fell in love and now we’re both alone

‘Cause I don’t need any more friends
And another kiss like a fire on pavement
We’ll burn it down to the end

Oh, oh
This is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me
The water is rusted, the air is unclean.
And there for a second I feel free
'Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat

I've waited all this night to honor you and say,
"I know it’s hard, but who are you to fall apart on me, on me?"

This is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me

'Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me
Said what about us, well what about me?
Hang from the gallows, asleep in the rain
'Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat

Paralyze me
Don't let me jump, don't let me fall

As I finished reading what I had just wrote I heard someone knocking at my door.
'Come in!' I said thinking that it might be my brother, I heard the door and stretched my arm so I could reach the lamp.
That's when I saw him. The reason why I was hiding in my room.
'Hi Vic!' he said.
'Get out, please!'
'Vic just let me talk!'
'Talk then!'
'Vic, I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have done what I did'
'Now you're sorry? It's been one fucking month since you talked to me! And you're sorry?!'
'Yes, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm such an asshole. And that I haven't had the guts to talk to you. But I was scared Vic. I was scared that you were mad at me'
'And why now? Why did you decided to talk with me now?'
'Because I love you Vic! There, I said it! I LOVE YOU!' he loves me? Without thinking about future consequences I got up and kissed him.